Counting on High Hopes

I want to be the girl that changed everything. The girl that made a difference. That girl that gave you a story to tell.

[the-taintedtruth]

If you’re ever lucky enough to find a girl who is a hopeless romantic with a dirty mind, you should hold onto that. Because she’ll be yours at two in the morning and at two in the afternoon the following day. She’ll kiss you where it hurts and until it hurts. And that’s important. Someone who not only knows how to turn you on but also knows how to treat you right is someone worth a little something… and a little more than usual.

(via the-taintedtruth)

[godlywoman]

Whenever you decide to believe God is faithful and live according to that belief, even when life is challenging, your faith grows. You can rest well, knowing that He is always up to something good.

Charles Stanley (via buhaybabae)

[skellydun]

please be gentle with yourself. you’re trying. if it’s taking you longer than you thought to achieve something or get somewhere that’s okay. try not to compare yourself to others too much because not everyone gets to where they need to be right away. you’re alive that’s what matters. keep trying. you’ll get there.

[jerrielzapata]

I have so much potential… i can’t give up on myself.

[zydiaries]

I'm really out of words to say. All I know is that grabe yung feels ko. Sobrang lungkot. Suppressed. Suppressed. Mas nakakatakot, kasi may mag trigger lang, para akong sasabog. Nalalabuan na ko sa nangyayari. Hindi ko na gusto. Nahihirapan na ko, as in. Alam ko naman for the better 'to, na we are both a work in progress kaya dapat mas maintindihan ko yung sitwasyon namin ngayon. Kaso, ewan ko, hirap na hirap na ko. Hanggang kelan ako iintindi? Hanggang kelan pa ba ko dapat maghintay? Hanggang kelan pa ba kailangang magtiis? Wala rin akong makausap tungkol dito. Feeling ko wala naman kasing handang makinig. Feeling ko alam naman kasi nilang kaya ko. Kaya sorry, dear tumblr, kung ikaw yung takbuhan ko sa mga oras na ganito. I just need to let this out. I really want to go somewhere. Yung malayo, kailangan kong mag-isip. Oh good Lord, help me get through with this. Sana part lang talaga 'to ng overthinking habit ko. Di na healthy, eh. *sobs*

[wnq-writers]

And one day, everything you ever could’ve wished for will be smiling at you from the other side of the bed.

rebeloverdose (via wnq-writers)

[zydiaries]

What's inside a Behavioral Therapist's Mind

Siguro, sa mga taong di pa masyadong nakakaintindi or nakakaalam ng trabaho ng isang Behavioral Therapist, ang cool nito pakinggan. From the word itself eh, “behavior”, na siguro maa associate na kami agad na sobrang “pro” pagdating sa pagbabasa ng behavior ng tao. Na lahat halos ng kilos, galaw o gagawin alam na namin. Assuming, in short.

Well, honestly, pwedeng pwede naman kasi talaga ma apply sa normal na tao yung ginagawa namin (therapy to special kids). Na minsan, madalas rather, nagiging OA na nga yung pag iinterpret namin, kasi we have to be super observant, ano ba yung antecedent/cause ng behavior ng kid, or let’s just say mismong ako, as a therapist. Can’t help it! Sa everyday ba naman na trabaho, di na maiiwasan talaga. Na akala din siguro ng iba, dahil sa we do therapy, we can also apply it in ourselves, which is really hard, honestly. Cognitive biases nga sabi sa Psych.

Tinatry ko madalas na wag makaramdam ng mga bagay na di ko dapat maramdaman, especially nga I do therapy, flat affect lang dapat. Suppressed. Suppressed. Kaso ma trigger lang ng bigtime, boom! Sabog emosyon ko. Nandun ka rin sa point na mafifeel mong no one seem to bother to ask you what’s wrong, or if you’re still doing well, kasi nga they believe that you can manage, na you're a Behavioral Therapist. Kumbaga, therapy mo sarili mo. But still, at the end of the day, we’re also human, eh. We also need someone na makikinig sa mga shits namin in life, na maga address ng behavior (lungkot, drama, etc) namin pag kailangan. Na we also wanted to feel that we are also being taken care of. Ang ironic nga din siguro kung iisipin. Minsan, sinasabi ko na lang din sa sarili ko na “strong ka, natutulungan mo nga patients mo, what more yourself di ba?”, na kung tutuusin, may available naman na taong willing to listen pero ayaw mo kasi kahit ikaw sa sarili mo nadadaya mo, na kaya mo naman talagang i handle mag isa (ok so ang labo ko dito), pero at the back of your mind, babalik at babalik ka pa rin dun sa thought na may emotions ako, ano ba. Oh well, gamit na gamit talaga samin yung lines na “sometimes, you have to be your own hero”. Bottomline lang siguro, ang kumplikado ng buhay ko. Char!

[andxril]

She is Art. What the fuck do you expect from her, other than confusion, beauty and goddamn soul?

(via sadfrick)

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[vonquaint-deactivated20170527]

I was weak. Until I fought for you.

Six word story (via rquaint)

[thegirlwhocrieswolf]

New piece, hope you like it! xo Lang 

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My NEW book Memories is now available via Amazon, BN.com + The Book Depository and bookstores worldwide.

[zydiaries]

Middle-life Crisis (nga ba?)

Bakit ba pakiramdam ko, sobrang go with the flow lang ako sa buhay ngayon. I mean, sobrang plain. Kumbaga sa drinks, walang flavor. Compare mo sa feelings, sobrang flat affect. Hindi naman sa di ako masaya sa ginagawa ko ngayon, sobrang achieved nga kasi eto talaga yung bagay na gusto ko, trabaho na may involved na mga bata bonus pa kasi may mga disorders pa. Sobrang in line sa field ko talaga (psychology major here). Pero alam mo yun, sobrang feeling ko may kulang. Hindi ako kuntento sa ganito lang. Ang dami kong gustong mangyari. Nababagalan ako sa proseso. Sobrang applied kasi ata sakin yung “make things happen” kaya ayokong naghihintay. Pag nakikita ko pa yung ibang kakilala ko, feeling ko sobrang dami na nilang achievements sa buhay, compared sakin na eto, still searching. Okay self, patience nga kasi di ba. Time to wait… (lol nakakatawa na part yun ng therapy na ginagawa ko pero di ko ma apply sa sarili ko). Gusto ko pang mag travel, magkaroon ng extra income, mag take na ng Masters, maging Doctor, magkaroon ng savings, makabili ng sasakyan, magkaroon ng sariling bahay, mag pakasal (what??), lahat. Parang gusto ko ma achieved na yun sooner or later. Kaso, it takes time. It will take me longer time. Sabi nga sa kasabihan, “marami ka pang kakaining bigas” oh well, papel.

Sana nga pwedeng mag fast forward sa buhay, noh? Or sana pwedeng makuha lahat yun in an instant. Pero minsan naisip ko din, kailangan ko lang siguro i enjoy muna ang buhay, yung meron ako ngayon. And just let things flow naturally. Serious mode. Super torn! Hay. Hirap talaga maging adult, mga vhe!

[zydiaries]

Ano na naman ba 'tong nararamdaman ko. Hindi ko alam kung wala ba talaga kong tiwala sayo, o wala akong tiwala sa sarili ko. Ang dami kong ‘what if’s’ na dapat wala na. Sobrang vulnerable ko nga talaga siguro. Puro takot, pag aalala, pagdududa na lang yung nararamdaman ko. Nature ko na ba talaga, o nakukulangan lang talaga ko sa mga bagay na pinaparamdam mo. Ang gulo. Naaasar na ko.

[icanrelateto]

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[ethiopienne]

it's not you it's my anxiety

[zydiaries]

Top: National Shrine of St. Padre Pio at Sto. Tomas, Batangas Below: Villa Sylvia Mountain Resort at Laguna

It was actually my first time to visit both that adds some excitement and refreshment suitable for today’s celebration. Our this year's holy week trip.

[zydiaries]

03 | 20 | 16 Mt. Gulugod-Baboy and Oscar/Fortalez Island

Team Hugot’s Anniversary climb. Bakit may anniversary? Kasi we're that clingy 💓 Chos! Masaya lang din kasi talaga yung may nilolook forward kang araw kung papaano at kelan kayo nagsimula. Actually, marami pa kaming naunang plano before mag come up sa another supposed to be "chill climb" na 'to. Okay, wala kasi yata talagang chill na climb, never na kaming mag underestimate, kahit pa 1/9 na lang yan. Lol! Yun na nga, nag hike, after naman side trip sa beach. Perfect na starter packer for the summer (kahit na medyo disappointed ako sa beach, but still, mahalaga naman nakaligo haha). In short, another daring adventure with my team. 💪🏻⛰