sisyphus

TW 3d/śħ blog // 25/He/Him // 14y of spiral rondo HW: 207lbs - CW: 178 - CLW: 154 - LW: 140 UGW: However low i can go Please don't report but instead block, i am aware i am sick and this is how i cope.

[clleanlliness]

some of y'all weren't suicidal at 12 and it shows

[notevilhanamurafuyume]

i wish i could be cute and pretty but im not really

[pixicidal]

me rn

[biaho]

[notevilhanamurafuyume]

dysphoria is getting worse again,,,

[1-800-wake-up-call]

hey so how do i unpack "hey we cant both have bad mental health days at the same time"

am i just not supposed to have them at all? or am i supposed to mask everything behind fake reactions and smiles in a place im supposed to call home?

am i nothing more than a pick me up to keep people happy like how you give a dog a toy to keep them enriched?

history is always doomed to repeat itself

i am nothing if not of use

[x-kangelkawaiii-x]

I feel like people are waiting for me to make a mistake or have a downfall or smth so they can hate on me and bring me down and make me kms or smth. I'm paranoid asf.

[sandmandaddy69]

[angel-pd]

I need a job so fucking bad I just keep staring at the items on my wishlist as if that's gonna pay for them 💔🙏 employment era soon please i need to buy the stuff i like

[cutesx4]

i wish someone comforted me and just told me reaffirming words and praise while i cry and say im a piece of shit without them leaving

[zw0mbigutzz]

Me at any minor inconvenience

[yuris-landmine]

It hurts to remember that I’ll never experience my body without scars ever again.

[omgkawaiirainangel]

trying to get my friends to notice im struggling is like waving a big sign in their face that says HI IM GOING TO KILL MYSELF

[konoko]

[konoko]

[needysyndrome]

Logging onto jiraiblr to post shit like this

[razorbladed-sugarcoated]

it's fine. I'm an otaku. all i need is my anime and manga and figures. friends are stupid as fuck anyway