❛ they all treat me like i’m gonna BREAK. like i’m a BABY. like i can’t handle things on my OWN. it doesn’t HELP. it just makes me feel like more of a FREAK. ❜
❛ just frozen. like how you feel when you’re scared and you can’t breathe or talk or do anything. i felt this EVIL, like it was looking at me. ❜ ❛ it was evil? well, what do you think the evil wanted? ❜ ❛ to kill. ❜ ❛ to kill you? ❜ ❛ not me. EVERYONE ELSE. ❜ // credit.
❛ just frozen. like how you feel when you’re scared and you can’t breathe or talk or do anything. i felt this EVIL, like it was looking at me. ❜ ❛ it was evil? well, what do you think the evil wanted? ❜ ❛ to kill. ❜ ❛ to kill you? ❜ ❛ not me. EVERYONE ELSE. ❜ // credit.
It’s not a secret that I was close friends with Zero (prolificboy). It’s not a secret that I defended and stood by him throughout many things he did that weren’t the greatest. I could give examples of these things, but I’m trying not to involve any other people, especially not without their consent. I just want it to be known that I’ll own up to the things I’ve said and done, if those things come to light. I want to be transparent here.
What I’ve got to say does not involve any pedophiliac behavior, however, I do wish to attest to the fact that Zero is manipulative in nature, and there’s really no excuse for it. This is a testament to his character. The situation that will be discussed in this post is not the reason I’m making it, because quite frankly, I know very well that it does not warrant a call out. However, due to recent events, I would like to at least share with everyone the way that Zero speaks to people. Even those he deems friends.
It’s not a secret that I was close friends with Zero (prolificboy). It’s not a secret that I defended and stood by him throughout many things he did that weren’t the greatest. I could give examples of these things, but I’m trying not to involve any other people, especially not without their consent. I just want it to be known that I’ll own up to the things I’ve said and done, if those things come to light. I want to be transparent here.
What I’ve got to say does not involve any pedophiliac behavior, however, I do wish to attest to the fact that Zero is manipulative in nature, and there’s really no excuse for it. This is a testament to his character. The situation that will be discussed in this post is not the reason I’m making it, because quite frankly, I know very well that it does not warrant a call out. However, due to recent events, I would like to at least share with everyone the way that Zero speaks to people. Even those he deems friends.
NOTE: YOU CAN FIND THIS AT THIS GOOGLE DOC AS WELL, I KNOW THE SCREENSHOTS ARE SMALL HERE.
There are a lot of screenshots below, they do depict what happened between Zero and I, however, I’m only including them all to demonstrate the kind of language he uses when he speaks to people. I’ve seen him do this to other people first hand, however I don’t have screenshots or proof of this.
He is manipulative, he uses guilt-tripping language and tactics, and contradicts himself several times. He tried to make me feel guilty for creating a group chat he wasn’t involved in, he tried to guilt me into deleting that group chat, and when I didn’t delete it, he got angry about it. He did a lot that made me feel very uncomfortable, and I doubt you need to go through all of this to get a good idea of the way he treats people. However, definitely feel free to read on.
I’m going to be speaking in between screenshots in order to give context to the situation. The situation itself is NOT the important part. The important part is HOW he is speaking to me.
First, we had a group server that was Stranger Things/It based, and Dustin (Zero’s muse) was shipping with Eddie (and later a poly ship with Bill as well.) Eddie’s player, Alex, was upset by the way that Zero was having Dustin handle the situation within the roleplay, and decided to drop the poly ship. She then approached the Bill player about continuing to ship. Later, Alex apologized in the out of character chat, saying something like “I’m sorry if Eddie came off a bit rash, etc.” and Zero decided to start up an argument, saying that Eddie WAS being rash and unreasonable, when Alex had just been trying to apologize. The pair of them got into a big argument (I don’t have screenshots of this, except one that will be shown in a bit.) For context, Zero also accused Alex of not communicating well enough, when he also did not message her or communicate either.
Zero then messaged me during their argument in order to explain himself.
The Bill player then came to me as well to explain why what was happening was happening. There is an obvious difference in the way they’re explaining this situation.
This is the one excerpt I have from their conversation. You can see the tone and attitude that Zero is using. It’s disgusting and condescending, and he spoke to her as if he was the highest and mightiest of them all. It was ridiculous.
The weekend that all of this transpired, most people in our group chat were busy. One was spending time with family, I had been at work, and one had a friend visiting her. Because of this, we were not as active as usual, however, all of us were still posting when we could. However, I will admit that it was a bit quieter than usual. That night, I was on the phone with one of the members of our chat, who said something funny that I quoted in the ooc chat. To which Zero got upset about because he “thought we all shared Tea together. But alright.” I did not respond to this because I did not want to start an argument.
Not long after that, all of our servers began to disappear, and in the end, there was only one of the four servers left. Zero also deleted his blogs at this point. I decided to message Zero and see if he was okay. And this is what went down:
This is pretty much the end of that conversation. There are a few gaps in the screencaps, only because I took out that which was not necessary. If you’d like to see the conversation in its entirety, I’ll definitely let you see.
A couple days passed, things had seemingly gone back to normal, however things were definitely still tense. I won’t lie, I had a lot of anxiety those few days, especially in regard to speaking with Zero, however I stayed good to my promise and had made an effort to speak. Wednesday morning, we woke up to a message in a new group chat where Zero wanted to talk. He then messaged me saying that it wasn’t directed at me entirely because we had already discussed much of what he had mentioned in that message. (I didn’t get a screenshot of that post.) We started talking, and it was civil at first, and then it turned into an argument. Again, some parts of the conversation were taken out because they just weren’t necessary, or were redundant, however, if you’d like to see the conversation in full, I’ll totally get that to you.
I will admit that a lot of what I said was just said to appease him and keep the peace. Because I was honestly exhausted by this point and I was still at the mall with my sister, and I just wanted it to be done. I said what I knew would make him happy, so not everything I said was true. I’ll be honest about that. It felt like no matter what I did, there was nothing he was going to be happy with anyway. I felt like I had been backed into a corner.
A few days later, he sends me a long apology, which can be seen here. I’ll admit I did not respond to this. And I did not reply in the group server the next day at all.
After I did not respond to this apology, or reply in the group server the next day, I was sent this:
And that is the last thing Zero said to me. He then deleted the last server, and blocked me from discord.
After everything that happened, I did not bother with Zero anymore. I stayed away. I only told a select few people, who weren’t already involved, about what happened. On my end, this story didn’t go very far. However, I was approached by a mutual friend with some things Zero had been saying about me. Claiming that I kicked him out of our friend group, and that I stole his URLs, and his friend had to get them back for him, despite the fact it isn’t possible to take back a saved URL. I messaged the friend Zero claimed got the URL back and asked them what was up with that. I got no response, but the person who told me what Zero had said, was attacked by Zero. Who then accused me of spreading the screencap, stirring up drama, and trying to make him look like the bad guy. He said the timing matched up a bit too perfect for me not to have been the one to steal the URLs, but again, you can’t take back stolen URLs. I have screenshots of this, and I have permission to share. I just wanted to point this out because these were all lies. He was not afraid to spread lies about me.
None of this was said as a callout for this situation in particular, because the situation did not warrant a call out. I don’t care for drama, and I genuinely never intended to publicly share any of this. However, with all that’s come out recently, I felt it was important to testify to his character and the way that he treats other people. Especially those he considers friends.
❛ just frozen. like how you feel when you’re scared and you can’t breathe or talk or do anything. i felt this EVIL, like it was looking at me. ❜ ❛ it was evil? well, what do you think the evil wanted? ❜ ❛ to kill. ❜ ❛ to kill you? ❜ ❛ not me. EVERYONE ELSE. ❜ // credit.
hey there, palaroonskis! it's ya' girl trustbitchin. You guys are probably well aware that I've left af a few weeks back. And y'all know I'm not about drama and I don't like to feed into drama. Reedaroonski was kind enough to pass this message along for me to all of you. Just wanted to let you know that while I deleted for personal reasons that weren't necessarily entirely directed to this whole shabang goin' on (just some IRL stuff y'know?), that I watched a lot of this stuff happen first hand and I stand with y'all and I'm proud of all of you for standing up for yourselves. Anyways, just keep on truckin' guys. I still intend to stay out of things, but I heard about what was goin' on and just wanted to say a few things I guess. You're all ideal af and keep on bein' you. I'm sorry for all of the shit that's been goin' on and I hope it gets better soon. ONE MORE TIME: KEEP ON TRUCKIN' PALAROONSKIS.
I was friends with Zero for a bit. He invited me to participate in an IC server. At the beginning, he was nice and funny, though a few sexual comments did make me uncomfortable. I brushed them off, though, because I liked him and wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt. Our characters were “aged up” (Zero’s was aged to 17), though despite this, Zero still used Finn as his faceclaim, even though Finn is 15, an underaged child. The more I thought about it, the more uncomfortable I was with a 26 year old talking in depth about the sexual habits of a 17 year old — that’s almost a decade of an age difference. Our characters had developed a romantic relationship in the server, but eventually that server fizzled out and he invited me to a new one.
I thought that if I wrote a different character who wasn’t shipping with Zero’s character, he would stop pressuring me into a sexual ship. I was wrong because Zero’s character (still 17 in this server) immediately started making inappropriate sexual comments to mine. I do understand that this was a fictional roleplay, but the person writing was 26 years old. I was afraid to express my discomfort because I had seen Zero be abrasive to other people before. I brushed it off, though, since Zero was my friend and he was nice to me out of character. I ended up leaving this server because he was writing a graphic, full-on blowjob scene with his still-underage character.
But this, though extremely concerning and gross on its own, isn’t what made me write this post.
Zero made an incredibly suggestive comment to one of my friends who is a still a minor. This was the only sexual comment that I myself witnessed that was directed towards a minor, but the same minor told me that Zero has said creepy things of a similar nature to him in the past. This deeply disturbed me on behalf of my friend and any other minors that are writing with Zero. Even as a joke, this is predatory behavior.
In short, Zero sexualizes fictional minors and even went so far as to make sexual advances to a real minor. I wouldn’t be writing this if I didn’t think this was serious and something that others in the roleplay community need to be aware of. Please take care of yourselves and block him.
in light of a lot of people feeling manipulated by a friend they trusted, i thought it might be in everyone’s interest to list some of the signs to look out for ! manipulation is an everyday thing — you’re not stupid for not realising and you are entirely justified in whatever anger or upset you may be feeling. it is, at its simplest, a form of pure exploitation and you’ll find it’s sadly happened to more people in the tumblr roleplay community than you might think.
remember to take care of yourself. put yourself first when you need to. make sure you’re comfortable and safe. and surround yourself with positivity and love and good people.
y’all are still sleeping on noah schnapp’s performance in stranger things 2 and that is completely unacceptable. noah was given possibly the most challenging role this season. he had to literally play levels of his character. from a normal will to a depressed will to an anxious will to different levels of will becoming possessed to him being fully possessed- basically playing the monster itself. he had to literally act in response to a green screen (NOTHING) in so many scenes and he still was perfection and effective with his emotion. he had so many scenes that were emotionally challenging and amazingly delivered but I don’t hear any of you talking about it or praising him. I get that he wasn’t a big part of season 1 (even though you can see glimpses of his talent in episodes like ‘the body’), but that’s what makes it even worse. because he’s out there coming back this season and giving it his all and performing at such a high caliber that deserves an emmy/golden globe/SAG award and people are just ignoring him to talk about billy or the characters from last season who have already received so much praise (deservedly so). interviewers talk over him or ignore him and act like he doesn’t exist in the show even though the entire show mainly surrounds him and el. give noah schnapp the recognition and praise he deserves.
hey !! if anyone’s interested in joining a titanic based stranger things/it discord rp server, you should hit me up in IMs ??
so far we have will byers, eleven, mike wheeler, nancy wheeler, steve harrington, joyce byers, jim hopper, eddie kaspbrak, and richie tozier !!
so if you’re interested in joining as anyone who isn’t taken, please come let me know !! it’s gonna be a fun ass time tbh. you don’t have to have a blog for the character you wanna play either, i should say. you can be whoever you want to !!
hey !! if anyone’s interested in joining a titanic based stranger things/it discord rp server, you should hit me up in IMs ??
so far we have will byers, eleven, mike wheeler, nancy wheeler, steve harrington, joyce byers, jim hopper, eddie kaspbrak, and richie tozier !!
so if you’re interested in joining as anyone who isn’t taken, please come let me know !! it’s gonna be a fun ass time tbh. you don’t have to have a blog for the character you wanna play either, i should say. you can be whoever you want to !!
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