[brazyinterlude]

at war with myseIf because I know I can do better.

[metamorphesque]

Osamu Dazai, The Setting Sun

[theinternetarchive]

i have turned it into a letterboxd list: good films that are free on the internet archive!!!! Each film is linked in the notes on letterboxd. this will be continually updated so it's a good link to save if you want to keep up!

[maniatown]

Girl whose most frequent mistake is inaction voice: wow I keep making mistakes I better not do anything

[143btwtv]

chat i’m so high key touch starved i got emotional when the doctor touched my wrists for my nerve tests

[bluehydrangeasss]

[kissophile]

dating conrad fisher ! ֒ 𑁍 ܀

[ssparksflyy]

SUMMER WAS WHAT MATTERED ୨୧⊹ ࣪ ˖

isabel belly conklin, the summer i turned pretty

━ MY WHOLE LIFE WAS MEASURED IN SUMMERS

[calebwittebane]

you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for an amazing reason

[canthaveshitingotham-crucified]

i hate it when i cant even write a poem about something because its too obvious. like in the airbnb i was at i guess it used to be a kids room cause you could see the imprint of one little glow in the dark star that had been missed and painted over in landlord white. like that's a poem already what's the point

[canthaveshitingotham-crucified]

you get it. you get the themes. i dont have time to do it justice. just look at it its on the ceiling

[brenna]

[teaboot]

[wheresmyphonemp3]

[fadingponycookiedream]

[andsorrowsend]

[werefeathers]

[alexklementski]

“Everyone saw in my face evil traits that I didn’t possess. But they assumed I did, and so they developed. I was modest, and was accused of being deceitful: I became secretive. I had a strong sense of good and evil; instead of kindness I received nothing but insults, so I grew resentful. I was gloomy, other children were merry and talkative. I felt myself superior to them, but was considered inferior: I became envious. I was ready to love the whole world, but no one understood me, so I learned to hate. My colorless youth was spent in a struggle with myself and with the world. Fearing mockery, I buried my best feelings at the bottom of my heart: there they died.”

— Mikhail Lermontov, A Hero of Our Time (trans. Vladimir Nabokov)

[samirasystole]

random but here is a recipe for cold peanut noodles that you can make during hot weather because i just ate this and had a fantastic time

2tbsp of peanut butter. a splash of rice vinegar, soy sauce, sesame oil, maple syrup. some chili flakes, some sesame seeds. a splash of water to thin it out. now you put in your noodles (cooled!!!! boiled and rinsed so they’re cold!!) and then some chopped up cucumber or carrot or avocado or cabbage or any crunchy vegetable. i just used cucumber

you can also put in lime juice or herbs or sriracha or grated garlic/ginger or anything like that; tofu/tempe/meat for more protein etc. noodle wise this can be ramen soba udon whatever, i used soba. enjoy homies

[vybewitme]

…

[goyangi-deactivated20251013]

the goal for this year and for every year is to be kind and also to stop being scared of literally everything

[bodhi-devotee]

“you’re such a ray of sunshine!” thanks! one day i chose to act happy and then i kept choosing it over and over and over and over until the neurological pathways formed like desire paths in the thicket. i dug and clawed my nails into the grooves of my brain and carved out joy. i retouch it every day.

[dsmsix]

me

[harryandabook]

study log!!

i did a lot of things today!!! i revised some things for college since my uni will restart next week (my professors were on strike the whole semester) and also worked a bit. read some really nice poems by north american harlem renaissance movement and made my mini journal again in a way i like! :)