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please acknowledge but please don't reblog my personal posts

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i was here for five minutes before i got just incredibly steamed over bullshit discourse i love this asshole website 

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I barely remember the last 6 months honestly like am I even alive

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*sees person i hate for no reason doing something normal and completely usual* Damn. I Hate that Pissweasel more than i ever did before. That fucker!! Piece of shit. Fuck him

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Self isolating and then getting upset when you see your friends having fun without you and using this to validate the notion that nobody really needs you or will miss you if you’re gone

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hundreds of abuse survivors: I identified with Lapis a lot and the things Jasper said were even word-for-word what I heard from my abuser(s). No one ever talks about the part of abuse where you miss your abuser or think you deserved the abuse. The self blame is rarely touched upon. I’m grateful that it showed “mutual abuse” doesn’t exist and is nothing more than a way for abusers to victimize themselves and gaslight their victims. It’s wonderful to see abuse portrayed so realistically

everyone else: um okay but Lapis fought back and was mean?? Jasper is suffering. Maybe the real abusers were the victims all along. Really makes you think huh?

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ive exchautsted the limit of my twitter whining but i have definitely not called myself a fucking . useless mistake enough 

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everyones jokin abt how their intrusive thoughts are super cute and fun, teehee im gonna eat some cardboard mental illness isnt scary or serious!! the idea anyone ever experiences symptoms that manifest in a genuinely terrifying and upsetting way is jsut a media construction lol. like as someone whos intrusive thoughts are 1) constant and 2) incredibly violent and distressing and awful those posts just make me feel like a freak but im glad ur all having fun 

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better cut me out yr life too , everyone cause im not worth shit

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vccconstantly seeing someone who cut u out of their life wtithout any preamble is like , man it really hurts huh

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wish i cld stop conflating people not talking to me with people wishing i was dead but what can i say its a personality flaw

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like i dont have the heart to tell her everyones sick of me yikes

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me: i feel really bad a lot and i cant really reach out well but people will know im feeling bad cause ill say something on my blog but starting a direct conversation is. makes me anxiety throw up therapist: thats good that youre still giving them the chance to reach out im sure theres people who really want to help .. people care about u :) me: *throwing up and setting a knife to my throat aftr hours of shouting into a void* haha yeah

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wish i was dead real bad but im not even real

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if i try to kill myserlf again all my friends will be sick of me and drop me so i have to really ddo it right this time