एक हज़ार शेर

A Blog to realize the dream of writing 1000 big/short compositions in Hindi/Urdu/English. If this dream does come true, it will take years of constant writing and that is what makes it special!

[1000sher]

मुबारक़

ज़िन्दगी का नाम ही परेशानी रख देना चाहिए , और परेशानी को ही मुझे अपना फलसफा कहना चाहिए। मगर इस पथरीले इकतरफा फ़साने में एक मोड़ आता है , जहाँ से रास्ता आसान तो नहीं होता , पर चलने का हौसला मिल जाता है। जब बाँटने वाला मिलता है ना, तो परेशानी आधी और ज़िन्दगी पूरी लगने लगती हैं। जब हौसला मिलता है ना, तो रास्ता छोटा और मंज़िल पास लगने लगती है। जो तुम मिले इस जनम में , तो ये जनम मुबारक हो मुझे। जो तुम हो इस दिन में , तो ये दिन मुबारक हो मुझे। और अगर तुम साथ हो , तो ये ज़िन्दगी , ये परेशानी , ये रास्ता , ये मंज़िल , सब मुबारक हो मुझे .... ~रबी

[ Life should be renamed as trouble, And I should call trouble as my life's philosophy. But sometimes a twist comes in this thorny one-sided story, Where the path doesn't become easy, but we find the courage to walk further. When we find someone to share, then troubles seem half and life seems full. When you get the encouragement, then the path seems short and the destination nearby. That I found you in this birth, so this birth is happy for me. That you are here with me today, so today is happy for me. And if you are there, Then this life, This problem, This path, This destination, All are happy for me...  ]

[1000sher]

या तो हम ना होते

या तो हम ना होते, या तो वो ना होते। या होते भी अगर, तो ये हालात ना होते। मैं थक गया हूँ लड़ लड़कर , काश... हम अपनों से ही बर्बाद ना होते। जो  बोला है करो , जो होता है सहो , चुप रहो ! दो पल सुकून चाहना गुनाह है यहाँ , काश... हम पर ऐसे इल्ज़ामात ना होते। घुटते रहने दो इसे, जो भी है अंदर , चाहे कितना ही गहरा हो पीठ का खंजर। हम मर भी जाएँ तो किसे क्या ही फ़िक्र है , काश ... रिश्ते इस तरह ख़ैरात ना होते। ~रबी

[ Either we wouldn't have been alive, or they wouldn't have been alive. Or even if we were both there, these circumstances wouldn't have happened. I'm tired of fighting, I wish ... we wouldn't have been ruined by our own people. Do what is told, Whatever happens, bear it, Keep quiet ! It is a crime to wish a few moments of peace here, I wish ... we would not have been accused like this. Let it ruin you, whatever is inside, No matter how deep is the dagger in the back. Even if I were to die, who would care about it, I wish ... relationships would not have become alms like this.  ]

## Written at one of the low moments of life ##

[1000sher]

Die

What I am afraid of more than dying... is the thought of living long enough... to see you die... ~RavS

## Are you not afraid of living long enough to see your loved ones die? ##

[1000sher]

अकेला

उसकी  यादें, उसकी चाहत , उसके ख्वाब, उसकी हसरत, उसकी हस्ती, उसके वादे , कुछ कर जाने के इरादे, माँ की गोद, पत्नी का आँचल, लोरी को ताकती बेटी का काजल, दर्द का बोझ उठाये कंधे, गले में उलझे पोशीदा फंदे। ...हम्म सब मरते हैं साथ में, वो 'अकेला' मरते हुए भी अकेला नहीं होता। ~रबी

[ His memories, his desires, His dreams, his longings, His personality, his promises, Intentions to do something, Mother's lap, wife's scarf, Mascara of little daughter waiting for lullaby, Shoulders bearing the pain, An invisible noose stuck in the neck. ... hmm Everything dies with him, He is not alone even while dying 'alone'. ]

## My Tribute to Sushant Singh Rajput. I used to like him as an actor. Wish all this controversy and mud-slinging around his death wouldn’t happen. ##

[1000sher]

मैं कश्ती हूँ

मैं कश्ती हूँ , मैं बहूँगा , थोड़े जल की बस ज़रूरत है। मैं लफ्ज़ हूँ , मैं रहूँगा , चढ़ने की लबों पे ये कुव्वत है। जो देखे थे तूने सपने , वो ख़्वाब अब भी पाले हूँ। तेरी आँखों से गिरे कतरे , मैं अब भी उन्हें संभाले हूँ। मैं सुबह हूँ , मैं लौटूँगा , बस रात ढलने की ही देरी है। मैं आग हूँ , मैं देहकूँगा। चिंगारी लगने की बारी मेरी है। ये ज़ंजीर मुझको काटे हैं , मुझे इनसे तू कट जाने दे। मैं हल्का सा ही जी लूँगा , फिर चाहे पूरा मर जाने दे। मैं ख़ुदा हूँ , मैं ख़ुदी का , मुझमे अब भी इतनी ज़ुर्रत है। मैं कश्ती हूँ , मैं बहूँगा, थोड़े जल की बस ज़रूरत है। ~रबी  

[ I'm a boat, I'll float, Just some water is needed. I'm a word, I'll stay, I've the power to be on everyone's lips. The dreams that you saw, I still have those dreams. The tears that dropped from your eyes, I've still kept them safe. I'm morning, I'll return, Just wait for the night to end. I'm a fire, I'll spread, It’s my turn to spark. These chains bite me, Let me cut off from them. I'll live a little bit, Then let me die completely. I'm God of my own, I still have so much audacity. I'm a boat, I'll float, Just some water is needed. ]

## Written after being inspired from hearing lyrics of a good Pakistani Rock Band Auz ##

[1000sher]

...हो जैसे

आज वो नहीं, कुछ अंदर-अंदर मरा हो जैसे। काश बह जाए, मुझमें एक समंदर भरा हो जैसे। वो चला गया बेवक़्त ऐसे ही एकदम से , तक़लीफ़ हो रही है, घाव बेहद हरा हो जैसे। आज आसमान देखने की चाहत नहीं रही , मेरा चहीता तारा टूटकर गिरा हो जैसे। कुछ लोग अपने होने से ही ख़ुशी देते हैं , छटपटाहट है, वो सुकून छिन गया हो जैसे। याद करने वाला मैं अकेला तो नहीं, फिर भी, परेशान हूँ , वो हमें भूल गया हो जैसे। मैं उसे जानता नहीं था, बस देखा था अक्स उसका , अक्सर याद करूँगा फिर भी , मेरा कोई अपना गया हो जैसे। ~रबी

[ Today not he, a part of me has died, I wish it sweeps me away, whatever ocean is locked inside. He went away all of a sudden, I am in pain, this wound is very new like. Don't want to see the sky today, My favorite star has fallen out of it. Some people make you happy just by being there, I am restless, as if someone has snatched my peace. I am not the only one grieving today, yet, I am anxious, as if he has forgotten us. I didn't know him, just saw his image on films, But I will still remember him often, as if I have lost someone mine. ]

## My tribute to Irrfan Khan. Really felt pained today. He was one of my favorite actors. Feels like someone my own has gone away. Don’t have words to express. ##

[1000sher]

चलो  तुम्हे  एक  बात  बताता  हूँ  कल  की , मेरे  सपने  में  थी , एक  शाम  अजीब  सी , जहाँ  तुम्हे  सुकून  मिले  मेरी  ख़ामोशी  से , और  तुम्हारी  साँसे  महके , मुझे  मदहोशी  दे। वहां  तू  राह  भी  थी , हमराही  भी , कितना  भी  दूर  जाऊं , तेरे  करीब  रहता  था , तू  ख़ुशी  भी  थी , नसीब  भी , इसलिए  मैं  खुद  को  खुशनसीब  कहता  था।   पर  गम  ना  कर  अगर  ये  सपना ही  था  सच  नहीं , तू  दिन तो  जीले  शिद्दत  से , आएगी  ऐसी  शाम  भी , हर  दिन  सपनो  सा  लगे  इस  बात  पर  चलो  ज़ोर  दें , क्यों  हसरत  सजा  बैठे  रहें  एक  दिन  के  अंजाम  की।   वैसे भी मेरा  प्यार  किसी  एक  दिन  का  मोहताजी  नहीं , मैं  इबादत  तो  करता  हूँ , पर हूँ  नमाज़ी  नहीं , तुम  ये  ना सोचो  की  चाँद  चला  गया  कल  का , तुम  ये  सोचो  आज  सूरज  उगने  को  क्यों  राज़ी  नहीं। और  तेरे  सिवा  इस  फरेबी  दुनिया  में  किसके  पास  जाऊँ  मैं , सब  तो  यहाँ  मतलबी  या  ग़लतफहमी  का  शिकार  हैं , सपनो  सी  आके  मिल  जाओ  किसी  शाम  को , ऐ  ज़िन्दगी , मुझे  एक   अरसे   से  तुम्हे  जीने  का  इंतज़ार  है। ~रबी

[ OK let me tell you something about yesterday, I saw a dream, and in that an odd evening, Where you could be comforted by my silence, And the fragrance of your breathe would make me glow. There you were the path, and also a co-traveler, Howsoever far I would go, I would find myself near to you. You were the happiness, and fortune too, That's why I used to call myself lucky. But do not sigh, if this was just a dream, not realty, You live this day with your full heart, that evening will also come. Every day feels like dream, let's talk about that possibility, Why do we keep thinking about just one day's result? Anyway my love is not dependent on a single day, I do worship, but I am not a theist, Do not think that the yesterday's moon has gone away, Think instead why today's sun does not agree to rise. And whom should I go to in this mirage world except you, All here are the self-centered or victims of  misunderstanding, O life, just come and meet me on an evening like a dream. I have been waiting to live you for a long time. ]

## About love, life and waiting # 

[1000sher]

खुदको  मेहरम  कहने  दे , तेरा  साया  बनके  रहने  दे।   जो  आग  लगी  है  कलेजे  में , इसे  सींच  ना , थोड़ा  जलने  दे। कुछ  लोग  नसीहत  देते  हैं , ना काबिल  तेरे  लिए ,  कहते  हैं । क्यों  रोके  हैं  उनका  मुँह  फिर  तू ,   आज  इस  बात  का  इल्म  भी  करने  दे। जिसे  मेरे  होने  का  अफ़सोस  ना  हो , ना  जाने  कब  मिलेगा  शख्स  वो। उधारी  सही , तू  फकत  सुकून  तो  दे , यहाँ  बस नोचने  वाले  रेह्न्दे  ने।   सही  है , या  न  जाने  गलत  है  तू, अच्छी  या  बुरी , मेरी  आदत  है तू । रखले  गिरवी  मेरी  खुशियां  मेहरम , बदले  में  गम  तेरे  सहने  दे। खुदको  मेहरम  कहने  दे , तेरा  साया  बनके  रहने  दे।   ~रबी *मेहरम = बहुत करीबी

[ Let me call myself your own, Let me remain your shadow forever. The fire in my mind and heart, Don't water it, let it burn a little. Some people advise me, I don't deserve you, they tell me, Why do you try to shut their mouth then, Let me also believe this truth. The one who doesn't feel sorry for me, I don't know when I will feel that person. Let it be temporary at least give me some peace, Here only people who tear apart are found.   I don't know if you are right or wrong, Good or bad, you are my habit now. Keep my happiness with you, O loved one, Let me bear your sadness in return. Let me call myself your own, Let me remain your shadow forever. ]

## When you long for someone to call your own. When you want to belong. ##

[1000sher]

थोड़े  से  तुम  थे

थोड़े  से  तुम  थे , थोड़े  हम  थे , थोड़ी  खुशियाँ , थोड़े  गम  थे।   दर्द  ज़िन्दगी  में  तो  ना  कभी  कम  थे , पर  वजह  सहने  की  फिर  भी,  तुम  सनम  थे।   थोड़े  से  तुम  थे , थोड़े  हम  थे , थोड़ी  खुशियाँ  थोड़े  गम  थे।   जो  मैं  तेरा  हो  ना सका , क्या  मुझे  हक़  है  तुझे  अपना  कहने  का ? ख्वाइशें  जो  मैं  पूरी  कर  ना  सका , क्या  मुझे  हक़  है  कुछ  माँग सकने  का ? फिर  क्या  कहें  और  किसके  दम  पे  , जो  मेरे  आँसूं  तेरे  गालों  पे  नम  थे। थोड़े  से  तुम  थे , थोड़े  हम  थे , थोड़ी  खुशियाँ,  थोड़े  गम  थे । मेरे  सिवा  तेरा   कौन  होगा  वहाँ, तेरे  सिवा  मेरा  कौन  था  ही  यहाँ, बस  ये  जो  डर  की  खाई  थी गहरी  दरमियाँ , पार  करने  का  हौसला,  था  ना जाने  कहाँ।   पर  जब  मुड़ने  लगे तुम  उस  और,  कसम  से , साँसे  उखड़ती  चली  गई  इसी  भरम   से।   दर्द  ज़िन्दगी  में  तो  ना  कभी  कम  थे , वजह  सहने  की  आखिरी , तुम   सनम  थे।   थोड़े  से  तुम  थे , थोड़े  हम  थे , थोड़ी  खुशियाँ,  थोड़े  गम  थे ... ~ रबी

[ There was a little you and a little me , There was some happiness, and some sadness.

Pain was never less in life, But even then, you were there as a cause to bear it all. There was a little you and a little me , There was some happiness, and some sadness.

When I could not be yours, Do I have the right to call you my own? Desires that i could not fulfill, Do I have the right to ask for something? Then what to say and on what basis, When my tears were moist on your cheeks. There was a little you and a little me , There was some happiness, and some sadness.

Who will be there for you, except me? Who was here except me anyways? Just this deep gap of fear in between us, The courage to cross it was never there. But when you started to turn and go, I swear, I become lifeless with this thought, Pain was never less in life, You were the last reason to bear it all.

There was a little you and a little me , There was some happiness, and some sadness. ]

## About you and me. And also about you and them ##

[1000sher]

सुना  है

सुना  है  बरबादियाँ  ही  मिलती  हैं  उसके  आशिक़ों  को  वफ़ा  में। तो  चलो  हम   भी  उसकी  गली  में  चलके  प्यार  करते  हैं। सुना  है  औरों  की  हंसी  उड़ने  से  आती  है  हंसी  उसे। तो  चलो  उसके  मोहल्ले  में  खुद  को  सरे-बाज़ार  करते  हैं।   सुना  है  जन्नत  भी  गुज़रती  है  उसके  कदमो  से  होके। तो  चलो  उसके  रस्ते  में  खुद  को  तार-तार  करते  हैं। सुना  है , ग़मों  का  रुख  तक  नहीं  देखा कभी  उसने। तो  चलो  उसका  रुख  देख  कर हम ख़ुशी  इख़्तियार  करते  हैं। सुना  है  फूल  भी  इत्र  मांगने  आते  हैं  उसके  बदन से। तो  चलो  हम  भी क्यों ना अपनी  शामें  गुलज़ार  करते  हैं। सुना  है  जगमगाती  है  वो  कभी-कभी  अमावस  की  रात  में। तो  चलो  हम  भी  मुद्दतों  नूर  का  इंतज़ार  करते  हैं। सुना  है  चाँद  भी  तकता  है  उसे  एक आह  भर  के। तो  चलो  हम  भी  चलके  अपनी  साँसें  उधार  करते  हैं। सुना  है  जाहिल  भी  शायर  हो  जाते  हैं  उसके  आगे। तो  चलो  हम  भी  कुछ  नज़्में  उसपे  वार  करते  हैं। सुना  है , मरते  भी  आते  हैं  उससे  ज़िन्दगी  की  चाहत  में। तो  चलो  हम पहले  खुद   को  बेहद  बीमार  करते  हैं। सुना  है  रबी , दोस्तों  को  कुंद  कलम  की  शिकायत  करते। तो  चलो  उसकी  आँखों  से  लेकर  इसमें  धार  करते  हैं। ~रबी 

[  Have heard that her lovers get only devastation in return. So let's also move in her street and love. Have heard she laughs when others get ridiculed, So let's ridicule ourselves in her neighborhood. Have heard that the heaven also passes through her feet. So let's slaughter ourselves on her path. Have heard, she hasn't ever faced sadness yet. So let's also see her face and feel some happiness. Have heard even flowers come to beg some fragrance from her body. So let's go to her and make our evenings fragrant. Have heard that she glows on the night of new moon, So let's also wait forever to see her shine. Have heard the moon glances at her with bated breath, So let's also lend our breaths to hers. Have heard even illiterates become poets in front of her. So let's gift some of our verses to her. Have heard, death also comes to her for the want of life. So let's first make ourselves very ill. Have heard Rabi, friends complain of the blunt pen. So let's ask for sharpness from her eyes.  ]

## A romantic gift for my wife :) ## 

[1000sher]

इतना  प्यार  करना  मुझे

ना  भी  कर  पाऊँ  बात  तुमसे  किसी  मोड़  पर  , तुम  मेरी  खामोशियाँ  तो  पहचानती  हो  न ? कभी  रोकना उन्हें , और पूछना  उनको , क्यों  खामोशियाँ  मेरी  यूँ  बदहवास  हैं । क्यों  जुबान मेरी  लावारिस  सी , क्यों  आवाज आज  बेआवाज  है । शायद  मेरी  खामोशियों  में कहीं  दबा  मिल  जाऊँ मैं  तुम्हें ... ना  भी  सो  पाऊँ  मैं  कभी  रात  भर , तुम  मेरी  बेचैनियाँ  तो  समझती  हो  न ? अपने  तकिये  तले  सुला लेना  मेरी  बेचैनियों  को , अपना  आँचल  ओढ़ा  करके  रात  में। थपकियाँ   लगा  देना  उन्हें  , हलकी-हलकी  आवाज  में। और  सोके  उठें  तो  करना  जिरह  उनसे  , क्यों  बेचैनियों  को  चैन  नहीं  आज  है। शायद  जो  मैं  खुद  भी  नहीं  जानता , वो  बेचैनियाँ  बता  जाएँ  तुम्हें ... जो  लगे  तुम्हे  तन्हा, मैं  नाराज़  रहूँ  अगर , तुम  मेरी  नाराज़गियों  से  लड़  सकती  हो  न ? लड़ना मेरी  नाराज़गियों  से  अपनी  तन्हाइयों  की  खातिर , और  मना  कर  मुझे ,  खुद रूठ  जाना  फिर। वही  दीवानगी  रखना  गुस्से  में  भी , जिस  शिद्दत  से  तुमने  मुझे  चाहा  है  । बस  ना  देना  तन्हाईयाँ  बदले  में  , तुम्हारी  नाराजगियाँ  मुझे  फिर  भी  गवारा  हैं। मेरी  तन्हाईयाँ  भी  नाराज़  हो  जाएँ  मुझसे , तुम  इतना  प्यार  करना  मुझे ... ~ रबी

[ Even if I am not able to talk to you at some point, You still recognize my silence, right? Stop it some time, and ask it, Why my silence is so restless. Why do my words feel unclaimed, Why my voice is voiceless today. May be you will find me buried somewhere in my silence… If am not able to sleep whole night, You understand my discomfort, don't you? Let my restlessness sleep under your pillow, By covering it with the sheet of your skin, Pat them a little with a slow sound. And when they wake up, then talk to them, Why my restlessness can't rest today. Maybe what I don't even know myself, my restlessness might tell you that... If you ever feel lonely, if I am angry with you, You can fight my resentment, right? Fight with my resentment for the sake of your loneliness, And get angry after consoling me. Keeping the same madness in your anger, With that passion that you love me. Just don’t give me loneliness in return, I will accept your resentments still. My loneliness also should get angry with me, you love me so much… ] ## It’s not easy for me to be OK once I get angry. This piece is more of a cry for help ##

[1000sher]

I've tried to give you everything I've ever had, My time, my love, my advice - good and bad. But all I have always got from you in return, Is disgrace, disappointment and heartburn. You've been a liar, an addict, a thug & a thief, And I always had to pay for your mischieves. I have forgotten and forgiven your every crime, In the delusion that this might be the last time. Now I don't know how to handle even myself, What's the point of even trying to help? I feel like a cocoon holding a black hole, I want to leave, but I know you will implode. But if I don't leave, you will eat me alive. So either I perish with you or watch you die. You have broken my heart and filled it with void, And it's so painful to know that i have no choice. I never expected you to share my pains, I just wanted my efforts to not go in vain. You have shattered my confidence, to such an extent, Why am I related to you, every single day I repent. I have often wondered if it's just my fate, Other times I have questioned if it's my mistake? I have hoped against hope, but am convinced now. I'll never see the day when you'll ever make me proud. ~RavS

## Some things can only be expressed indirectly. ##

[1000sher]

Let yesterday be gone. Today be mine, Tomorrow and forever. ~RavS 

## I just wish, we could have met earlier. We could have gotten so much more time to understand each other and make our relationship even stronger. But I can't do anything about what's gone. I hope to have today and a lot of tomorrows. 

I am gonna make the most of what’s left, with you. ##

[1000sher]

Like raindrops on window pane. Stick with me please . ~RavS

## What else can I ask at the core of it all? Just this… that you stick with me forever. Just like raindrops seem to be going away from the Window Panes, but they never leave. They are there, leaving a trail behind. Sticking, till their last shred of existence. ##

[1000sher]

Madly in love, Or Mads in love. Not sure. ~RavS

## At times, this Love between us feels maddening.  It takes the extremes I haven’t felt in any other relationship.

But sometimes, I feel we are just two idiots who have found each other and now claiming we have found that all encompassing love. I don’t know. I guess we can’t find out right now. It will take a lifetime.  ##

[1000sher]

In the deepest of dark, I’ll find the path that leads to you. ~RavS 

## I sometimes feel lost in trying to understand you. The path isn’t clear, through which to reach your heart and to your soul. But I am always determined to reach and connect with you, no matter what. After all, it’s important, for both of us. ##

[1000sher]

I’ve caught fear. Can you hold me as I shiver it away? ~RavS 

## I don’t know about you, but I sometimes start feeling afraid. Afraid of what will happen to our relationship. Afraid something might happen to you. Afraid I might not live up to the expectations. It’s at those times I require you to hold my hand and reassure me that everything is gonna be fine. Even if it’s not true. Just lie. ##