Shin

just a dumb kid trying to kid myself. 200900

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Note To The New Me

Heey! Greetings from your 17-year-old version!

How long has it been? Two years? Three years? Four? Or maybe ten? Time is moving pretty fast huh? :) Feels like we just graduate from junior high yesterday, and then kaboom we’re already in university, have works to do, have a family perhaps?

Let’s flashback for a bit. Remember that moment when we thought we couldn’t survive in Sanur? It was on first year, and yes we were wrong. We’re strong enough to made it until high school graduation! Hey, are you playing DN?? I want to play that game so badly rn but I thought, “Ok, I will graduate then I can play whenever I want.” And second year flew like a flash, then third year, where we got issues in yb team. Took time to heal, yeah? But failed to find any outdoor activity lol :D It’s okay that we can’t draw that good anymore, we get benefits to do other things than just sitting in our room right? Well, I don’t regret it, so you shouldn’t either.

Look on the bright side! On the first year of high school we got a silly group. We often hang out with them, don’t forget that day on KidZania. And then it was Emily’s 17th birthday but the day before was quite a chaos in Jakarta so, sadly, mom didn’t allow us to go there. Aaaand we were in debate class too, but it didn’t go that well... The only thing to be proud of is that we succeeded in making debate class available for the juniors at Open House. Moving on to second year, different class, different group. But welcome to science club! We made a lot of progress from trying to find ‘outdoor activity’ huh? Joining three competitions in a year and won all of them, though we had to get through some issues either. Don’t mind it! We’re tough. :) Finally! Third year of high school, where we thought this year will be full of studying in our room but actually we have other problems that made studying the second priority. Remember those days when we hate weekends because we need to attend classes until 7 PM and it’s tiring af and we’re like so done with our classmates who complained about the retreat that was held on weekends haha.

Now enough with the flashback. Things might have changed a lot since then. You are older obviously but newer, while I’m younger but old. These days, when you could easily get mad at little things at home, school, or anywhere, when you weren’t mature enough to know the situation you’re in, when you helped other people and prioritise them over your own tasks, these are in the past. You have a future that you need to build, a future of yourself. Don’t look back, keep moving forward. Just keep this good memories, learn from the bad ones.

You may have tougher competitors at the moment you read this. But remember, everyone is unique. You’re blessed with the ability and skills you own. Your style is different than them, you have your own strength. Comparing yourself to them will only give you negative energy and waste your time. Why don’t you use that time to improve yourself instead of regretting?

You still think you’re an empath? No, you’re not. If you are, then you can control it. Believe me, I didn’t get too emotional if I saw things that should’ve triggered me. That means I can control when to be emotional and when not to, right? It goes the same for you. Remember that many people are helping you. You’re not walking on this long journey alone. And remember God, He always has the right choice for you.

This is made on 22 November, 2017 1:28 AM and currently I’m studying chemistry. I need to get back to study so I can go to sleep lol. Oh, and don’t forget to be yourself, take care of yourself, how can you work great if your health is poor?

Overall, love yourself, as the new me.

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2017: Not-so-good Moments

Kenangan yang tidak menyenangkan di SMA? Semaksimal mungkin saya berusaha agar gak ada kenangan macem ini di tahun terakhir di Sanur, tapi toh nyatanya saat-saat seperti ini datang dengan sendirinya walaupun saya sudah berusaha berpikir positif. Pastinya tidak berhubungan dengan pelajaran karena semua pelajaran di IPA tuh monoton aja, gak sampe bikin orang mau nampol orang lain.

Saya paling tidak suka pada pengangguran, gak ngerjain apa-apa padahal ada banyak waktu, cuman bengong ngeliatin orang lewat, ngeliatin hp terus-terusan. Rasanya kayak boros waktu. 24 jam aja kurang, tapi ini malah disia-siain. Dulu di Ragadaya saya sie keamanan dan mendapat tugas jaga di lab fisika di mana barang-barang ketinggalan semuanya diletakkan di sana. Kebetulan aja ada yang mau tukeran dari lapangan, ya sudah saya iyain aja, sekalian pengen ngeliat lomba paskibra. Abis selesai lomba, lapangan parkir dibuka buat parkir mobil lagi, berarti tugas saya di sana sudah selesai. Saya kembali ke lab fisika dan pada akhirnya diminta buat jaga lab fisika sampai selesai acara jam 6 atau 7an.

Jujur, saya pengen juga ngeliat Pak Djarot dan narasumber-narasumber lainnya yang pada dihebohin, walaupun saya ga tahu siapa mereka. Hampir semua anak keamanan jaga di luar atau di aula sambil ngeliat narasumbernya, sedangkan saya? ngeliatin barang ketinggalan. Karena bosen pake banget, saya ngabisin waktu main hp aja. Sempet sih ngoceh ke adek kelas yang ada di lab fis juga, dia malah bilang, “Ada untungnya juga sih, di aula pasti ribut banget, kalo di sini tenang dan dingin.” Nah, mulai deh saya berpikiran positif lagi, bener juga itu anak.

Tapi bukan sampai acara di aula saja. Untuk penutupan, pastinya kita semua diajak untuk kumpul di aula SD untuk nonton Vidi. Vidi naik panggung barengan dengan anak-anak keamanan yang akhirnya ikut ngerumunin panggung di sebelah kiri. Saya sendiri pengen ikut nonton tapi malah kehalangan dan lagi ga mood nyanyi, jadi apa boleh buat saya ke arah belakang aula SD. Di sana ternyata ada juga anak yang lagi gak pengen di tempat rame. Kita berdua naik ke lab fisika lagi, ngadem di sana. Eh, tiba-tiba anak keamanan yang lain masuk ke sana nanyain kotak barang sitaan ada di mana. Dari awal memang kotak itu gak ditaruh di lab fisika dan biasanya diletakkan di dekat meja penerima tamu. Karena kebingungan, akhirnya saya dan yang lagi nganggur ikut bantu cari. Katanya murid sekolah lain sudah mau pulang dari tadi sore tapi akhirnya nunggu lama karena barang sitaannya belum ditemukan. Saat kita cari-cari barangnya di pos satpam SMP, ada murid sekolah itu juga yang mungkin kakak kelasnya datengin kita dan malah marah-marah. “Kok ga bener sih kerjanya? Udah dari tadi ditungguin loh ini harusnya udah pulang dari jam 5,” semacam itulah yang membuat saya dan yang lain shock. Gak nyangka ada tamu sekasar itu.

Selagi yang lain coba cari di kotak barang sitaan, saya mencoba menanyakan ke yang lain melalui Zelo mengenai kotak barang sitaan. Tapi dibalasnya malah cuman ocehan dan itu malah bikin saya tambah kesal. Maksudnya, okelah maaf mengganggu kesenangan kalian yang lagi nonton Vidi, tapi di sini ada tamu yang marah-marah. Saya berusaha untuk menahan diri, saya tanya lagi ke murid sekolah lain itu tadi siang datang dari SD atau SMP. Ternyata mereka datang dari SD dan gak mungkin barang mereka ada di kotak sitaan SMP.

Mulailah kita cari-cari kotak sitaan SD ada di mana, saya dan beberapa anak lain mengantar murid itu ke SD dulu karena dijemputnya juga di SD. Akhirnya ada yang menemukan kotak sitaan itu dan barangnya memang ada di sana. Saya dan yang lain sempat meminta maaf kepada murid itu karena membuat pulangnya ngaret, dan malah dibalas dengan maaf juga karena kakak kelasnya ngomel. Yah, setidaknya kebaikan murid yang satu itu membuat saya tidak emosi lagi.

Saya mengapresiasikan teman-teman yang di saat mendesak itu mau membantu, tapi saya cukup kecewa dengan yang tetap menonton Vidi dan bahkan tidak menghiraukan saya waktu saya nanya di mana kotak sitaan SD bahkan sudah tidak menggunakan earphone dan mematikan Zelonya. Katanya harus kompak dalam bekerja, tapi beginikah yang dimaksud dengan kompak dan bekerja? Tahun-tahun sebelumnya saya pernah ikut sie photobooth dan perlengkapan, dan pengalaman dari itu jauh lebih baik dibandingkan yang saya alami di acara terakhir di SMA ini. Untuk ke depannya saya berharap agar saya dapat mengatur anggota regu sendiri tanpa menimbulkan permasalahan seperti ini.

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Asal Manusia

Suatu hari di sebuah tubuh bernama manusia, Mitosis sebagai manager perusahaan Pembelahan Sel sedang berjalan-jalan di sekitar pabriknya yang saat itu sedang dalam proses pembangunan. Tanah di daerah pabrik itu dibatasi dengan pagar membran agar sel-sel awam di luar tidak mengganggu pembangunan itu. Pintunya pun dijaga ketat oleh beberapa sel penjaga agar tidak sembarang sel atau penyelundup masuk dan menggagalkan proses ini. Selain itu, pagar-pagar membran tersebut juga berfungsi untuk mempercepat kerja sel-sel di sekitar bangunan, karena tentu saja di dalam pagar besi itu mereka diawasi agar pabriknya selesai tepat waktu.

Mitosis kemudian kembali ke kantor sementaranya yang berada di samping pos penjaga gerbang masuk. Ia mulai mengerjakan bagiannya, seperti mencari bahan-bahan yang masih dibutuhkan dalam jumlah banyak, meyakinkan bahwa bahan-bahan yang sudah dipesan datang tepat waktu, memilah properti yang diperlukan untuk pabriknya nanti, dan masih banyak lagi. Mitosis bekerja hingga larut malam dan paginya ia dibangunkan dengan ketukan di pintu kantornya. Dibukalah pintunya dan ia melihat sel pekerja bersama dengan sebuah hal lain yang tidak dikenalnya.

“Siapa ini?” tanya Mitosis, sedikit marah karena tidak meminta izin untuk memperbolehkan dia masuk ke area pembangunan ini. “Bos Pembelahan Sel yang mengirimnya ke sini,” balas sel pekerja. Mitosis terdiam lalu dikejutkan dengan sodoran tangan. “Nama saya Meiosis. Saya akan jadi partner kerja anda sampai pabrik ini selesai dibangun,” sahutnya, menunggu tangannya dijabat oleh Mitosis. Mitosis mulai geram terhadap perlakuan bosnya dan Meiosis, tapi ditahanlah kegeramannya itu. Ia mempersilakan Meiosis masuk ke kantornya dan sel pekerja untuk kembali bekerja.

Mitosis mulai mencari pekerjaan yang cocok untuk Meiosis setelah akhirnya Meiosis berkata, “Sikapmu jutek sekali barusan, sepertinya kamu memang lebih pantas bekerja sendirian.” Saat itu pula Mitosis sudah tidak dapat menahan amarahnya. Ia berbalik badan mengarah ke Meiosis dan menatap matanya dengan tajam.

“Mau berdebat dengan Mitosis? Biar saya lihat diagnosis anda, katanya anda hanya separuh dari saya. Saya berhati-hati dengan pembagian sel, membuat hasil yang identik. Sedangkan anda ‘Oh, saya beda sekali!’ Jangan bicara dengan saya! Pekerjaan anda terlalu lama di dalam proses dan hasilnya? Empat anak nukleus? Menghasilkan yang belum tentu diperlukan.”

“Tidak perlu iri karena saya berbeda. Saya punya dua fase yang berbeda sedangkan anda tidak punya. Saya sering mengombinasikan DNA pada masa profase dan memproduksi hasil yang unik dan berbeda. Saya mandiri, kreatif, dan punya kombinasi saya sendiri, tidak seperti anda yang sama persis dengan sel tuanya dan membosankan…”

“Sesuka anda saja, tapi jika saya tidak di sini, maka anda juga tidak akan ada. Lihat tubuh-tubuh bayi yang kecil? Lucu sekali bukan? Saya yang membuat mereka tumbuh, jadi anda bisa berhenti membersihkan muntahnya! Dan saya tidak mau memberikan setengah dari kromosom saya karena itu adalah penghargaan saya sendiri.”

“Hei, ini ada pertanyaan, Mitosis. Mungkin anda tahu jawabannya. Apakah anda tahu bahwa anda penyebab utama dari menyebarnya sel kanker?! Ya, kesalahan anda menyebabkan penyakit yang fatal. Ouch, sakit bukan?”

“Hm, maaf ya, saya tidak merasakan sakitnya, kenapa? Karena saya menumbuhkan kulit kembali. Saya memperbaiki jaringan dan membangun membran agar sembarangan sel seperti anda tidak masuk.”

“Whatever! Saya punya Meiosis 1 dan tentu saja Meiosis 2, proses yang jauh lebih kompleks dari anda yang membuat saya jauh lebih baik dari anda. Saya menghasilkan dua divisi yang sukses dalam menghasilkan empat sel yang haploid sempurna. Saya juga direkrut lebih awal dibanding anda, tahun 1876 lebih tepatnya. Jadi saya lebih tua dan lebih bijaksana dari anda. Anda lihat, semua keunikan dan perbedaan di dunia manusia disebabkan oleh kekreatifan saya menggabungkan kromosom sehingga tidak berakhir seperti anda, orang yang membosankan!”

Mitosis berpikir sejenak. Ia merasakan potensial yang bagus pada Meiosis. Mungkin dia partner kerja yang baik dan cocok untuknya? “Hei, hei, hei! Kedua kromosom kita berbaris di bidang ekuator dan kita seringkali terjebak di interfase. Jadi ayo, kita jangan jadi musuh lagi,” sahut Mitosis. Meiosis pun berpikir-pikir juga dan mengatakan, “Kalau kita saling setuju, salah satu hasil yang pasti adalah perjuangan hebat kita berdua berakhir di sitokinesis!”

“Ide bagus, Meiosis!” seru Mitosis sambil memeluk Meiosis. “Mungkin kita harus segera menyelesaikan pembangunan pabrik ini.” Meiosis membalas ajakan Mitosis dengan anggukan dan sejak saat itu mereka berdua bekerja bersama-sama. Pembangunan tersebut selesai dalam kurun waktu yang singkat hingga akhirnya menghasilkan sebuah pabrik yang luar biasa yang diberi nama ‘ZYGOTE’.

End.

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2017: Best Moments

If you ask me which is the greatest moment I had in school, there are plenty. Most of them are caused by my own group in class. We gossip, talk, joke, be happy together. These things happened countless times that I can barely remember it for a long period. What’s wrong with my brain I can’t remember things from past meh idk.

I can recall my experiences in 2017 a little bit. I’d say that I have wonderful times in my class, XIIA3. ‘Wonderful’ doesn’t always mean it’s fun, but instead it’s memorable. When will you experience studying difficult materials with your classmates again? When will you feel the pressure of doing biology tests but you do it anyway because the whole class do it? When will you go through all obstacles but haven’t given up yet because all of us are fighting together?

We may sit separately when we’re on recess, still our teamwork is great af that sometimes makes some teachers angry lol. Like how we decide to postpone the test that we haven’t understood yet, or how busy we are when we try to answer the answer of 60 chemistry questions.

I thought of this moment as unique. I’ve never felt like this before, I bet it will be hard for me to let my classmates and the activities go after graduation. Dear friends, let’s fight together.

credit to: Pak Eko :)

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Bio, Phys, Chem, or Math?

Rasanya aneh kalo anak IPA ditanya suka yang mana di antara biologi, fisika, kimia, dan matematika. Dijamin 99,9% anak IPA mikir: ini orang yang nanya lagi nyindir atau emang gatau seberapa susahnya itu empat pelajaran di IPA?? Wetss.. tapi jangan salah. Ada juga yang suka salah satu dari antara 4 mata pelajaran itu. Bahkan bisa dibilang dia dewa banget kalo di pelajaran yang dia sukai padahal pelajaran lainnya b aja.

Saya sendiri sih pastinya ga bakal suka biologi dari awal kelas 10. Seperti yang sudah saya tulis di post-post sebelumnya, saya cenderung lebih suka menghitung dan gak perlu hafal banyak-banyak. Nah, muncul deh dilema antara matfiskim. Hingga kelas 12 semester 1 ini, saya baru menyadari bahwa kimia punya bab yang mengharuskan kita menghafal sifat-sifat unsur di tabel periodik. Dengan demikian, kimia bukan lagi pilihan yang menarik bagi saya. Sedihnya, saya perlu tes kimia sesuai dengan jurusan kuliah saya. ):

Matematika dan fisika sama-sama menarik rumusnya. Tapi terkadang rumus fisika kelewat banyaknya, sedangkan matematika yaa.. average lah, tapi kalo udah mulai kerjain soal mat pasti rasanya kayak ga ada rumus yang bisa dipake dan akhirnya nomor itu dikosongin aja...

Jadi pada akhirnya fisika jadi pelajaran yang paling 'oke’ buat saya ((: Pernah sekali ada dijelaskan praktik mengenai magnet yang melalui kumparan dan ternyata ada soal teori mengenai itu di tes bimbel saya dan jawaban yang saya pilih benar. Fisika bisa dipraktikkan, sedangkan matematika.. saya belum pernah mendengar ada praktik matematika selain jam dinding. Akhirnya saya memutuskan untuk mengambil UN fisika. Menurut saya fisika lebih masuk akal dan dapat dipraktikkan walaupun ada yang namanya ketidakpastian di fisika hehe.

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Share The Kindness

This opinion is for all of us.

When I first got in Sanur, I thought my classmates would be pretty friendly. Well, yes I was correct. My first year was awesome with all the positive energy I got from other people. The teamwork was great, I’ve met caring and loveable people in school. But now, as it is my sixth year studying in an all-girl school, somehow I know something that keeps bothering me but can’t be fixed by me.

That is judging. Just by seeing the appearance of someone, perhaps more than five thoughts can appear in other’s mind. Most of the time, it’s because that someone is different from others, can lead them to say someone is not perfect but disturbing. This happened not in the school only, but also in other society such as at church, streets, malls, even at home. The saddest thing is: I’ve tried once to talk with the person that’s being judged the most, and at the end people started judging me also.

I can only say not everyone is the same as anyone. They may look tough on the outside, but inside they’re having many problems that even urge them to hurt themselves.There are millions of people in this earth and millions of different stories. Everyone has their rights to tell the story or not. And if someone refuses to tell their story, don’t judge them, but respect them instead.

Other example I got from a YouTube video. Most of us think we’re higher than poor people on the street. When the poor tries to give us money, we will probably think “What on earth? Is this guy joking? You’re the one who needs money so why are you giving it to me?” or something like that. The better people give the poor people money. But are we better? 

Please realize what it feels like if you were in their position. Are they going to forget it easily? Just let it be? Let people judge and make fun of them whatever they want? Don’t increase the burden they already have from the start. A burden doesn’t mean financially poor but having a lot of things undone that disturbs the mind and heart.

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Who?

Have you ever heard voices that's not supposed to be there? Or hearing a woman singing a lullaby for you? I have experience both of them but they're not disturbing to be honest. Just... it's creepy if you think about it.

The voices I heard happened about more than 3 times in my room at night and once in the classroom. The voice sounds like two news presenters talking on a TV. Sometimes it can be loud but I couldn't hear it clearly, as if my ears were covered. But I think I can get used to it? 

The second one can be considered rather creepy after I found out. It happened just once (and I hope it doesn't happen again) in the school medical room. I was going to sleep to heal my headache on the first lesson on Saturday. After around 40 minutes, I woke up to the sound of a lullaby. It was calming but when I tried to hear the lyrics, I realized it wasn't in Bahasa Indonesia or English or any traditional language in Indonesia. Sounds like Greek or Latin..? At first I thought someone sang from the post office beside Sanur but the voice became clear that it came from inside the room, maybe around the edges or behind the cabinets. I immediately got out from the bed and waited outside until the bell rang. 

I don't expect myself to experience this and I really hope I was just overthinking...

(PS: this picture is the least-horror horror picture I got since I don't want a scary face on my post hehe)

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Colorfood: pt 1

We eat food to survive, most people eat food when they feel happy, some people eat food when they want to relieve stress, others keep their portion of food to stay fit. Me? Well, I don’t gain weight easily, so I eat food whenever or wherever I want!

Eating the same delicious food can be satisfying but then I can’t try the others. Whether it tasted bad or great, you wouldn’t know it until you try. So I assume that doing this while visiting various places around the world is the best refreshment for most people. Along with my camera, I usually take some shots before eating (not for Instagram unfortunately) and try to edit them later as if I was an editor for food advertising.

However, colors are also important in my photo. I prefer colorful pictures over black and white, in most cases colors will help you to attract people’s appetite. So, I order food with various colors or take a shot with colorful background, either one is good for me. Recently, I seldom do this kind of photography since it’s pretty difficult to find a suitable place with good lightning and school’s assignment of course. I really hope I can do this more often once I graduate from high school.

I think that’s all for now. This is what I do for some refreshments, what about yours?

(this is actually my photography attempt for mid or final test so i didn’t take this directly from dunkin donuts lol)

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OH!

Yang menarik di awal tahun? Bagiku pastinya open house!

Persiapan open house memang biasanya ribet. Perlu ini itu, masih ada pelajaran, banyak yang males bantu, macem-macem lah masalahnya. Apalagi masih ditambah ada pelajaran selama seminggu sebelum hari-h. Sebagai murid di kelas fotografi dan bahasa asing korea, aku lebih cenderung membantu kelas fotografi. Kenapa? Karena fotografi cuman 10 orang di satu angkatan minus yang MB dan punya keperluan lain. Ditambah lagi waktu kelas 11, kata kakak kelas fotografi biasa ga dibantu sama anak kelas 12, so berakhirlah cuman anak-anak kelas 11 yang 10 biji ini bikin hiasan-hiasan buat OH.

Di kelas 10 aku ikut ekskul debat inggris, di kelas 11 ikut ekskul KIR, dan aku membantu keduanya bersama dengan fotografi. Debat inggris emang dikit juga muridnya dan banyak yang ga niat ngurusinnya karena mendapat kelas paling pojok dan dibagi bertiga dengan Jepang dan masak (kalo ga salah). Kita sampai takut kalau debing ga bakal lanjut di tahun berikutnya karena kurang dari 10 murid yang mendaftar.

Tapi pada akhirnya semua hasil yang aku dan teman-teman lakukan tidak sia-sia! Waktu ngecek di papan pengumuman, ternyata yang daftar debing ada 10 anak pas, dan yang daftar fotografi bahkan dibagi menjadi 2 kelas (pagi dan siang). Well, walaupun ga dibantu kakak kelas, kelasnya terpencil, dan sibuk dengan pelajaran sekolah, aku senang karena berhasil mempromosikan kelas-kelas yang kuikuti dari kelas 10 (kecuali korea :) ). Keep fighting guys!

^^^ ketika fotografi dan Jerman sekelas

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as a natural science student...

My life became easier since the second year in high school. And that’s mainly because I hate geography and memorising theories is not my ability. Well, my biology scores are below my expectations but the others are fine. I’m not bragging about myself though I only need to remember the formulas for tomorrow’s test (except for biology) for 30 minutes and then done!

But the problem is... we’re the only students who get additional class after school from Monday to Thursday. There was that time when Sir Agust told us “no additional class today,” and we were so happy that it felt like we’re going home earlier, but actually we weren’t. There will always be at least one person who complains about this additional class. Again, I’m not bragging, I feel like those persons need to get over it. Why??? Because my Saturday and Sunday are more exhausting than my weekdays. When others complained why the retreat for my class was held on weekdays, I was like “Thank God, I can finally relax on Sunday!”

I’d like to talk about Tuesday, when the additional classes are held in the lab. This day is better than the others, we can go home after we’re finished (except for biology)! :D And usually I don’t need to think because for me it’s hard to catch up and understand what the teacher explained about what we should do in the lab. In other words, I depend on my reliable teammates (pls be proud) (except for another biology). Thanks guys!

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How to Calm Yourself

“If the ocean can calm itself, then so can you, we are both salt water, mixed with air.”

Through all these problems I encountered either at school or at home, I’d like to find myself a quiet place to sleep peacefully or just calm myself. But another problem I found is: where can I find a quiet place in the middle of a busy city? I’ve tried searching for some methods in the internet, and mostly I only get tutorials for yoga or meditation. I don’t think this is effective since I, as a student with many tasks to do, don’t have many free time to do yoga or meditation. Even though I close my eyes, I still can’t get my mind off those physics and biology reports or chemistry test, etc.

Fortunately, I find an interesting way to calm my mind. That is to observe a swimming fish for a while. A study reported that by observing an aquarium with a lot of fish, many people’s heart rate and blood pressure dropped. It is evident enough that fish watching can, indeed, have benefits to a person’s wellbeing as they’re captivated by the fish in the tank.

But you know what? We don’t need a huge aquarium with many fish. Just a small one or a jar can do as well. Don’t forget to pick the fish you like the most, perhaps a colourful one? And believe me, it works. I did it for five minutes at night before I go back to study biology. If you have an insomnia, you can try this method too. The calming swimmer can definitely make your mind calm. Hope this helps guys :)

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Vibranium 2017: Retret

Weekend harus retret? Sekelas sendiri? Senin tetep masuk? Hm.. lucu juga ya. Tapi aku sendiri lebih memilih untuk mengikuti retret di hari weekend, karena jujur aja biasanya tuh hari Sabtu Minggu harus bimbel dan sampai jam 7 malem. Jadi ya pastinya aku seneng-seneng aja ikut retret ini.

Kita sekelas datang ke rumah retret pake baju kelas serempak, berasa solid nih ehem. Selain itu, makanan di sana enak bangettt. Suasananya juga sejuk pagi-pagi, bikin ketiduran di tengah melakukan meditasi di taman. Di samping sering ditegur sama guru pembimbing maupun suster karena berisik, tiga hari ini cukup memberikan kesan yang mendalam bagiku. Aku yakin ke depannya aku bisa menerapkan hal-hal yang ditegaskan dalam retret ini agar menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik.

Overall, aku merasa setelah mengikuti retret ini hubunganku dengan Tuhan, keluarga, alam dan teman-teman sekelas semakin dekat. Terima kasih Tuhan, papa mama, Sr. Asia, Sr. Vero, Ibu Gita, Ibu Prapti, dan Vibranium untuk retret ini! :))

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RGB Needed

Sometimes I just feel like posting some photos I took in my camera, especially the colorful and bright ones. Blue sky, saturation, pastel colors, and neon colors are just my things. Sadly, I found it rare to approach these kind of things in Jakarta. No clouds, grey sky, black, white, and grey vehicles everywhere, yellow lights, few trees, etc.

Nah, nevermind about that. Perhaps I should change my perspective about black and white photographs which I find boring at the moment. If it were for BnW photos, I think I’ve found many perfect spots. And of course, Kota Tua is one of them, always about the old buildings. But what do we usually do if we go to Kota Tua? Selfies with foreigner.

If you’re wondering about the first photo, it’s Singapore’s cable cars. It’s just.. smaller than you think since it’s taken from far under the attraction. I’m still wondering where the cable cars are going.

This one is also taken at Singapore, from a ship actually. Bright sky, ofc! Makes the town looks like it’s free from air pollution.

And the last one, took it from a certain person’s room with another certain person’s magazine. I was going to decorate it with other properties though I came across this blue page, which I found quite interesting.

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awesome people on earth

“Good friends don’t let you do stupid things ... alone.”

Pastinya kita semua punya orang-orang terbaik yang berjasa dalam membuat keseharian kita menyenangkan bukan? Nyadar ga sih, kita bisa ngabisin waktu lebih lama di sekolah bareng sama temen-temen dibandingkan di rumah sama keluarga. Belom lagi kalo orang tua pulangnya malem.. Yah, intinya temen-temen juga berperan dalam mengisi hari saya selama 9 jam (jam 7 sampe jam 4an lah kira-kira).

Kalo dibilang temen terbaik yaaa susah mau milih siapa. Biasanya kalo udah kenal deket jadi ketauan busuknya >:D But no one is perfect jadi terima aja dia apa adanya, siapa tau bisa saling melengkapi(?). Nah, di sini saya mau cerita-cerita tentang temen seperjuangan saya di kelas 10 dan 11.

Waktu kelas 10, jujur aja saya dan ketiga teman saya yang lain kebanyakan bercanda. Semua ga dianggap serius. Susah sih pergi-pergi bareng, tapi sekali pergi bisa sampe malem ckck. Saya juga ga peduli sih, kan masih kelas 10 ga perlu nyiapin apa-apa (walaupun saya nyesel juga nilai-nilainya jadi kurang bagus padahal dipake buat daftar kuliah).

Ini dia foto kami waktu pergi ke KidZania. Baju udah bopung, anak-anak kecilnya takut sama kita, jasnya aja udah ga muat. Malu-maluin banget, tapi worth it kenang-kenangannya. Sebenernya kita main ke sini gara-gara diajakin tuh sama satu orang di foto, katanya bentar lagi 17 jadi mumpung masih 16 dia mau ke KidZania dulu. Eh, dia cariin tiketnya dan nawarin ke kita. Ya siapa yang nolak? Hahahah, kita main dari baru buka sampe udah mau tutup. Semua uangnya diabisin buat beli souvenir, kapan lagi bisa main ke KidZania seseru ini?

Masuk ke kelas 11, jujur aja pertama kali masuk saya bingung mau main sama siapa di kelas ini. Tapi akhirnya ketemu juga orang-orang yang pas. Bisa dibilang kelompok ini terbentuk karena jokes receh yang sering kita ungkit-ungkit. Sayangnya, kita masing-masing punya sedikit waktu buat jalan bareng. Jadinya kalo ada acara sekolah kita manfaatin bener-bener tuh kayak yang di foto satu ini. Setelah Live In kita berkunjung ke taman wisata Jogja atau apalah itu dan kita foto-foto di sekitar samping pintu masuk museum yang waktu itu panas amit. Ga pake topi jadi foto merem bodo amat deh.

Ngasih makan ikan, ngegosip, cerita-cerita tentang Live In, foto bareng kepala presiden-presiden yang ada di depan museum, berdoa untuk para pahlawan, masih banyak lagi yang seru waktu kami jalan-jalan di sini. Yaa, menurut saya sih seru, kurang tau deh kalo menurut yang lain hahah. Tapi tiba-tiba naik kelas 12, kami semua pisah kelas.....

Yak segitu aja sih cerita saya mengenai temen-temen seperjuangan yang suka bikin malu tapi fun af. Kalo kelas 12 sepertinya belum ada? Bagi saya sendiri sih kita sekelas berjuang untuk menaklukkan UN dan US, kurang solid apa lagi nanti menjelang ujian hahah.

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Lights Guide Us

First time joining photography lesson in school? Sucks. I even thought I was the worst student in the class, out of 10 people lol. When they started to talk about ISO, speed, light meter, flash, I was like, “Pls, I only took pictures with automatic option-” and I was about to get out from the class, join other class, kolintang maybe? Nah, nevermind, I’m not that insane. But seriously, my first year in high school felt so boring, especially when I need to spend my time learning Korean too where I also thought I was the dumbest in class.

Anyway, let’s put that aside. I’m going to talk about how I improve myself in photography since I already took interest in it. I started to watch photography tips and life hacks from COOPH in YouTube. Those videos seemed interesting though, I can’t find any interesting place in Jakarta until now. Well, my definition of interesting is ‘full of colors’, so I prefer graffiti or bright sky with bright colored buildings, etc. But where can you find those colorful places in Jakarta exactly? At the end, I tried to took other photos, black and white, even though I don’t really like it.

One day, our teacher asked us to bring glow sticks. “The last time I held a glow stick was around 5 years ago, does that thing still exist until now?” was my dumb thought at that time. Whatever, our teacher came next Saturday with a bunch of glow sticks. He told us that we actually have a photography room if we go upstairs from the third floor. We went there, the hall was kinda scary, though we’re used to it now. Inside, there’s nothing except a chair, an air conditioner (yes!), and one light. He told us that we were going to play with lights while shutting the door and turning off the light bulb. Of course, I was scared but let’s stay calm, we’re together in this cramped room.

Soooo lights out, and we cracked our glow sticks. And we used the mode bulb, we need to decrease the shutter speed to its lowest possible setting until it shows the word “bulb”. Confused what to do with the glow stick, we were just shaking them for around 10 seconds or so. This is the result.

Actually, I saw this bulb mode in COOPH videos before. I tried to combine some glow sticks until it formed a circle. Then starting from the front of camera, the button was pressed and I walked backward while stirring the circle glow sticks. It worked! And we even made a chrome-like lights :D 

Overall, after I joined this class. I think I started to improve myself in photography. I can say that photography became a hobby for me, a permanent one I hope? Even though I prefer colorful photos, anything in the environment can be used to make a great photograph.

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One for Others

Semangat Antiokherss!!!

Banyak nih yang ga tau apa itu Antiokhia, pada taunya Roses atau OMK (yang ini sering keluar di pelajaran agama ya hahahha). Nah, Antiokhia itu sebenernya mirip sama Roses, bedanya cuman di komunitasnya yang terdiri dari anak-anak SMA dan kuliah. Eit, tapi di sini saya bukan mau bicara tentang apa itu Antiokhia. Saya mau sharing nih tentang kegiatan saya selama jadi anggota Antiokhia Alsut selain di dalam lingkungan Alsut sendiri.

Pada tanggal 24 September 2015, seperti pada foto, saya dan anggota Antiokhia yang lain berkunjung ke Biara Ursulin di Santa Maria. Acara yang satu ini nggak mungkin saya lewatkan! Apalagi acaranya di SD saya dulu. Jadi, acaranya dimulai dengan (kalo masih inget) sambutan dari para suster Ursulin dan mami papi Antiokhia Alsut (begitu panggilan kami kepada orang tua yang membimbing kami di Antiokhia). Dilanjutkan dengan berkeliling di biara Santa Maria yang juga memiliki museum mengenai suster-suster Ursulin pertama yang datang di sana.

Suster-suster Ursulin di Santa Maria memang mayoritas sudah berumur 40 tahun keatas. Tapi jangan salah loh, mereka semua masih memiliki semangat ‘45! Dengan mengundang mereka beserta suster-suster yang masih muda dan sehat bugar, kami semua bertanding layaknya acara 17 Agustusan! Ada bakiak, futsal, tarik tambang, dan sebagainya. Mereka juga bukan merupakan lawan yang mudah. Mungkin kerjasama mereka dapat mengalahkan keinginan kami yang ingin menang.

“Baru kali ini ada yang ngajakin suster-suster main futsal,” komentar salah satu suster saat acara penutup, “emang sih, ga modal sepatu atau baju olahraga tapi kami masih bisa merasa senang.” Walau hanya sementara dan tidak begitu meriah, acara ini tetap menjadi kenangan bagi diri kami masing-masing. Kebahagiaan pun dapat diperoleh dengan cara yang sederhana. :D

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First and Forever

Family, is the number one priority in my life. Every time I need to decide something, I always think the effect of that thing for my family. Well, believe it or not, I once thought about ending my life. I found it boring. But I’m not childish enough to think that it’s good for me. I could’ve consider my family’s feelings too, they would be sad, mourn over the selfish me near my grave. Sorry mom and dad :( I can’t do anything if my mom doesn’t allow me to go out alone or with friends, or maybe do some dangerous activity like rafting. “I want to learn how to play drums,” I told her, but her reply was, “You’re a girl and drums are usually for boys.” Being sexist, doesn’t really fit me. Being the perfect daughter is what my parents and family wanted. Who needs PE? I’m only allowed to sit and study in my room, doesn’t matter if it’s 2 AM, they want me to finish studying for tomorrow’s test. But sometimes I realize that those are for my own sake.

I can be careless, fearless, have the ability to overcome everything. And sometimes I can be forgetful, childish, and self-absorbed. Who would remind me of my negative self if it wasn’t my parents and family? When it is something I can tell my parents, talking with my cousins is the only way to lighten my burden. Especially with the one and only person who’s studying in Sanur too. Thank you for accepting me just the way I am, thank you for accompanying me since I was 2 months old, thank you for withstanding the weird-selfish-and-sometimes-shocking me. Overall, spending time with family is the most wonderful way to beguile myself.

For this third paragraph, I’d like to talk about the photos I uploaded. We went to Thailand and were going to sit on top of an elephant. My mom asked me how to use my camera and I was too tired to explain and immediately I turned the ISO into 800 and forgot to tell her to turn it low if she wants to capture us under sunlight. So the photos of me and the others getting on top of the elephants were too bright. But here we are, queueing and waiting for the elephants to come. My face looks ndeso but whatever, my family is awesome. For those who don’t know my cousin, you might recognize a familiar face on the first photo. My grandparents and the others were just chillin’ on the second one. [excluding my dad, my cousin’s dad, and my mom since she’s being creative and tried to photograph everything near her]