Oh Hey, A They

Talk about random

[pinkw0rld-deactivated20210309]

remember when you were 12 and the internet seemed like an endless source of fun and now you just scroll through tumblr and check instagram?

[pinkw0rld-deactivated20210309]

or is that just me

[p1x1egutz]

thought i was the only that felt this way lol

[parallaxia]

The internet when you were 12 in 2007: Most of your friends didn’t use it and neither did your parents. Corporations didn’t fully understand it yet, commercialization consisted almost exclusively of banner ads. The most popular social media was MySpace, of which you could personalize almost every aspect and nobody’s parents used. Instead of having one Nerd Website that everyone uses, you had accounts on a bunch of different forums related to your interests and each had its own unique environment. YouTube was an uncharted terrain of kids just like you uploading whatever they wanted, unpolished and unedited with no ad partnerships.

The internet in 2020: Literally everyone is online, every member of your family has an account on each of the most popular websites. Instead of being a place you can enter on your own terms when you’re ready, the internet now comes to you, giving you a little spike of anxiety with every new notification. Ad spam is everywhere and it’s becoming increasingly harder to differentiate between real people and marketing schemes. The most popular social media websites have streamlined, neutral colored UIs that cannot be personalized at all beyond a singular photo and username. Instead of being a haven for fellow weirdos, everyone is a denizen of the internet now. 90% of online activity for your interests takes place on a single website, the community is going to be devastated if it ever goes down but what can be done? YouTube is just mainstream television but on the internet now, YouTubers are rich celebrities who live in Hollywood mansions.

[xxglitterghostxx]

Im so glad people are talking about this cuz Ive been scared it was mainly my depression sapping the joy out of everything again

[0002fj]

A vent

So I'm stuck in an ignorant family. Not conservative level ignorant but ignorant. I am dealing with the fact that my dad calls me a brand of fucking peanut butter instead of the name I go by now. Don't get me wrong, the peanut butter tastes great and all, but I'm called that solely because my deadnames’ initials happened to coincidentally spell that. I recently got into a heated argument where it felt like I couldn't stop yelling. It was about racial inequality. My dad is so stuck on how black people are always guilty of the crimes they do and that in order to not get arrested is to not commit the crime. My blood was boiling with rage. He blatantly said that, along with other shit. I later went back inside once it seemed the argument ended. I went into my bathroom to hit my Juul (I use filler pods and nic free juice). I thought I was calm, so I went back outside to them. Terrible mistake. I was so tense and felt so uncomfortable with what all was being said. My mom was saying how “there are two sides and not everyone agrees” and my dad was gripping me in his arm (which is really muscular). I was so tense and was biting the inside of my mouth and my tongue so I wouldn’t cry in front of them. I managed to escape when my dad said the middle name I go by now and my dead middle name. I ran back inside saying, “leave me alone” as I wiped the tears that were forming in my eyes. I went back into my bathroom for a full on chainvape session and didn't see anyone for the rest of the night. I locked my bedroom door so no one would come in.

I want to point out something before I get any backlash. Yes, I happen to live in a privileged household and my parents do a lot for me. I am grateful for what all they have done. Honestly, I am. BUT it's the smaller negative things they do that really frustrate me and set me off.

The other negative things that they have done is that they WAITED 5 years to tell me that I'm on the Autism Spectrum. 5 fucking years. During those 5 years, they forced me off of gluten, milk, and soy because of a fucking blood test that an out of state neurologist wanted to see. They forked THOUSANDS of dollars to this man. That same man who has the thousands of dollars is anti-vax. So guess who is somehow still alive without a vaccine since 2012. I have to lie to my parents about how I quit vaping. I lie because I don't want to hear their shit anymore. I have put up with numerous fights about me being nonbinary to the point where I have flat out given up because it's clear that they filter what they listen to. The same thing they say about me.

[0002fj]

So I spent a couple weeks on making a stop motion series using Squishmallows performing Heathers. Here's what Candy Store looked like. It was my first time doing a stop motion of a cast album, so it's not the best.

[0002fj]

Things that happened on stage with the shows I have been in

A button on my overcoat was loose since I had to wear it for 9 shows. The eighth show was when it fell off, and I knew I would be breaking character if I picked it up. Luckily, someone else saw it and picked it up during scene change.

That same play involved a lantern being shattered in the eighth show. Not meant to happen but it did.

I portrayed a gym teacher for a musical, and I punched my hand really hard to look scary and so the sound could be heard over the track (apparently didn’t work according to my mom). I had no idea I punched my ring finger out of socket until I was backstage. Popping it back in the socket left a bruise.

[0002fj]

PSA to any American who doesn’t vote because they’re “not political”

Do you want to live in a world that is exactly like the dystopian societies you more than likely read or watched the movies to when you were younger?

If you answered yes, then you are doing the right thing by not registering to voting.

If you answered no, then register to vote (even if it means registering as an Independent), do research on who’s running for office, and VOTE!

Everyone’s voice matters when you’re in a democracy that’s rigged or not. We are in a corrupt society as is, and it’s mostly due to the fact that not everyone who is eligible to vote is doing their part in electing someone to lead.

[0002fj]

I have spent these last few weeks sewing a bunch of masks. I honestly didn’t expect it to take that long. So um if you need a mask, let me know. My plan for the next set is to just cut out the patterns until I get a commission.

[0002fj]

Things I learned when I volunteered at my community theatre:

Wood from the sets of past shows are reused

Screws are the best things to use when maintaining a set

The many hours of set building and preparation are nothing compared to how quick it is when it all comes down

There might be the chance of having to help the managing director with pushing a couch upstairs...

Condoms (not lubricated) make great mic covers

Make sure the headset volume is up to hear what the stage manager is saying

There might be a stubborn crew member who can be a bigger distraction on the actors

Operating a pulley based scrim is a tall person’s job

[0002fj]

Looking at the few posts from when I was first active, it shows that I was a completely different person than I am now.

[0002fj]

I’m back on this blog after like 4 years of abandonment

[0002fj]

[snackysmoressss]

It’s 2am and I’m trying to do a challenge I made up yesterday over my spring break.

• watch every episode of South Park • watch every Matt stone and Trey Parker movie • you only have 10 days to do it

Help me

[0002fj]

I'm so doing this during the summer

[0002fj]

Elsa painting that I did

[0002fj]

The four faces of Kenny. A painting I did a few months ago. Before season 19.

[0002fj]

One of my best sketchbook drawings. Decided to do a green screen 'cause I can.

[0002fj]

#thelinesproject

[0002fj]

#saveseasonsix #saveteentitans

[0002fj]

Some paintings I did. I love Japanese stuff, South Park, and other random stuff.