looking for: the women my mother warned me about

Irl age: 25. It/its. Prey animal.

[14spades]

hiii im spades im poking around at some less palatable kinks (and things my gf who follows my other blog dislikes or finds uncomfortable/triggering/whatever). Irl I am a uni student, survivor of being a girl on the internet, and part-time bitch. Here I am some sort of deerthing. I have school/classes several days a week, and other Real Obligations so my posting might be sporadic. [Edit: this blog mostly runs on a queue, but anything with writing in the tags does not go through the queue]

DMs/asks/etc are open! Mutuals can ask for other contact info. No judgements here, promise ^-^

Im still learning my limits, theyre kind of flexible though. I WILL tell you to stop if I want you to stop. We can figure it out together hehe :3 (no dni i just block)

You will see: mommy kink, identity play, hypnosis, medfet, gaslighting.

You wont see: detrans, raceplay, zoo, bathroom stuff, orientation play, siscon/sibcon specifically.

I follow from 13wands, original posts are tagged #spades speaks

Also i feel like i should say explicitly: i am an aro/ace lesbian (nonbinary flavor). I am open to chatting with people of any gender, but im not particularly interested in boys or men typically (not a hard and fast rule but generally speaking this is the case).

Once again, this is a blog made by an adult to interact with other adults. I post about fantasies and often times about things that are immoral/unpalatable/illegal in real life.

[14spades]

Im stuck in bed again so its time to fantasize about being kidnapped and raped and conditioned and gaslit. Please consider kidnapping your local me i cant even walk very far so you dont have to worry about me escaping. If you put me up or down a flight of stairs im even more screwed. Cuff me to a wheelchair to take me outside as an accessory. Make me get the rest my body needs by laying on top of me and forcing yourself into me while i cant escape

[willowo-luna]

We need more disability focused BDSM this is so hot

[14spades]

If you find any other dyke adjacent cripple sex posts lmk because it feels like im the only one around in my dash

[14spades]

Im stuck in bed again so its time to fantasize about being kidnapped and raped and conditioned and gaslit. Please consider kidnapping your local me i cant even walk very far so you dont have to worry about me escaping. If you put me up or down a flight of stairs im even more screwed. Cuff me to a wheelchair to take me outside as an accessory. Make me get the rest my body needs by laying on top of me and forcing yourself into me while i cant escape

[cloistered-collecton]

I want to name you.

Everyone has a name, either something chosen for you, or chosen by you. They are the thing that the world knows you by, the shorthand for your entire personhood, the catch all descriptor of who you are. They are wonderful, beautiful, useful things.

So let me take the name you have, and turn it into a lie. Let me take that descriptor, that thing that all the world says is you, that you say is you, and make that saying into falsehood. Let me turn the thing you show people first into a mask.

Let me learn you so fully and so deeply that I can decide the word that means you. Give me so much power over your identity that you let me take the name you hold in your heart and replace it with one that I decide fits better.

Then let me keep it, secret and private, just for us. Let your new name, the one I decided was you, be our secret. Take the old indicator of who you were and wrap it around yourself like armor, protecting the self that I defined for you.

And when we are alone, let me pull that armor from you, take the mask from your face, and call you by your name. Let me speak the word that says I know you, the self that I decided was real, hidden under all the parts I decided weren't.

Let me name you, let me define you, and love me for it.

[enchantress-arc]

Okay sure. It's probably "unethical" to brainwash a girl so deeply that her own internal sense of identity revolves around devotion to me and nothing else. Sure, it's "unethical" to make little audio files for her to play that reinforce the aforementioned brainwashing whenever I'm not physically with her. To have her so irrevocably marked by my presence that she views everything in the world through the lens of whether it would please me or not. However

[enchantress-arc]

Cute girl who finds being mindfucked really comfy rather than just hot, because it means the girl fucking her will have access to every part of her mind without restriction, and being controlled and reprogrammed is the coziest thing in the world. The entire time leading up to it she's all excited before her mind is broken, and even then, she's still mumbling a blank "I love you Miss" over and over as it happens. Only to wake up and desperately cling to her Miss, so eager to be by her side, so eager to learn what Miss chose to do with her broken, mindfucked doll.

[somnaseamstress]

Super underrated form of hypnosis: guiding your sub while they're asleep. Gently whispering sweetly into their ear, letting your words sink into their head and deep, deep into their subconscious~ It's okay that they're not really listening to you at the moment. They will when you have them nice and primed. ;3

Later the next day, you're chatting with them casually, and they're not really sure why the way you're talking makes them feel all nice and relaxed and fuzzy... then you start saying certain trigger phrases, and even though they don't remember them, something just seems so familiar about them...

It just reminds them of falling asleep... being in a deep, deep sleep~

[jadedwoman]

❤️ Stop pretending you're a person sweetheart. I know it's normal to try and resist, to try and insist you have free will. But darling, it's so obvious you don't. Think about how weak you get when I order you around. Think about how your knees tremble when I say to kneel. If you had free will I'm sure you'd be putting up more resistance. So why don't you make things easy for both of us dear, let those knees tremble as you sit down on them, let your mouth fall open with a whine, and let me use your throat like the toy you were always meant to be, and just forgot you were<3

[enchantress-arc]

Using a certain, specific tone of voice every single time you hypnotize a person becomes very entertaining in the long run, because eventually all you need to do is use that voice, and they'll begin to drop. And it makes it so easy to tease them, so fun to just drop into that voice and see their breathing slow, their eyes become heavier, their body relaxing entirely. Even though they're not fully in trance yet, they still become submissive, pliable. It's so easy to just do anything you want to them, all it will take before they begin mindlessly thrusting their hips is a small bit of stimulation, a caress across their thigh, a kiss on the neck (and maybe even less if they were already in this sort of mood). They can't help it once they hear that wonderful, seductive voice, being reduced to a pathetic, desperate toy, and even if they could, they'd never want to escape the pleasure of your wonderful siren song.

[nyanbinary-catboy]

I <3 voice control!!

Only being able to refer to yourself in the third person (especially as something like "toy" or "it" or even more degrading)

Only being able to speak in "prerecorded" voice lines

Only being able to respond in meows, barks, moans, etc.

Only being able to speak like a silly bimbo with lots of "like"s and "um"s and "totally"s

Being unable to speak anything but repeating your mantras over and over

[hyenagirlpenis]

Some sort of weapon or implement to your head while I force you to repeat yourself through the tears and sobbing and hyperventilating: "Thank you for breaking me. I love being broken. Please make it worse."

As it gets worse and worse, and those sentences get too complex to manage, you just repeat exactly as trained: "Break me. Break me. Break me." Egging me on with the mantra, the fear and horror and pain in your voice meaningless next to the actual words.

You're so pretty like this. How could I say no?

[secret-subject]

Oh honey of course I would never gaslight you, you're just too dumb to understand what I'm saying. Thank god you have a smartie pants silly girl like me to think for you now.

[secret-subject]

Oh honey of course I would never gaslight you, you're just too dumb to understand what I'm saying. Thank god you have a smartie pants silly girl like me to think for you now.

[cupcakesprinklesxox]

wish i was suckin an older woman’s tits while she fingered me and called me her baby

[momsangel]

oh to be an older woman’s controversially young girlfriend

[dumbdoegirl]

sometimes all a girl needs is to stare vacant eyed into a camera holding up double peace signs while dressed in clothes she would never pick out for herself.

[enchantress-arc]

Thinking about cute girls calling themselves it. And cute girls being hypnotically conditioned to find being an it comfortable. And how fun it'd be to break down a girl so deeply, over and over and over, so that it only views itself as an object meant to further my will.

And then cuddling it. Naturally.