here for the chaos!

bonjour! im ilyssa / "illy" she/they, creator of the youtube channel illymation. this is my tumblr! welcome to my twisted mind >:)

[illymation]

hi welcome to my tumblr :-)

hi I’m ilyssa or illy she or they im here for a good time B) i come from YouTube where I post autobiographical videos about the good, bad, ugly, funny, and weird parts of growing up. I upload on a semi-monthly basis with the help of an amazing team of artists!

double check your blacklist to avoid posts or topics you do not want to see on your Tumblr feed! Sometimes I discuss the topics I've covered in my videos, like my abusive ex or periods.

ty 🙏

[kosmogrl]

don’t take my defeatism too seriously I will always begin again and again no matter what

[kosmogrl]

I might sound miserable most of the time but at my core I’m a very hopeful person

[illymation]

season 2 predictions: protective roommate Santos, Robby SSRI fail, You Pissed Off Mel

[mads-schubert]

Part 17 in my weekly poster series of 2025

[ratblazer]

reverse gatekeeping. I am on my knees begging people to engage with the source material

[bluepurpleviolatte]

''Why for example, does a twenty-two-year-old man pursue a sixteen-year-old adolescent? Because he is stimulated by her? Obviously not. They are at completely different developmental points in life with a dramatic imbalance in their levels of knowledge and experience. He is attracted to power and seeks a partner who will look up to him with awe and allow him to lead her. Of course, he usually tells her the opposite, insisting that he wants to be with her because of how unusually mature and sophisticated she is for her age. He may even compliment her on her sexual prowess and say how much power she has over him, setting up the young victim so that she won’t recognize what is happening to her. Even without a chronological age difference, some abusive men are drawn to women who have less life experience, knowledge, or self-confidence, and who will look up to the man as a teacher or mentor.''

-Lundy Bancroft, Why Does He Do That? Inside the Minds of Angry and Controlling Men

[tomhoppusdelonge]

people who don’t wear glasses will never understand the absolute humiliation of dropping your glasses under your bed or in a dark area and feeling around on all fours muttering “my glasses…. where are my glasses” like fucking Velma Dinkley and thinking to yourself BOY WOULD THIS BE A LOT EASIER IF I COUKD FUCKING SEE

[shayminsh]

im grilling absolute cheese

[shayminsh]

[pristineandplushies]

Eevee who ate a bee

Where from?

1999 play-by-play eevee

[illymation]

Out of curiosity, what are your safe foods, if you have any in particular?

Pretzel goldfish my beloved

[forgottenflickr]

2007

[gen4]

Nintendo DSi

The Nintendo DSi is able to connect to an online store similar to the Wii Shop Channel,called the DSi Shop. Users will be able to download DSiWare games and applications to the internal memory or the SD card of the user’s DSi system. The DSi will be released in Japan on November 1

Long wait for Australia to get this product zZzZzZ

[bunjywunjy]

pass this post GENTLY it’s a priceless relic of the First Age

[tinymintywolf]

blorbovember day 6: memory

ouuugh i need this show back immediately i miss her

[illymation]

BEASTARS season 3 part 1 is out NOW on Netflix! And I got to do some voice acting in the English Dub!!!

I love this anime, I've been looking forward to the anime's next installment for sooo long, and I'm so so lucky to play my small parts in it! I won't spoil anything though -- so go check it out! You might hear a familiar voice :D

[dasfreefree]

You know what, Etsy? Sure

[rabbithaver]

it's important to me that you know that Pete Capella, Silver's original voice actor, owns this and wears it.

[illymation]

Are you still working on the graphic novel? I saw your announcement for it a while back and I'll definitely be ordering it immediately, just wondering your progress :>

you're so kind to be so ready to support it!! thank you!! and yes! I'm working hard behind the scenes on the story and characters and art as well as how to get it out there on shelves and not just online! I hope for it to be out within the next 2 years 🙏🤞

[illymation]

I've always really liked how after the internet moved away from storytimes, your content always seemed more "self-love" and a lot of your videos have resonated with me really deeply. I had my first panic attack recently and your video about Panic Attacks really helped afterwards. It feltlike, actual comfort over the scientific articles i kept reading about it. Thanks, Illy

:') that is such a sweet thing to say. Lately I've been wondering if my storytime stuff is obsolete, as if the trend is dead and I should try to move on too, but also knowing ... I don't wanna pivot from the stuff I make. Not too drastically at least. I'm really proud of the lovely people like yourself who have built up this self love community! Cuz it doesn't need to be a widely popular trendy thing to be enjoyable. It can just be. :)