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priv. allen walker by min

[14thns]

❝― I will still continue to pray Please bestow upon this child your love Upon our joined hands, leave a gentle kiss

indie private 2006 anime + manga + headcanon based allen walker by min 

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[14thns]

❝     my master . . . ? haha , he isn't like the devil .    ❞   with   the   shake   of  the  head   ,  countless  memories   flood  your  mind  &   psyche.   ever   since   you   can  recall  ,   traveling   alongside   of   your   master   cross   would   never   leave .   of   course   not   ,   that   was   the   man   who   taught     you   everything  ,  what  it   meant   to   be   an   exorcist .     though   ,   what   exactly those  teachings  meant  wouldn't  became   clear   until   much   later .   ❝    no , my master . . . he's the genuine devil.   ❞   is   what   he   says   ,   there   isn't  a  trace  of  irony    to   his   words.   ⊳ @holyrisen​ ★ yoru starter 

[14thns]

i think as a society you are required to love allen walker (this is a starter call) 

[14thns]

allen singing @ a picture of cross / mana / tyki / yoru : you are my dad boogy woogy 

[stale--baguette]

@kumachhi as a thank you for dragging me back into this hell uwu

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[14thns]

you are baby 

[14thns]

" oi . be more careful . you could've fallen and hit your head . " / yoru hehehehe

          theres    a  moment    of   hesitation   ,   eyes   flicker   with   a   sense   of  confusion  .   the   one   who   grabs   your   arm     bears   an  uncanny  resemblance   to   a   friend   of   yours   ,   granted   ,  he  would  never  say  such  kind   nor   considerate   words .   after   regaining   balance   ,   allen   is   left   alone   with   his   thoughts  for  the  time  being.   trying   to   exactly   formulate   &   comprehend   what   had   just   happened  .   physical   damage   and   pain     were   all   too     familiar   to  him   ,   it   was     nostalgic   in  a  way.   despite   how   darkly   morbid   that   all   sounded   ,   that’s  just  how  his  life  has   been   up   to   this   point .   that   sort   of   warming   words   of   comfort  still  throw  him  for  a  loop  ,     no   matter     ,   how   long  he’s   been   with   the   order & how   much   of   a   family   the   others   make   him   feel   apart   of.   some   habits    [ die  hard  ] ,   he   supposed   . ❝    mーmister yoru . . . I suppose you’re right ! haha , I guess I wasn’t thinking .     ❞  hollow  laughter   emerges   , yet  another   method   of   coping   with   the   pain .   not   too   unlike   a    pierrot ,  hiding   behind   that   mask   of   yours.   it   was   uncanny    how   ironic   fate   could  be    , still  ,   a   tinge   of   red   is   visible   on   your   expression .  to  have  someone  worry  about    you   like   this     ,   its   what   you’ve  always   wanted  ...    isn’t  it ? ー @holyrisen​

[14thns]

not allen with childhood neglect , ptsd , imposter syndrome , etc. not to mention the stuff with the fourteenth with him losing more of himself and feels like a part of his personality and self is constantly fading , especially after the fourteenth manifests , his eye color forever changes. his right eye is golden like a noah while his other eye still remains as a human , a physical representation that he isn’t him anymore & changing into something much more frightening. 

[allenzwalker]

[14thns]

yoru & kanda in the same room : 

allen : 

[mugein]

❝    stop playing me for a fool.    ❞          eyes sharpened like the sky threatening a storm, his gaze is piercing and austere. the same pallid excuses are thrown upon him time and time again, but he is not the ignorant, heartless soldier that whispers tell him to be. jades, perhaps, but conscientious nonetheless.          ❝    i know who you are, and i know what you are. a hypocrite that can’t practice what you preach. quit spewing that ‘ you’re not alone ‘ bullshit if you aren’t prepared to take it yourself.    ❞  @14thns​  .

[14thns]

     not  too  different  to  an  untamable  animal  ,  he  bites  back  with  full  force .  perhaps  , all  this  time  they've  spent  together  , fight  after  fight  truly  meant  nothing  to  Kanda.  still  ,  Allen  would  be  damned  if  he  just  simply  take  this .  ❛   shut  it  ー    ❜ that's  right.  you've  left  everyone  else  that  once  considered  your  family  behind  ,  for  the  sake  of  forsaking  yourself  so  no  one  else  would  be  harmed .  but  ,  allen  ,  why  is  it  that  you're  so  afraid  ,  terrified  to  be  all  alone .  you  have  no  right  to  scold  Kanda  ,  none  at  all  ,  though  that  thought  isn't  enough  to  stop  you  from  boiling  over  completely.  perhaps  ,  this  was  a  projection  of  your  own  frustrations  onto  him  ,  or  even  more  unspoken  words  between  the  two  of  you.  ❛   fine  . . .  you're  right  ,  I  ran  away  from  everyone .  is  that  what  you  wanted  to  hear  you  idiot  !?   ❜  grabbing  onto  Kanda's  collar  ,  shoulders  moving  up  &  down  a  clear  indication  of  his  distress .  [  gods  , he  really  must  be  losing  it  .  how  long  can  he  even  keep  going  as  allen  walker? ]  such  thoughts  linger  , regardless  ,  staring  him  eye  to  eye .  ❛   y-you  ...  have  the  choice  that  I  don't  have  ,  Kanda  ...  I'm  all  out  of  choices  now  , don't  you  see  ,  IーI  don't  even  look  the  same  anymore  ,  do  I ?   ❜  the  desperation  in  tone  &  voice  is  evident  , just  a  look  in  the  mirror  was  obvious  enough .  your  humanity  ,  its  fading .

[14thns]

@holyrisen​

[14thns]

i think as a society you are required to love allen walker (this is a starter call) 

[14thns]

i headcanon that allen’s eyes change drastically as soon as the 14th’s influence kicks in , his usual color which is grey is sported with the golden eyes associated with the noah 

[14thns]

[ . . .] 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐬 𝙸'𝚖 𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚊𝚗 𝚎𝚡𝚘𝚛𝚌𝚒𝚜𝚝 ,

even if our paths end up different. 

I'll still love the home with lenalee & the order.

 𝐦𝐲 𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐞. ー allen walker by min