zombie girl

25 | aus | jfashion n stuff i like (☆_☆) *tw fr mh + addiction sometimes*

[zombiegirlhell]

my ipod i found in a shed n decorated <3

slowly adding all my music again bc i accidentally corrupted her a few months back >.< but shes back alive n has new music now too !!

[tomoike2525]

tokyo street snap

[tomoike2525]

tokyo street snap

[wookyungcha]

[zombiegirlhell]

although things look like its all good n dandy uhhh i have not been well at all my close friend passed away two weeks after my birthday, before and after that i had episodes and didnt leave the house for months and the other week was the first time to leave my house in months,, lots of family issues around Christmas ontop of grieving and financial issues and my mental health team not allowing me to have any therapy or medication….its getting so hard. on the 4th i dont even know what happened but i woke up in hospital after a gcs level 7 coma and having to be resuscitated with a defibrillator after my roommate and best friend of ten years gave me narcan and cpr and i was still unresponsive until waking up in hospital the next day. i feel so incredibly guilty, and i havent even told my family yet, i was about to apologise to them all but i got sort of kicked out of christmas day plans and then reinvented so i have no idea how to tell any of them about the nearly dying or having severe brain damage thing. i dont want my apologies to sound like a cop out because its all about me avoiding everyone in my family out of shame from my mental health but in order to explain thats why i have to explain all the shit thats happened aswell as the shiny new avoidant personality disorder diagnosis and it just sounds like a sob story instead of an actual apology that they deserve. idk

[xbeckittyx]

[fuwanity]

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[zombiegirlhell]

ipods still holding up so far i have only spent about $7 on a case or something everything else like the stickers nd charms and my computer to load music to it i already owned wahoooo fuck streaming ! although i havent been able to update my music in a bit because my old laptop broke :( but i found a good one off ebay for $60 and its gonna be way easier to get new music onto her now !!! one day might have to update the battery but tbh she lasts like three days full use no problems still

[hikkimaster]

[internetchan39]

[witchrealms]

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[mofufufu]

난 내방이 깔끔할때보다

[technoneko-2000]

☆ art by Nanase Aoi (physical release), circa 2007☆

[zombiegirlhell]

lol i did my belly againnnn bc the jewellery i had was just perfect to finish off my outfit lmfao but the bridge n conch were done professionally ! im rlly liking the lil yellow in my hair atm too :33

[zombiegirlhell]

oh and i had my birthday ! halfway to fifty :3 lotr themed birthday ofc haha i love being the sexy witch king of angmar :33 did not let myself walk around with the actual metal sword replica drunk tho lmfao so i had my larp sword too hahah

[zombiegirlhell]

its been ages but heres a few pics from my digicam last weekend :3 put a lil yellow in my hair nd got more piercings ! (bridge and conch, also sized up tunnels)

(also last pic was a joke abt being clean from $h in over 150 days but i look soo sweaty nd yucky bc i had spent the night in the deathcore room junping about T-T )

[zombiegirlhell]

oh my gosh its been so long ! to think i used to be on here daily ten years ago to now being scared of my phone most of the time 😭😭 lots to update on !