This is my final statement regarding Pressure, including the situation around it and any further works from me. Of course, this is all in support of Ren. However, I wish to focus this post towards Zerum, specifically “Sebastian Solace”. I feel obligated to share the truth from my short yet surprisingly telling experience working on his ref sheet.
I would also like to take this time to finalize my stance as an artist and a person, now that it’s been a second.
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PLEASE READ:
I trust. I hope and trust all of you. ALL OF YOU. To know that I don’t do this with intent of “making more drama”. I want to give people peace of mind and let the truth be heard. I want people to have solace.
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“Sebastian Solace”
It has now been brought to my awareness several times that Zerum is publically racist (as well as homophobic, ableist, yada yada). This allows me to reveal my disgust with how Sebastian Solace has been treated.
I will reveal *for her* that Sebastian, the Chilean American angsty 2012 grunge character, is intended to be 100% based off of a Kpop idol in personality, looks, body type, accessories, everything.
You can figure out who for yourselves, I feel no need to bring the person into this. But the guitar pick necklace he wears is the group’s merch. As far as I’m aware, it has no deeper meaning. I suggested changes to it. She denied changes. It is the merch to a T.
I mean no hate to kpop fans or that group btw. I don’t mean that in any way, I think they’re fine
Zerum sent me countless photos as reference, but only used the aforementioned idol, saying she wanted him to be “just like him”. I questioned it, voicing concern for not being Chilean if I made the modifications. I asked if she had any input on the fact that those were modern outfits and hair, but this was Sebastian pre-experimentation (early 2010’s). Instead of responding with her thoughts, she drew over my artwork asking for me to do “exactly so”: A modern hairstyle akin to that of the idol. She wanted a toned body akin to that of the idol. Clothing exactly like the idol. HEIGHT exactly like the idol. The only time his race was ever mentioned to me was by Kat, who told me to make sure that his skin tone was the same. “We don’t want any whitewashing”. I had trusted the writers- I had trusted ZERUM with at least depth of character writing. But what I got instead was the belief that whitewashing was purely skin tone. I was disgusted.
I have since deleted our dms, but she said to me along the lines of “this is so stupid, everyone would laugh”. Her and Kat both said if people found out about this, “[idol]’s photocard would increase in price!” I hated these statements the moment it entered my dms. The arrogance.
So I will say this with confidence: Sebastian is Zerum’s kpop crush. And she proudly married him, boasting about how she kept him from everyone. He wasn’t made for anyone else.
Please see this post if you would like proof of some shitty stuff she said (tw: homophobia, transphobia and the like)
I am putting the ref sheet here as I have deleted it off of my page, my portfolio, and I feel sick knowing she has my work on her twitter. But it’s just for reference to what I’m talking about.
I get it may not Look like much. I tried to keep what I thought was true as much as I could. I kept his body shape wider than I think she wanted. I kept his hair curly, trying to keep strands flying around. But the outfits, the accessories, all of it. It was directly from Zerum, telling me to copy the idol verbatim.
My final proof to that situation is the third image there. I posted with my original post. Frankly, I didn’t want to post it. I saw someone with it as their pfp though, meaning Zerum posted it elsewhere. I thought no reason to hide it. It is once again, a direct rip from the kpop idol in the exact pose. I hope some of you connect the dots. She just wanted a version of him that was hers and only hers.
Now, I don’t want this to sound like you can’t make a character in which you yourself love and adore, romantically or platonically. You can make characters based on your irl crushes, that’s fine. That’s awesome! What’s not awesome is lying, letting people believe there was truth to everything you made up. Putting labels on the character just so it was “different”. Shunning people who didn’t believe what you believed about a widely beloved character (that in turn wasn’t even the real character??!??). But you shun them because the widely beloved character was actually just your crush, hand-tailored for you and Only You. This should not have been in the game or even related to the game. This should be a private oc. By integrating this into the game, Zerum has caused what she hated: people “taking” her crush. But it’s her fault.
I beg of any of you who love the Sebastian we were led to believe existed, whether that be platonically or romantically or whatever. I beg you to rip it away from Zerum’s arms.
The writers do not get to choose what entire culture and heritage is just a label to give an oc for fun.
My statement was prepared before this came out. See the details. It’s exactly the photos I was given and whatnot.
An addition: Just to add to the lack of depth we all thought Sebastian had, Painter’s VA has now revealed that the secret redacted dna on his document was… a mermaid. Fml.
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My final thoughts to Pressure and its community
We are all left in shambles. The amount of artists I’ve seen completely devastated because they poured their hearts out into the media, only to feel like they were held in a chokehold because of it. I am disgusted. I want nothing to do with Pressure. Nothing to do with its IP. I have deleted my official art, as mentioned. I leave my fan work up as a statement of my progress and a statement to how I approach characters and their relationships.
I am so sick to my stomach knowing I was ever involved in this fucking game. Knowing I ever wanted to be a part of it. I might speak for more people than I think, but I personally always saw the way they connected with community artists and thought “that could be me”. I wanted to interact with the devs, to be a part of the team somehow. How fucking vile. How fucking horrendous everything would turn out to be, and I feel ashamed to have had that hubris within me. I say it as I’m sure I’m not the only artist, commissioned or not, who wanted to be involved in its “open community of developers”. I hope I speak for all of us when I say that the people we idolized do not represent us now. But I know I’m not the only one ashamed of it anyways.
I wish luck to those like me who feel taken advantage of. I wish luck to those who feel like they can’t trust a community again. I wish luck to those who relied on the game as a comfort. I don’t have kind words, some advice, or really… anything. I don’t have anything to say, because I haven’t figured it out.
But there’s no rush.
To those of you who found comfort in Sebastian, just know that the Sebastian you loved was already your own original take. “He” was never who you thought he was. “He” was made for Zerum, and nothing more. Any headcanons, any gender identifications, any sexualities you gave him, that is more than Zerum ever would have the gall to do. He is not Zerum’s character. Sebastian was a PR act.
Please. Make your own Sebastians. Give him his chilean heritage. Let him somberly play guitar in the park at midnight because he needed somewhere to think. Let him pierce his ears impulsively at the age of 12, only to be caught by his mom or his siblings. Let him be in middle school band playing the trumpet. Let him be who Zerum never wanted him to be.
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I need time. I haven’t been thinking straight or drawing straight or anything. I feel so ashamed I tried to rush through it via the greed day artwork I did. I can’t shove myself into another hyperfixation forcibly. For now, I will probably lean back on my OCs, waiting for the next fixation to come.
I am hugging my sea bunny and convincing him that he’s been saved from the hellhole he was born. I am taking my seb keychain and retiring him to my merch collection, forever to be held in pristine condition as a relic of my loving past. I am trying to move forward with kindness in my heart towards myself for loving what I loved. I encourage you to do the same.
Do not be ashamed of who you were before this all came out. We didn’t know. And we loved the material. Nothing will deny that. Don’t shun it out of your life just because of that. Accept it happened, accept the source material is dead, know you’re not supporting it anymore in a physical and monetary sense, and move on.
I said I would take some time off, but given the gravity of recent events, I feel it is my responsibility to inform the community. Zeal recently uploaded a video to YouTube titled "i have killed myself," which was deleted approximately 5 minutes later.
As you can imagine, the video is a farewell message and a supposed response to the serious public accusations made by REN. However, over the course of an hour, Zeal fails to provide any evidence that clears his name or defends him in any substantial way. He limits himself to pointing out three minor inconsistencies that are easily explained given the context of the abuse. In his own words, because of how quickly his team and the community cut ties with him, there was "no reason to keep going."
Most disturbing is that he once again claims his relationships with REN were consensual and mutual, going as far as to apologize for "being bad at sex." This statement, besides being disgusting, completely downplays the nature of the assault allegations. He even refers to those episodes with nostalgia, as if they had been positive experiences, only to then label REN a liar and claim he doesn't understand why they did this.
Later, he apologizes to his work team (programmers, animators, artists, and external collaborators), lamenting that he ruined their reputations and "wasted" their talent and the time they dedicated to Pressure. He also speaks in what appears to be Danish for about 7 minutes to address his family. The video concludes with Zeal crying and constantly repeating his intentions to take his own life, expressing fear regarding the outcome of this entire situation.
It is vital not to be deceived. What we are witnessing is an emotional manipulation tactic aimed at both the general public and REN. They specifically stated that they did not want Zeal to hurt himself, and the fact that he is using self-harm as a response proves that, once again, he has no real consideration for the victim’s feelings or well-being.
While the community was processing this, the user who re-uploaded the video reported that Zeal was allegedly in the hospital. Hours later, a new statement emerged, this time attributed to "Zeal’s mom," threatening to take legal action against REN for supposedly damaging the developer's reputation, career, and mental health.
It is important to understand that this is another form of intimidation; legally, a defamation lawsuit would crumble in the face of the overwhelming amount of evidence presented, and a "damages for emotional distress" argument would hardly succeed when the truth is the primary defense. The real goal of these threats is usually to financially drain the victim, clean the accused's public image, and force a narrative shift from "aggressor" to "victim of harassment."
However, the most recent update suggests that all of this might be a sham to buy time. Zeal's account was detected as active on Roblox, presumably playing Arsenal, while he was supposedly hospitalized. Furthermore, a deeper investigation has raised suspicions about the authenticity of his mother's account, which appears to have been created for this purpose and shows signs of being an alt managed by him.
Finally, i want you to know, REN, that you have our full support and solidarity. It is devastating that you are being subjected to these fear-based power plays after showing such immense courage, but you are not standing alone. Your truth matters, and we will continue to uphold it against every attempt to distort the narrative.
To the community: stop playing Pressure and withdraw all financial support. Continuing to engage with the game now means actively enabling an abuser. Do not feel guilty for your past support—you didn’t have the facts then; however, now that the truth is out, the responsibility is to act.
This goes beyond Zeal. People like Wil, Kat, and Zerum, who were aware of the situation and chose silence to protect their profits, are accomplices. Choosing money over human lives is inexcusable, and they must be held accountable as well. No piece of entertainment is worth the cost of a person's safety and dignity.
Please take care of yourselves and try to take a break from this situation as well; I know how heavy and difficult it is to process. I will keep you updated if anything else comes to light. In a few days or weeks, I will decide the future of this fan-project, but for now, it will serve its role in spreading awareness.
The google doc. (If it gets taken down, archive.org link)
Zeal's initial statement
Suicide baiting (screenshot from [RAAAAH THE ARCHIVE HAS BEEN CENSORED] !)(+video archived)(another link to the archived video, but not broken.)
Zeal's mother's initial statement. (At least, the Pressure staff claims she is.)
Zeal caught playing Arsenal after his suicide attempt.
Concerning Zerum:
Zerum's lie, predicted by the doc.
"Stepping Down"
Toxic behaviors (if the linked tweet gets taken down, archive.org link)
Deleting evidences (to take with a grain of salt, as it could be fanarts she reposted being deleted)
Zerum exploiting people (if the linked tweet gets taken down, archive.org link) (note: victim was 17 at the time [CONFIRMED INFORMATION]) (+other victims speaking up)
Zerum's homophobia (if the linked tweet gets taken done, archive.org link)
Zerum admitting she supports Zeal + backtracking (if the tweet gets taken down, archive link 1 and 2.)
Zerum changing from "I didnt mean to type this" to "I got hacked" + saying the n word and backtracking afterward. (if the tweet gets taken down, archive.org link)
Deleting her strawpage to avoid consequences (beware, the URL got snipped)
Zerum still has Zeal friended on Roblox.
Concerning Kat:
Kat's initial reaction (Deleting the twitter account)
A testimony on Kat's ableism. (if the linked tweet gets taken down, archive.org link)
Kat has exploited artists and didn't pay them. (if the linked tweet gets taken down, archive.org link)
A testimony on Kat's toxic behavior toward her friends. (if the linked tweet gets taken down, archive.org link)
Concerning Wil:
Wil's initial statement (Will need to add the screenshot of him blocking Ren)
Non-sexual grooming (if the tweet gets taken down, archive.org link)
Wil was aware.
Wil's updated statement. (If the tweet gets taken down, archive.org link)
Wil still has Zeal friended on Roblox.
Concerning other devs:
Kibo's questionable actions toward players. (If the reddit post gets taken down, archive.org link)
Other stuff:
Financing Pressure
The devs are silencing anyone speaking out against them. (If the tweet gets taken down, archive.org link)
The team has encouraged harassment. (If the tweet gets taken down, archive.org link) (+other testimony and its archive link)
People speaking up on Sebastian's poorly executed double nationality.
^ This is likely due to human!sebastian was based on Zerum's k-pop crush. (If the tweet gets taken down, archive.org link)
The team has manipulated other devs such as Kobrik into believing Ren was lying and into making disgusting statements. (Link has Kobrik's initial statement+the explaination.)
They have also lied and told some people that Ren was the abuser. (If the tweet gets taken down, archive.org link. It. doesnt show the stuff in the right order, look at it from end to start.)
GIANNI STEPPING DOWN !!!! WOOHOO !!!!!
ARTY STEPPING DOWN !!!! WOOHOO !!!!!
JS HARRIS STEPPING DOWN !!!! WOOHOO !!!!!
ELLIS KNIGHT STEPPING DOWN !!!! WOOHOO !!!!!
(other VAs have also stepped down, but I haven't found their statements. Feel free to send it to me !)
ive seen mime get drawn with butterfly wings/otherwise tied to butterflies occaisionally, and i find it very interesting! is there any specific meaning to butterflies or is it tied to someones specific mime design becoming popular?
Hoy! I've dug up the "Freshwater Freaking It" post just to listen to your song enough times that I should let you know directly.
It is SO much fun. The duck sound murders me every time it comes around. I tip my hat to you and your musical genius ^-^
guys someone needs to recreate mimes voice lines because why does my favorite character have to be voiced by Simon.. 💔 Reply to this with your attempts please... Even doing a different voice and filter is cool