hi im max. i mostly just bitch abt stuff on here. i talk abt my ex, my ed, and anything else i want to complain about. i use any pronouns. and that's all u need to know rlly. NOT A RECOVERY ACCOUNT. currently in a relapse el oh el

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hi im max. i mostly just bitch abt stuff on here. i talk abt my ex, my ed, and anything else i want to complain about. i use any pronouns. and that's all u need to know rlly. NOT A RECOVERY ACCOUNT. currently in a relapse el oh el
lmao, my health is making it damn near impossible for me to intentionally starve, BUT im also puking a lot, and it's hard to eat a fair amount of the time (nausea) so. im ok with that.
as long as i live long enough to be 120lbs again.
im in extreme pain and taking too much ibuprofen and on a narcotic, and i KNOW i need to eat, but i can't. and it's making me feel good that i don't want to, but i know i need to eat, or else i might get actually hurt, so ill wait as long as i can, i suppose.
when u have a sex dream abt ur ex and a weirdo. it's kinda a sign u need to start dating again.
the mirror doesn’t care that you're hungry.
your clothes don't care that you're hungry.
the people you're doing this for the validation of don't care that you're hungry.
the beauty standard doesn't care that you're hungry.
you know what they will care about?
how beautiful you are once you're skinny.
do something that somebody will care about for once in your life.
this relapse is really putting my mind at ease, which obviously, but after the past 7 months of pure stress, gaining weight, amd being bed ridden, getting to control smth is. nice.
so kinda hitting a hard relapse, im almost at 160lbs which is where i was at when i first started starving myself so heyo trigger city. not counting any calories, but my food diary is up and running. ive also been bed ridden for 7 fucking months and the thought of going out in public and being slightly overweight makes me feel sick because my brain hates me
well. wish me luck ^_^ (and by luck i mean luck to not die lmao)
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Ok but like. What the fuck is there to do on the internet anymore?
Idk when I was younger, you could just go and go and find exciting new websites full of whatever cool things you wanted to explore. An overabundance of ways to occupy your time online.
Now, it’s just… Social media. That’s it. Social media and news sites. And I’m tired of social media and I’m tired of the news.
Am I just like completely inept at finding new things or has the internet just fallen apart that much with the problems of SEO and web 3.0 turning everything into a same-site prison?
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ALSO you should consider browsing Virtual Pet List and seeing if there are any pet sites you might be interested in playing. There is a whole genre of browser games right under your nose
Another one that I just found recently is this, which is a whole collection of blogs, organized by topic!
A collection of 1,966 blogs about every topic
Look guys the real internet IS STILL THERE I’m going to cry
Getting off of twitter and onto neocities has really healed me and I am so glad to see it is healing other people too ;u; let’s retreat into the self-made digital woods and away from corporate bs pls, I am so tired
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sometimes i just wish that i was skinny and pretty as a kid, maybe then i couldve had some time before i started worrying abt my appearance
finally some good fucking news
keep fucking and eating and napping and having a zest for life forever king 🤘
i hope i never get questioned for murder or smth because i seem like im lying even when im telling the truth
We forgot about it
I once signed up to participate in a study on how depression affects memory, forgot I was meant to go do it, and when I emailed to apologise to the PhD student running it she basically told me that a) she was very used to this happening and b) the weird irony of her theories’ correctness making it very difficult to arrange proving them had by now gone from infuriating to hysterical
I went to the Grand Canyon when I was depressed and I literally forgot the whole thing. Like, the only reason I even know I was there is that I have photographs of myself standing in front of the Grand Canyon with dead eyes but i have absolutely no memory of it
People talk about depression like it’s just being sad all the time but straight up your brain stops working and sadness is just one of the many, many consequences of that