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Pagkakamali. Oo nagkakamali, Pero dapat bang hiyain ng todo ang taong may mali? Una, unang pagkakataon, Hindi na ba pwedeng matuto ang nagkamali? May mga taong sa kanilang paningin ay perpekto na, Marahil dahil sa sila ay nakatataas na Pero dapat bang maliitiin talaga ang iba? Kung tunay kang matalino bakit aapakan pa sila. Mas mapalad pa rin sa aking pananaw ang taong mapagpakumbaba Kaysa sa taong ang tingin sa sarili ay langit na Oo, mas nakakaangat sila Pero hindi ibig sabihing may karapatan silang hiyain ang iba. Matalino, sino nga ba ang tunay na matalino? Siya na naninigaw na para hiyain ang kakulangan ng isa? O ang siyang marunong umintindi sa kahinaan ng iba? Sa tingin niyo sino ang mas matalino sa dalawa. Mahirap husgaan ang tao sa isang beses na pagkakasama Kaya dapat kilalanin pa rin ang kakayanan ng iba Wag basta basta kung maliitin sila Baka mas mapalad pa sila saiyo kaya ingatan din sila.

Hinanakit hinanakit Tanong lagi ng isip Meron nga bang hinanakit? O tanging pangungulila lang ng pusong puno ng sakit. Mahirap maiwan kahit saglit Ng mga taong mahal mo sa paligid Mahalaga na sila ay makita Kahit sa sandali ng iyong pangungulila Pero bakit ganun na lang? Kung maglaro ang tadhana Kahit pangako nila ay saglit lang na di pagkikita Tumatagal pa rin ng taon ang pag iwan nila Ano nga ba ang mas mahalaga? Oras para sa minamahal o pera para sa kinabukasan nila Kaya ba bayaran ng perang naipon sa bangko Ang panahong mga wala ka sa piling nila? Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit ganun na lang ang tadhana Kung iwan ako ng mga taong mahal ko ganun ganun na lang basta Hindi ba ako mahalaga sa paningin nila? Hindi ba kaibig ibig ang paglalang saken ng langit at ang lupa ay galit na galit? Iniwan nila ako isa isa Ni minsan di bumalik para ako'y personal na makita at makasama Sapat na ba ang pinapadala? Para masabing mahal na mahal kita? Ano nga ba ang sukatang meron sila? Mukhang magkaiba ang gamit namin at di magtugma tugma Madalas masambit ang salitang mahal kita Pero di maramdaman ng puso ang sinasabi nila. Kung ako ang masusunod, gusto ko sila makita Pero milya milya ang layo namin sa isa't isa Paano ko naman sila mabibisita? Visa lang na nakaukit sa puso't isip ko ang meron ako Paano makakalilipad kung di naman tatanggaping makasakay ng eroplano. Kawawa ang pusong naiiwan na lang Akala nila masaya dahil sa mga padala Mukhang sapat na ba un sa paningin nila At di nila maisipang mahalaga din saken na sila ay makita? Kalahati ng buhay ko'y sila'y di nakasama Masasabi pa bang kami ay magkakakilala Musmos pa noong ako'y iwan nila Ngayon ay matanda na at pwede na magkapamilya. Malupit, malupit, sino nga ba ang tunay na malupit? Ang langit na sakin ay nakatingin O ang lupa na nagdadala ng aking lakbayin Sapagkat matagal na akong naghihintay ng kanilang biyaya ngunit hanggang ngayon ay wala pa. Hay, panaginip, hanggang panaginip na lang tayo magkakasama Mamahalin ko na lang kayo sa aking panaginip At nanamnamin ang boses na naririnig sa viber o facetime saglit At kahit na sa maiksing oras tayo man lang ay magkapiling sa aking pag idlip. Ganun pa may, dalangin pa rin Na sana kayo'y dumating At muling masilayan Ang gandang tangi na sa inyo'y biyaya ng langit din.

Pag-ibig, madalas ilarawang kapanapanabik Nakakakilig, nakakabaliw ang bawat yakap na mahigpit Mga tinging malalagkit at kaakit akit Pati sa panaginip ay nakakabit Bawat sandaling siya ay iyong kasama Parang nasa langit ang nadarama Ligayang walang katapusan sinta Yaon ang hinahanap hanap pag na riyan siya Magkawak kamay san man mapunta Walang iwanan ang pangako sa isa't isa Ikaw lang aking iibigin wika niya Na nagbibigay ngiti naman sayong maamong mukha Pag-ibig kung ilarawan ay tunay na ligaya Parang wala ng bukas kung ibigin siya Sapagkat para sayo siya ay buhay mo na Higit pa sa iyong hininga ang pagpapahalaga Pero bakit nang ikaw ay malayo Bigla na lang din siyang nagbago Di malaman ang dahilan Kung bakit iniwan ang puso bigla at sinugatan Sino nga ba ang dahilan Sa inyong tampuhan na nauwi sa hiwalayan Ikaw ba na nagmahal ng lubusan O siya na unang bumitaw at nang-iwan Umibig ka ng lubos at muntik ka ngang maubos Pasensiya ang pagkain mo sa mesa Maalagaan lang siya ng tunay na kalinga Ngunit bakit ikaw ay iniwanan ng puro nganga Inuna mo siya na parang hari sa umaga Sinunod na parang magulang mo na Niyakap na parang isang maamong tupa Ngunit ika'y sinaktan na parang nadurog na paminta Mga bes, masakit, sobrang sakit ng ginawa niya Pinaikot niya ang mundo mo na parang bola Pinaniwala na parang musmos na bata Sa walang kwentang pag-ibig niya Kaya naman, pag-ibig kung ilalarawan ko na ay masakit din pala Akalain mo di lang pala puro saya at ligaya May kirot ding dala ang pag-ibig niya Nagmahal nga ngunit kulang naman pala. Kaya hindi sapat ang pag-ibig na puro pangako Kung hindi naman malinis ang intensiyon ng kanyang puso Dahil ang pag-ibig ng isang tulad niya Ay di magtatagal at mala pelikula lang na walang forever ang drama.

Saiyo ako unang natuto Nakakita ng mga batang matatalino Mababait, masisipag kahit na minsan ay magugulo Kaya naman ikaw ang paborito ko Walang katulad ang kaaliwalasan ng paligid mo Puro papuri ang naririnig tungkol saiyo Ikaw madalas ang bukambibig ng mga tao Pag pinag uusapan ang ganda at mukhang perpekto Mahal ka nga ng marami Pinuprotektahan ang iyong puri Kaya naman ni minsan ika'y di iniwan Dahil ikaw ay tunay na pinakaiingatan Ngunit bakit ganun ganun na lang Hindi man lang napansin na ikaw ay nahihirapan Nasira na ang ilang bahagi ng iyong katawan Hindi man lang naayos nang maagapan Ginulat mo kami sa iyong pagbigay Ang tahimik at maayos na ikaw at biglang nag-ingay Binuhos ang di masukatang luha Kami tuloy ay di mag kanda ugaga Takbo dito, takbo doon ang eksena Basa na ang matatalinong batang aking nakikita Mga tao'y nabigla sa iyong pag bagsak Kaya napilitan kaming ilipat ang iyong mga alaga Nalungkot ang marami sa pangyayari Kahit ayaw namin na ikaw ay iwanan Ngunit para ikaw ay muling mapaganda Kami ay sa iba muna mapupunta Sa ating muling pagkikita Alam kong mas magiging handa ka na Yayapin muli iyong mga alaga Sa mas maayos at maaliwalas na pangangalaga

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It’s more than what you “SEE”

White uniform, cap and a nameplate. Three things you see us wear daily as we start to face our busy long day. Yup, busy long day, even if we only work 8 hours per day and only get paid of that 8 hours, we worked more than what we have been paid off. Nope, we’re not complaining but it’s the truth, it’s our reality.

THE CHALLENGE February, I started. So excited with my once again wearing white uniform. Met new people and friends even some were not, actually. But most of them were friendly, atleast. First 3 months yey, I feel like I’m ready for what I decided to enter in. I am ready to be called who I really am. When I got hired I told myself, here I am, this is it, something I can be proud of. I thought, it was just like that. So easy, I can do it, I am ready. But hey, the excitement faded away on my first day, as a staff. That day when I had to write my name and put my signature on the patient’s chart. Yes, that signature does not only shouts my profession, but also says hey yeah gurl, you are responsible for whatever may happen there. Wooooot!

It’s true, in our profession there is no room for mistakes. And saying SORRY (which I murdered many times🤣) is not acceptable for some whom you committed wrong; but really it depends on the situation. When you got someone killed, then yes your sorry will be the end of your career. Come to think of it, lives is what we cater, that’s what lies on our hands everyday. So it takes a lot to be on our shoes. A lot of courage to take daily responsibility of the lives of the people we do take care of in the area. One wrong step and you’ll bring harm to the person you are responsible of. Everyday, I was afraid that I get someone hurt of my poor skills and the little knowledge I carry. For no matter how hard I study, I can’t seem to find all the needed knowledge to ensure the safety of my clients. But thank God I harmed no one in the entire course of me being a staff. Then I concluded, that it is not just the knowledge we gained from school nor the skills we learned from our seniors, but it is the sincerity in us to carry our duties with honesty and humility that will make us safe and our clients. Yes, honest enough to admit that we lack knowledge of something and humble enough to seek help from the people more experienced than us. And I was blessed, truly blessed to have been guided by people who were willing to share the skills and wisdom they have gained in the battle field of their career. Techniques, that’s what most of them call it. Techniques that makes your work look a lot easier than it actually is.

People, you have no idea how sacrificing to be in the path we have chosen. Relatives complain so much why nurses were too slow to attend their needs. We’re human beings not superheroes and we don’t get things done in just a blink of an eye. We get things done in prioritization, with the wisdom we have been given and the skills we have been trusted to. So please be good to us, as we are compassionate to you. Be patient to us as well as we are to you. We do understand your worries but do understand us too, that it is not only YOU who needs us, it is everyone confined in the area. As we give you our time to attend your needs, allow us to do it, to others as well.

SECRET PRAYERS As a christian, I was taught on how to release healing to sick individuals (in the supernatural aspect). And I have seen people who got healed. Yup, witnessed it with my eyes wide opened and I had conversations with them and heard their testimonies. But. Yes there is this BUT in the area of my workplace. We don’t do that, unless I got the boldness then I will be able to release the Kingdom of Heaven which brings this healing I was taught of. Well, I tried once thrice in the secret of all the secretest way possible. I had prayed over someone and released heaven to that family. Yey, finally I did once. And they asked me what church I was attending. When I mentioned the name of my church they feel like we’re family. They know the church and our senior pastor and told me they attended a conference at Cuneta Astrodome hosted by our church and I was an usher then. So, that explains why they look familiar to me, maybe I have seen them there. It brought my heart so much joy to know that atleast I had once the boldness to give away the love and power of healing that Jesus is readily made availble for everyone who receives. Asking of what happened to that family? I don’t know. I got pulled out to that area where they got admitted and had no more time to be back and check on them. The only thing I knew was, they were happy and got discharged. Yup, I am sure, saw the mother at the lobby on the day before they went home.

Another healing happened at room 07. Shhhhh…won’t give you more details. Just room 07. We provide primary care, so this woman at room 07 was my patient, just my patient. She was crying due to pain. So what I did was, referred it to the ROD (resident doctor on duty). And they ordered hot compress. Yey! Absolutely, with the magic of hot water bag, this pain will go away in an instant. Well, it might work or maybe not. So since she was already crying, I placed my hand on her “assessing” where the pain is (but I was actually praying, declaring healing, rebuking pain and commanding it to depart in Jesus name). When I was done. After few seconds I asked, “how are you ma’am? Is the pain still there?” She answered, “not anymore, it’s a bit painful but now tolerable”. And she looked at me with so much relief in her eyes. Yaaay! In my head I was shouting “Hallelujahs” haha! That was the power of healing from Jesus, our Healer. We can’t provide healing but we can be vessels.

NO FOR NOW Yes, it is always more than what you see. Things like that happened too, I never mentioned that to someone else than myself. But there’s another side of the story. Come on, as you know nothing can be done so easily, it takes a lot of hard work and perseverance to remain on the shoes we chose to wear. Everyday, our health is in great danger. Hahaha honestly, it really is. Don’t you think a patient’s illness can’t be that contagious? We wear protective equipments but sometimes it sabotage us too. But we love YOU, our dear clients (or should I say, we love our job), so even if there is a great probability that we get (the illness) what you guys have, we can’t say no and happily embrace you in our care instead, knowingly that our health can be compromised. For me, I don’t wanna quit, I love you and I love my job but I love my body too. So when I had found the courage to say NO, I did it without regret. The NO for NOW.

For me, my health is my wealth. And I am a dreamer. So, how could I see them get fulfilled if my health get compromised? I made a decision, something that made me value what I have even more. The decision that changed me, somehow. But I am happy. The work was tiring (no not my clients, for I value them and I love taking care of them, but it is the work itself). My body got tired and my emotions got affected. Everyday, as I feel the pain in my chest or whenever I had shortness of breath or my vertigo attacks, emotionally, I get weak. No, they didn’t notice for I always choose to smile and be bubbly. But inside, I was crying, “oh God, no”, I feel like giving up though I don’t have really the intentions to. I tried as long as I can, to be strong and say, “this I can do, this I want to do, this surely I will get through”. But. No. I don’t know. Every morning I worry too much for my health. A lot of things about my health and more overwhelms my head. And that day when I decided to surrender, my emotion wasn’t the only thing affected then, the spiritual aspect of my life was hit too. That, I can longer stand; it is my strength, it is my foundation, it is my life and it is the part of me that I don’t want to crumble. When that side of me dies, I will get paralyze. And I don’t want that to happen. That part of me is what I value so much, it is not being religious that I don’t want my spirituality to crumble. It is not just my beliefs, but it is my relationship to the ONE who loves me the most. The one who sees me in the darkness, and hears my every whisper. Someone who wiped every tear and filled my heart with joy. That, I cannot stand to lose. I can still fight and go on even if I was physically ill and my emotions got weakened but if my spiritual life (the only reason I can win a battle) begin to crumble, that, I cannot stand to watch. So I decided to quit my job to protect the other part of me: my health and my wealth.

REST IN THE PRESENCE Many of us also went through this season of their life. A time to choose which to give up and which to keep. I wanted to rest the reason why I quit. REST is the word I used when I said goodbye. For I wanted my body to be healthier. But as days passes by I realised it wasn’t a rest for my body that I needed. It was a REST IN THE PRESENCE. Resting in His presence. That’s exactly what I needed.

Three days after I rendered my resignation, I had flu. And 2 weeks after, I suffered from severe chest pains that radiates to my shoulder, side and back. I had chills, maybe due to pain (pain scale of 12/10) headaches, nausea and vomiting and fever. I even had blood tinge sputum several times. I couldn’t sleep and pain medications gave no relief. I was rushed to the emergency room, for the pain worsens everytime I breathe and move. I don’t know what was wrong in my body. I was given pain reliever injection (that I expected would be effective, I used to administer that to my post-op clients at the hospital, so I know its effect). Pain went down to 7/10. So I thought, I can get a good sleep then, but after two hours here comes the pain again, 12/10. I can not move from side to side so I had to sleep in high fowler’s position. First time in my life that I had this kind of pain and slept that way. I thought that would be the end of me. When I consulted a pulmonologist after three days, the chest x-ray result revealed that I had pneumonia and pleural effusion. But praise God, she wanted to treat me at home so she just prescribed oral medications and some laboratory tests. Her diagnosis was pneumonia versus tubercolusis. Oh my God. As I recalled, the last patients I handled had pneumonia and the other one had tubercolusis. But I wore masks, an N95 mask so how could I acquire it then? Well, I was exposed, really; dirty cases were the ones I usually handle. In the station I was assigned, we’re so lucky to have in the area the post ICU patients, who were positive in klebsiella, pseudomonas, candidiasis and so on. They were our CONTACT precaution clients. But we’re happy to serve them even if when the protective equipments we wear can sabotage us. That’s our job, you clients are irresistible; we don’t have a choice. Going back, oral pain medications wasn’t able to cease the pain not until I started the oral antibiotics. I went on a 7 days treatment and waited for the laboratory tests results. Went back to my doctor for a follow up. And thank God, my repeat chest x-ray revealed a more clearer lung now. And though I was cleared from tubercolusis, she was surprised to know that the sputum gram-stain, culture and sentivity result revealed that I had acquired many microorganisms and was wondering where did I get those. I just smiled and said, “got it maybe from my previous work doc”.

As I had mentioned, REST was the reason I used to resign. Because of all what I was suffering from that time, I really had to rest. I feel like my health is deteriorating and I need some time to let it heal and regain strength. But as days passed by, I started to realised that it was not my body that needs rest. It was my spiritual life. I need to rest in the presence of God. My busyness at work had allowed my spirit to dry up. If my physical body weakened and got ill, my spirit became malnourished, I forgot to feed my soul on Sundays (or even if I wanted to, I can’t for my day off always fall on a weekday or Saturday). I fed my body with all the food I can buy but was not able to feed my soul because I was too busy at work. It was my fault, I can’t put all the blame with my schedule and tired body that I can’t even pray and read my bible. It was me, it was me who forgot to rest in the presence. I forgot, that my spiritual life is the most important. That I can stand against all odds when I am spiritually healthy. When my spirit started to feel weak, my body deteriorates. Something I only realized 3 weeks after I resigned from work. If I’m going to look back why I suffered from all of these: the chest pains, vertigo attacks, shortness of breath and even headaches and nausea and vomiting, I think I know why. Because I had forgotten to bend my knees in prayer and ask for a protection from Daddy God. When I was feeling all these almost everyday, I decided that I really had to let go of this job. I love you (job) but I love me. I feared of losing my health, I was afraid I’ll be in great trouble if I still keep my job. So I chose to let go. And chose to REST IN THE PRESENCE of God instead.

SWEET SEASON OF PEACE When I got sick and was confined on bed for few days, uncapable to do anything, I was able to find enough time to soak in the presence of God and read the bible. Now that I have all the time in the world I no longer have excuses not to spend time in my prayer closet. And revelations start to come, his love is pouring out like a rain and his joy is flowing like a fountain. In this season of rest all my worries were gone and I totally have found peace. I’m not saying that I didn’t have peace of mind when I was working. But this peace I’m having now is something different. All the pain I was experiencing then left me when I began to sit with God. This may sound corny and exaggerated to many but it’s the truth. I don’t know about you, but the God I’m talking here is alive and capable of releasing wondrous things to those who believed.

Lesson Learned: No matter how busy life gets; we must always find time to sit with God. For no matter how good we think we are; no matter how well we think we are; life will always begin and end with God. So in whatever we do, include God.

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DREAM ON YOUR PURPOSE We exist because we do have life. But have we known the reasons why we are still alive despite of all the struggles that we go through life every day? Or have we asked ourselves already why we wanted to live or why we do something? Have we checked our hearts to see if the steps we take daily will lead us to our purpose or will only satisfy the heart of a dreamer? Does these two words, purpose and dream has a difference? If yes, which one will take us deeper and make us stronger and which one will make us walk in confidence and pride? Well, to answer that, we've got to know who we really are first in order to determine which one we wanted to pursue: our dream or our purpose. Learned more of myself when I decided to get involved into a church ministry. That year, made me realize my passion, but of course, getting to know more of myself didn't come in just one night but weeks to months and years. It wasn't easy to discover YOU. It took me years to explore and to really see the "Angel" that God wanted me to be. In finding the things that I was really called to do, didn't come easily because I had to do a lot of sacrifices. Yes, I had to go through that phase unaware. Well, it looks like it was my choices, it was like, because this is what I wanted that's why I am here and doing these things. But if I'm going to look back those that happened, it wasn't just because I chose it but it was God who led me to go through those phases. I went through little sacrifices which I do not know or I simply just ignored because it was what I chose to do and I was happy. First, my career goals were sacrificed, I had to leave that path for the mean time to get molded for what God has been wanting me to see do or to let me see what is really inside my heart. Second, family was set aside and was placed in a corner (less prioritized) because I was so focused on the process of training to become the better me that God wants (that was what I believed during that time). And didn't know that those time of me leading a cell group and talking to young people, get along with them well despite of the age gap I had with them, but still was able to jump into their childish conversations and give advices when needing some serious talks will lead me to a new season. Third, "time for self" was forgotten, I had to learn to put others first before myself. When there are people who depend on you, whether you like it or not, their concern is your priority. The feeling was like you are being a mother taking care of your kids. You can forget everything about your needs but not your kids. You must learn to love selflessly. You know, their matters first before yours. It wasn't easy, it was tiring to be honest but I enjoyed it, everything was worth it. I did not waste anything, it was very fulfilling and it allowed me to grow deeper in every aspects of life. But life is unpredictable as they say. You don't have control on what circumstances that comes across your path. No idea, what's gonna be. And life can strike you many times, but in my belief, it is not about how you responded that matters, it is what you become after the storm that really counts. When I was younger, I didn't give much time on thinking about how my life would be if I gets old or how to live life when everyone is gone. Maybe because I was young, and all I can think of is enjoy life because everything was provided, mom was with me, dad's supporting hand was there. All I have to do is eat, study hard and live. Life was so good to me, it made me feel so special and loved; treasured and blessed. So I grew up worrying nothing because everything I needed was set right before me, it was all because my parents worked hard for us and God was so good to us. But as we grow older and mature, leave the teenage life and starting to embrace this adulthood reality. We begin to have a lot of realizations. We see all the lessons that we missed that life was trying to teach us. That if only we listened, if only we cared, life would have been different, better and easier. Like many others, I do also have dreams. Dreams that sometimes so impossible to see come into reality. But with God's help I had seen it's possible, and some of those dreams were fulfilled, through hard work and prayers. Though I had dreams that got fulfilled, I have no license to brag about it, because I know that everything, every single thing I was able to do wasn't all about me, not because I was good or I did great but it was all because of Him. He who guided me, saved me, blessed me and favored me. The one who stood by me until the very last second of the fulfillment of those dreams. I wanna be proud, I wanna say I'm good but I know, I am aware, I wasn't. I don't want to go far from the truth that everything I have is not mine, but His (God). I have nothing, I have no one if he failed to come. I don't want to embrace the feeling of being good and independent because I might give in to the arrogance that this world has that makes people walk in prideful hearts. Yes, been seeing dreams little by little come into reality. But there is this question in mind that keeps on coming along for some time already and that is what to do with the life that He has given you. How to spend it in the world of the dreamers. Will I go against it and pursue my purpose, and just do what my creator wants for me to accomplish before leaving earth? Or can I live a life of just living with my dreams and forget what I am here for, what I was called to do or why I was born? Or will it be possible to do both without compromising the other? That's what I want to find out. That's something I need to answer myself. I'm not the person without its lowest of lows moments. I've had that time too like many of you. And I never thought that I would be at that point (so discouraged, so weakened, so tired of all that was happening) of my walk. I was so eager to serve the Lord, everything was all about God, I even came to a point where I am seriously ready to give up everything. But who would have thought that the strength I was portraying then will come to its end. Who would have thought that the girl who have said yes to God before with all her heart, that she would love to dedicate her entire life serving God and his people would be put into a battle where she needs to be brave enough in order to fight. Who would imagine everything will change in just a moment of test. That's what really happened. A test of time and faith. Waiting is such a long process and need so much patience otherwise you'll quit. You'll just drop everything and leave where you're presently at and go to any place that would make you feel so better. And start to seek a comfort zone, a resting palace. I tried. Very hard. To pursue my purpose. The purpose I'm believing I was created for. But time is my enemy. I know, I have the passion burning inside and now ready to go to where He is leading me. But I will say it again, TIME is my enemy. Time is challenging me. Time made me feel needy, aging and wasted. Time had told me, I need a career to survive, and I'm not getting any younger that I have to waste time playing around being so churchy. So I shifted the churchy life to a worldly path. I stopped consulting the advice of the Supreme and only listened to what TIME is telling me. And that moment when I started to be in agreement with TIME, I lost my spiritual appetite and all opportunities serving God. Time became my believable friend. It pulled me away from the One who must be leading me into my destiny. I know my calling but denying it. I know what I should be doing but neglected it. Time led me closer to my dream but made me be parted with my true calling. I chose to leave the churchy lifestyle and began to walk into the path of the dreamers. The world of busy people chasing their own dreams. People are working day and night just to make every dream happen. They know what success and failure looks and feels like. People of this kind of world are competitive, goal-oriented and time conscious. All eyes are focus on themselves, on how to become the better them. And if you happen to be walking on this path without true courage and perseverance, well, I think you won't be able to survive. In this type of world, there's no room for mistakes and I don't see space for weak individuals. You've got to be prepared for battles. A battle where you have to be not just physically fit but must be mentally and emotionally well. You'll meet people who are not that dependable, meaning people who will be against you because (you're kind of smarter) than they are and even if you're not, they just feel insecure of your presence around them. And they don't seem useful to you for they are not on your side, they are your competitors. To them, you are an enemy who can steal their throne of success at any second. They may look nice and be friendly to you but later on you'll see their true face. A face that you'll eventually regret you've met. Good thing, there's still hope in this kind of world. Yes, a very low percentage of hope to find one who'll be your encourager, soul-lifter, trusted buddy and really really true friend. But sadly, we seldom find such kind of colleague in a dog-eat-dog world. I had worked and been there kind of world, were short time though (for two I considered such like world) but still I can say, yes, it's true. I have seen people acted such ways. Even if they don't say it, you'll feel it the way they treated you. The look in their eyes; the gestures of their hands, when you notice them. It's not the words they utter that reveals who they really are. It's their body that speak so much of them. As they always say, actions speak louder than words. They may treat you nice, speaks to you gently and appears to really care but is able to say something not pleasing behind your back. Angels in front of you but devils when behind you, ready to devour you. And ahhhh, because it's a dog-eat-dog world. Appearing as a competitor to a colleague may be normal, usual. So, rolling eyeballs, pouty lips and strange smiles from colleagues when you did great with your job are totally fine. And even if you don't get a word that may lift your working spirit high when you feel discouraged is not an issue. But if it's the BOSS. Well, it's gonna be a different story. For what should be bosses expected to be? I had met and worked with two types of different bosses. The typical boss and the extraordinary one. Why call him that? Extraordinary? Because he believes in an extraordinary God. In short, a christian. The first boss, if I may describe was so understanding. She appeared to me as one who cares so much of your future. Yes, for she bothered to asked me, what will I do next, what are my plans for my future. She was kind of "Yes, will be here to support you whatever your plans are" attitude. She had that, someone who was for me, an encourager, molder, and really looks like a supportive mother. She treated me well, even if I already said, I had to leave for a better career option. Her attitude towards me didn't change, not a single inch of smile. It was the same as with the very first time I met her. And yes, it was nice working with her. But things aren't always like that. For there are bosses who can't seem to stay nice and keep the kindness in their heart. The boss who forgets who they call themselves when things gets tough and when situations are rough. Whose judgement have been clouded by the bitter situations they are in. Bosses who don't want to understand your side and only have concerns on their matter, to whom all your hard works were nothing but a scratch to be thrown. And what's more disappointing? They call themselves Christians and yet don't know how to bless and honor employees. Instead, they cursed their future just because their part had been compromised. They put other people down just to lift their own state. And can't accept the fact that life is a constant changing reality and at times situations are not to favor them. Yes, employees might have done something wrong but it doesn't give the bosses a single reason to curse someone else's future, especially they considered themselves part of the Body of Christ. Walking in the direction God didn't bring you to may give you a little bit of struggle. And one point to remember in anything we do, whether in business or in life: "Passion is not enough." Yes, what I had observed, life is not just about passion. For the seven letter word is not enough to make things work. That it isn't everything. I was on high clouds, so eager to change lives with the belief that passion is burning inside of me. But later found out that it isn't enough to achieve the things you've dreamt of. When I was engaged in working with teens, and started to share the knowledge I've learned about the Lord, the thought of me having a passion in reaching out the young generation began. I opened my heart to possibilities that I am called for this thing. I will go, try to change the world, make a difference with that little passion I carry. Teach the youth, bring the gospel, love the needy and embrace the lost ones. But hey, it wasn't easy. Cried out, nights and nights and nights to the Lord. Daily seeking for God's mighty revelations. Tried hard enough to make connections (people) believing they would be of great help. But things didn't work the way I expected it to be. Which made me feel so discouraged. And pushed to the direction I was not supposed to walk into. But why was I pushed through the wrong direction? Why does that direction called wrong if all that happened can also be considered good? Maybe because I just listened to time and myself and not to God anymore; I had followed my own desire where I think is good for me and not of God anymore. Remember? I had stopped consulting the advice of the Supreme. I shut my ears to his voice and was led to where it wasn't God intended me to be. That place where I was led to, where I successfully made it through, is not really where I was called. It may be good, it may have benefited me and would have given a great future too but it was not God's purpose for my life. Stepping in to the world where you're not called to and wasn't made for may not help to reach your highest potential. If we want success to crown our head, then we must learn to walk into where God has called us to, a place where he intended us to be. And start to dream, dream our purpose. The choice is ours, whether we live to our purpose or walk to our desire. I remember, year 2012, our female pastor in a church where I was a member that year, approached me after the evening service and asked, were you in the middle of making decisions? Because you appeared in my vision twice, thrice today and God is telling me that whatever way you'll choose, he sees you. She confirmed what God had allowed me see in my vision during my devotion. And those words, gave me assurance that wherever I will go, whatever I'll do, I won't be departed from God's eyes. I know what were those ways God revealed to our lady pastor. It is my purpose and my dream. The purpose God created me for and the dream I was working on to achieve for my family, especially, for my father. It is my Isaac and my Ishmael. I was even asked that same year through a guest pastor to give up my Isaac and not my Ishmael. But before these things happened, I went through a financial struggle. Yes, as in struggle. It even came to a point where I no longer had enough money for food and transportations. Believe me or not, I had my purse emptied, not even a single centavo was left in it. Which made me skipped lunch on Sundays and went on a 30 minutes walk or more just to go and attend the service because I was in a ministry and would still love to serve even when my stomach was hungry and my feet will be tired walking. Nobody noticed, I was a good pretender. Pretending to have even I had none. But you know what's amazing? God's promise came to me through another pastor that never will my cup go dry. My cup will overflow and lack no more. That I don't have to fear giving up my Isaac for there's always a lamb for an offering. And yes, since the night those words were released until today, I never experienced the same again, and not again my purse had become empty. My God was able to keep His promise. It was because He is faithful to his words. God was faithful and he'll always be. He was good and he really is up to this day. But giving up to God what's important to us will never be easy. But will surely be worth it. The desire to achieve a dream will always be high and will never be wrong for a heart that would do anything for their family. Yet, pursuing what God has been wanting us see do is what always pleases God. Thus, I learnt that we don't go full grown or bloom and sprinkle simply because we neglect the call of purpose and pursues what we believe is best for us and for our family. For God is more concerned of his purpose in our life than He is about our plans. God kept his promise that I will never run out of anything again because he wants me to do what pleases him and what I am supposedly be doing. But I was challenged by time. I was pulled away by my desire to accomplish something I can be proud of for myself. I somewhat temporarily rejected my purpose and pursued my dreams. But God will never ever get tired of pulling us back to where we should be and fixing messy things in us. He is so patient in directing us to the place he planned for us to live in, to live by and live for. Thus, for us to enjoy much of him and avoid struggles and pain, when we know our purpose, we must learn to dream it. Dream our purpose, the purpose why God has breathe life in us. Because when we do that, it will definitely bring us unspeakable joy and peace. For God's undying love will always prove to us that he is faithful no matter what time says.

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GOD’S LOVE NEVER FAILS

“GOD’S LOVE NEVER FAILS”. The words that first came to mind when my cousin called to inform me that I passed the LET (Licensure Exam for Teachers). God is so faithful and so good, something that I can’t deny. He is my Daddy God, and he never left my side since I accepted him as Lord and Savior. He always makes me feel so loved, blessed and favored. If not because of Him, I wasn’t able to pass the LET (and get a good rating, which for me I know I won’t be able to achieve if not because of the wisdom and guidance he poured out on me during the exam) and will not be part of MindGym Family.

My friends enrolled in MET Review Center and I was the only one who chose to go to MindGym (except for one who enrolled the online review). Though I heard that MET has a very good reputation in helping individuals to successfully pass the LET, I took the risk (for a change) of going to this not so known yet review center unlike many others but has already started to make its name gets famous by producing topnotchers every LET. And I did not make a wrong decision. Choosing MindGym over MET is the best thing I made as my first step in becoming a Professional Teacher. It was because everything was perfect for me, the coaches who are so inspiring with all the passion they kept on showing us every time they stood there in front of us. The materials, the venue (on how they set the mood with such relaxing music before our morning sessions) and even the weather. MindGym welcomed us not just individuals who need their knowledge and guidance but as a FAMILY who shared their laughters with us and their wonderful stories on how they succeeded in this field and how they made it to the top. They were good people, full of passion and with pure intentions. They were not just doing business but wanting more and that is to be a vessel of knowledge and wisdom, be part of the story of success of every single soul who wanted to make a difference.

Yes, MindGym is more than just a review center, it is a place of laughter, fun and learning. They always makes you feel, “YOU BELONG”, you are a part of this family. Their people are individuals you can always count on to. They won’t leave you behind when situations gets tough, they are always there ready to support and listen to your concerns. They were God’s blessing for me, for I know, it was God who led me to these people, they were the ones God used to help me become a Licensed Professional Teacher. And I will be forever grateful to God and to them.

There was this quote I read that says, “Touch one life today and make an impact to their whole generation.” To MindGym Team, with such passionate hearts, they were not just touching one life, they were touching thousands of lives through the teachers they produced every year. I am very happy and blessed that God led me to this place and now can call it “FAMILY”.

Thank you so much MINDGYM! You are God’s blessing!

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DEAD MAN WALKING

March 10, 2014, I was spending time in prayer then suddenly God showed me a vision of a dead man being pulled out from the well. I was wondering what that vision meant and so I asked the Lord. The explanation I got was this, “there are people that are walking dead. They are walking in the presence of God, in the power of the Holy Spirit, but dead they are. They are not alive, their self-ambition had killed them, they have been blinded.” So again I asked God what will I do with those kind of people (of course he might want me to do something why he showed me that), but he said, “there’s nothing you can do.”

The thing that “there’s nothing I can do” with these kind of people saddens me a lot. Why? Because they were the people who know their God well. They preached the gospel, they baptised believers, healed the sick, casted out demons, uttered powerful prayers, devoted themselves to the ministry and work of God yet God had called them dead. They even walked into the supernaturals, done several miracles infront of massive believers. They are spiritually gifted yet in God’s eyes they are considered dead. Because they are self-ambitious, they work not for God but for themselves. They don’t seek to bring God glory but to crown their heads with praises of what they do. Workers who work not for God’s Kingdom but to build their own kingdom here on earth. Servants who filled their pockets with the riches of the world and forgot to fill their hearts with the riches of God’s word. Their ambitions corrupted their hearts and pure desires to serve the Lord. They fail to remember that God is their master and not their own self. They made the church a business, programmed the worship services to show off their talents. Their audience is no longer God but people. They seek attention and no longer devotion. They have shifted from being faithful and fruitful to just being happy and clappy and blessed. Their eyes have been blinded, ears became deaf and hearts became proud. Things that made them have clappy fans but pulled them away from the real presence of God.

These are the kind of people who serves the Lord on the outside but feed their own self desires on the inside. I think these are the people in the bible God answered to, “I don’t know you”. Though they claimed to have had prophesied, healed the sick, casted out demons and demonstrated different miracles in his name, “God told them, he don’t know them.” God didn’t deny them, it’s because God knows them well. They didn’t do those things they did for God but to satisfy their own self desire. They gained fame from this world but not the crown of life. Servants who seems to be on fire but they walk not on God’s fire instead they walk on self-desire. They are the “dead man walking”. Please don’t be one. Be alive, be really on fire for God. Have your heart check everyday for a healthy christian living.

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IT’S MORE THAN WHAT YOU THINK

We often hear people say what makes one a true leader. Is there a qualification or requirement in order for someone to be called a “LEADER”? Is leadership belongs only to those who are in position or is an ordinary person can lead a team or group of his own? These are the questions I usually get to hear from people around and asked these to myself too. And by reading articles and books about leadership I found out that leadership is more than just a title. It starts there but that alone can’t make you effective. People in leadership should act beyond their titles to make their leadership work and transformational.

In John Maxwell’s book of the Five Levels of Leadership he mentioned that true leadership isn’t a matter of having a certain job or title. In fact, being chosen for a position is only the first of the five levels every effective leader achieves. To become more than “the boss" people follow only because they are required to, you have to master the ability to invest in and inspire people. To grow further in your role, you must achieve results and build a team that produces. You need to help people develop their skills to become leaders in their own right. And if you have the skill and dedication, you can reach the pinnacle of leadership. For Maxwell, position is the starting place for every level of leadership. It is the bottom floor and the foundation upon which leadership must be built and real influence must be developed upon that foundation.

Position maybe at the bottom level of the 5 Levels of Leadership but there are things too to celebrate: 1. A leadership position is usually given to people because they have leadership potential. Which means that someone believes in you and you now have opportunities to express opinions and make decisions. 2. A leadership position means authority is recognized. When individual receives position, some authority and power usually comes with them. But you must learn to use the authority you are given wisely, to advance the team and help the people you lead. Do that and your people will begin to give even greater authority. When that happens, you gain leadership, not just a position. 3. A leadership position is an invitation to grow as a leader. There should always be a relationship between receiving a leadership position and fulfilling the requirements demanded by it. One of the requirement is personal growth. To whomever much is given, much shall be required. 4. A leadership position allows potential leaders to shape and define their leadership. Invitation to lead people is an invitation to make a difference.

As there are things to celebrate with leadership position, since it is the lowest there are also great number of negatives: 1. Having a leadership position is often misleading. Once you have a position or title, people will identify you with it. However, positions and titles are very misleading. A position always promises more than it can deliver. 2. Leaders who rely on position to lead often devalue people. As a result, departments, teams or organizations that have positional leaders suffer terrible morale. 3. Positional leaders feed on politics. When leaders value position over the ability to influence others, the environment of the organization usually becomes very political. Positional leaders focus on control instead of contribution. 4. Positional leaders place rights over responsibilities. Inevitably, positional leaders expect their people to serve them, rather than looking for ways to serve their people. This does nothing to promote teamwork or create a positive working environment. 5. Positional leadership is often lonely. If you’re atop the hill alone, you may get lonely. If you have others alongside you, it’s hard to be that way.

John Maxwell therefore concluded that leadership is influence and a leader must learn too to increase his influence through relationship. And for me it is more than just a title to protect, it is not all about you, it is about your people and your relationship to them. Good leadership changes people. It forms teams. It builds organizations. It impacts communities. It has the potential to impact the world. Thus, never forget that position is only the starting point.

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SONFLOWER

One sunday morning in the month of October 2012. I was having my breakfast meal with Jesus as I always do before going to church, God showed me a vision. The morning message was not meant for me but for two people God loved so dearly. The first picture he showed me was a green field, and there was a beautiful sunflower under the protection of a big tree. In a 2-3 meters away was a thorn and its target was the sunflower. The Holy Spirit explained it to me, the beautiful sunflower represent a woman, an anointed woman of God, who keeps on blooming because of God’s presence in her life and what God is doing in her ministry. The thorn represents by someone in the same field that may hurt the sunflower any minute. God’s message was, the sunflower needs to be separated with the closest person to her in the ministry or else she will be the target of the thorn.

Then the second vision came which will be the result if they won’t go in separate ways. There was a bright cloud giving enough light to the sunflower which causes her to bloom even more. But then dark clouds came and blocked the light and the sunflower will not bloom the way it should be. The message goes like this, the two need to separate, or the sunflower will not bloom and will not shine. He had told me, “don’t let them go dismay.”

I received the message and a bit surprised and asked why me? I don’t know what to do, I mean if I’m going to tell her, will she believe me? So, instead of going to her to deliver what I heard and seen in a vision, I remained silent and prayed for her.

She is God’s anointed, filled with God’s wisdom and her heart is full of God. That message was not the first and the only message I received from God. But I was so grateful to the Lord because he gave me the courage to release the other visions and messages I received from him, which I believe helped her with so much encouragement according to her responses in my messages.

What I learned about this? When God gives you message for another person, never hesitate to release it to them, you wouldn’t know how you may touch their lives, as long as you are sure it is from God. But still, it is hard, especially if the person is someone you look up to, older than you are and you consider more mature, more passionate and more dedicated to the ministry of God.

But wait, it didn’t end there because there was something I realized about that vision, God has another message that wanted me to see. It was not just an ordinary sun flower. It was not only spelled as sunflower but it can also mean as SONFLOWER. Yes, the woman was Jesus’ flower. She was that so dear to God’s heart. God loved her so dearly that he doesn’t want her to go dismay. And I believed, that the SONFLOWER revelation is not just only for her, it is for everyone. That made me love sunflower since then. Because it reminds me that I am a sonflower (Jesus’ flower), that I am loved by him, saved by him and blessed by him. I belong to him and he belong to me. And to you who is reading this, goes the same. You are a SONFLOWER! A beautiful SUNFLOWER in the eyes of your lover.

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THE BRAVEST MAN EVER LIVED

Has anyone told you already or even asked you of who do you think is the BRAVEST MAN ever lived? Well for me, that bravery thing is one of the best revelations I received in my prayer closet, and that is knowing Jesus as the BRAVEST MAN ever lived. You might say that, yes, of course he is God, so he’s got nothing to fear about not even death. But have you also forgotten that the time when he lived here on earth, he was a 100% man? Yes, it’s true, he was 100% God and 100% man at the same time. So if he was a 100% man then, he felt the exact same way we feel, getting tired, hurt, can be tempted, and as humans fear isn’t an excuse. He had a body, a body like us, he was a man. Thus, he can be tempted and can feel fear. But how did he not fall into the deceptions of the enemy? Because he knows he has a father, a daddy, he has a God. Not only that he has God but he knows his God well. That’s what makes us live a way differently the way he lived before. Jesus came not only to save us but to show us how “to live a life of knowing God”.

If we go back to the bible, where stories of Jesus’ life were recorded well, we see that he knows the word, he prays, he worship God, he laid his hand to the sick and they got healed, delivered the captives, casted out demons, raised the dead and faced death. He walk on earth not fearing anything, no worries came into his heart, nothing distracted his mind. He was a man of faith and of wisdom. He lived this way not because he is God but because he knows his God well, he knows his father well. And we can live the same way if we know the God we serve too. The reason why sometimes our hearts are filled with so much worries and our minds getting distracted by the unexpected situations is simply because we only know God by what we read or hear from others. We shouldn’t be living a life with God only of what others had told us, we must live a life of true encounters with God, we must experience God, we must hear God ourselves that we may get to know him well. We must taste God personally, that we may know him personally. So that when deceptions comes our way and fear may try to attack us, nothing won’t defeat us because we know God better than the enemy does. A God who never fails, a God who is faithful and a God who fights for our battles. These are the things that the enemy cannot do, the reason why to him belongs defeat and to us belongs the VICTORY. Horray!

Not until we had tasted God’s presence we wouldn’t know what God can do and who really God is in us. We cannot live only by believing that the cake is sweet if we haven’t tasted it yet. We have to taste it that we may exactly know how sweet is the cake and what the cake can do to us. In the same way with the blood of Jesus, we cannot be cleansed with our sins only by believing that He died and shed his blood for us. We have to take it and apply it to our dirty bodies. The blood is just like soap as Reinhard Bonnke says, no matter how we know the soap can clean our dirty bodies if we don’t take it and apply it, we cannot be cleansed. What does it mean? Believing only that Jesus died for us and he is the only savior isn’t enough, we have to take him in, inside our hearts, in our lives, apply his words, let him work in us that we may be cleansed from all of our unrighteousness. Knowing him as the bravest man ever lived won’t do us any good, if we couldn’t grasp the idea that in order for us to really live like him and walk fearlessly into this world we have to follow his example, apply it in our lives, remember he did not only come to save us but “to show us how to live a life of knowing God.” Christianity is not just about salvation it also about living the same way as Jesus lived.

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THE MARKS OF A TRUE LEADER

Many times I was asked who is the leader I admire the most by different people in different places. But my answer will remain the same: JESUS. His life for me is the best example that caught my attention and changed my life, I am so much amazed of his ways leading his people. He demonstrated love and care to everyone and exercised his power and authority with humility. He has the best teachings ever told and a book that was never outdated nor expires. He set the best example of a teacher-leader who walked the talked. This kind of leadership is what makes people get transformed. Followers look at leaders, who walk the talk and sets good example. He demonstrated 9 qualities of a good leader in very simple words which his book (BIBLE) called, “The Fruit of the Spirit” found in Galatians 5:22-23. These are the qualities that a leader must bear as fruit as he starts leading and grow. A leader must have love, joy, peace, kindness, goodness, patience, gentleness, faithfulness and self-control in their heart. The characteristics that made Jesus famous in his time. He always carry it with him whenever and wherever he goes and whoever he meets because he believes that every single soul needs it.

Putting aside all the miracles he performed and only looking at him with such characters, I believed that these really made his team transformed lives wherever they go and everyone who hears and sees them believes. They ministered with such love and compassion, spent time with the people, listening and meeting their needs. All they care about is PEOPLE that will be transformed through their little lives.

I want to borrow Mama Heidi Baker’s famous quote (a well-known missionary in Mozambique, Africa), she said that if you want to give birth to the miraculous, you have to “STAY LOW and GO SLOW, and STOP for the ONE infront of you. These words made me think of transformational leadership. It is not easy to transform lives. When I see lives get transformed under someone’s leadership I call that a miracle. Because the leader who inspired and the reason a life is transformed has miraculously learned the law of staying low (means humility regardless of status and age), going slow (means time regardless of busyness) and to stop for the one in front of you who needs you (means valuing your people regardless of your position).

What should be the marks of a true leader? Well, a leader must know the way, shows the way and goes the way. And I coudn’t think of anyone else but Jesus, the most fitted example for leadership.

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FIRST TIME NEVER DIES

If there is this phrase that people who had experienced being in love believed in is the saying, “First Love Never Dies.” Yes, they always believed that the first person they love will remain in their memories, but not anymore in their hearts of course because the space that emptied by the first has been filled by the present and now their one and only love. But for us, who fell in love with God and his words, God had told me to “remember the first time”, we may have different first times in our walk with Jesus but to me He was referring the first time I prepared a simple message to be delivered to a group of about 20 or more people in the community, year 2013.

I was in our province first quarter of 2013 because we were organizing an event for the youth and the leaders of the churches there. Then a friend requested me to share a simple message. Since I wasn’t used to share my thoughts especially God’s word to people older than me, I really felt a bit nervous. I told myself that I want the words that I will speak about will touch people’s hearts, so I spent time to know what God wants for his people to hear. And so blessed I am, he gave me 4 words through the help of the Holy Spirit, speaking inside of me, in my heart so beautifully. He wants to tell them that to Him (God), they are his PRECIOUS ONE, TREASURE, DELIGHT and BELOVED. These are the exact words I got from God the night I was preparing that message.

And yes, yesterday after two years, God reminded me to always remember that first time. The feeling of dependency to him, my hunger and my thirst for the fresh revelations that comes directly from him. That the more I seek, the more that I will find and the more revelations I can get. He wants me to remember those four (4) words, because that’s how he looks at his people. God told me that whenever he looks at us, he sees us as his precious ones, his treasure, delight and his beloved. I know that God did not remind me these words for nothing, he made it clear to me that he wants me to remember how He sees us and tell everyone I get to meet that, that is the way he looks at his lovely creation. We are God’s precious ones, he treasure us and he delight in us, we are his beloved. His love for us all is so overwhelming. He showed me a vision of a man covered with dirt and said, “anak (daughter), you may look ugly and stinky in the eyes of the people around you but to me you always look so delightful and with good fragrance”. These were the words God wants me to remember and tell his people, that no matter how we look, how sinful we were, we are his children and for him we always look beautiful in his eyes.

Never forget the first time, the first time we seek God, the first time we encounter God, the first time we heard him speak to us. Those first time moments with our walk with God must live in us and be our life as we serve God.

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DADDY KNOWS BEST

I always believe in God, in his ways and his perfect timing. He is a God who knows everything about us, what and who we need in our life. We can never run away from his plans, as the book of proverbs says, his plans will always prevail. And one of the things I believed as part of his plans is where I am right now. I never imagined that I will be in the field of teaching one day, I am a registered nurse and never thought of it before. But things begin to change when I started to see myself share my knowledge to others, the youth. Looking at them listen to you and believe in you is such an encouragement to me. It touched my heart, it made me feel loved and appreciated. They impacted my life, they have planted a seed in my heart without knowing it. They made me realized my passion, they awaken my soul, they were the people God used to put me where will I need to be. I didn’t mean to say that where I was the past years was nothing to me now, actually those were the best years of my life. I learned so much from them, they helped me grow in the Lord, learn to pray and read my bible. They were the ones who made me study the bible and bend my knees in prayer. If not because of them, my walk with the Lord is nothing but normal churchy life. At least today, I can say, I have a relationship with my daddy God. We talk, we share, we laugh and listen to each other, it’s a fellowship and not just a mere relationship. I owe it to these young people and of course my very first spiritual leader, Tita Cleo. They were part of my christian family tree.

March 2014, I volunteered as a teacher in our church’s outreach kids ministry. Though, taking units in education is already in my mind but I don’t see it yet as my priority. My hunger those days was a family (in Christ), christian group of friends where I can get encouragements from, spiritual mommy who I can confide to (will lead me closer to God) and a ministry where I know I can serve my Daddy God.

March 14, Sunday, I went to attend a connect group, the schedule offered to me by Tita Dina (connect group coordinator for blue team). I arrived at 9:30 am (I was late) and so I knocked, entered the room, greeted everyone with a smile, introduced myself and was a little bit surprised the moment I realized who the leader was. Her face was so familiar, I didn’t expect that the leader of the group Tita Dina referring to as Miss was that woman. God, I don’t like her, she’s kind of old for me, I was only 26 and she’s in her early 50’s, what I needed was young, energetic, passionate leader who could lead me crazy in love to Jesus. I was disappointed and I want to turn around and say bye it was a mistake. But of course just to give respect and not to be that obvious, I pulled a chair quietly and sat down. And guess what happened to me, before I could sit, God spoke to me so loud and clear, (I was looking at her because she was talking that moment) then God said, “she is my anointed.” Oh no, it was just like God is telling me, who are you to complain for what I know is good for you? I led you to that woman. Don’t judge her by age or appearance, you don’t know her yet, and if you must know, that woman is “MY ANOINTED.” Very much grateful it was no longer the time of the Israelites in the Old Testament or else I have been punished right there, thank God for his grace. But really, it was so shameful for me to act that way, God defended her, she must really have been so great in God’s eyes for him to say that. And, the truth, I must agree with God, she really is a great woman, an anointed servant, a crazy lover of God, a prayer warrior, a mighty soldier, that is who she is before the Lord. And yes, I am so happy God led me to her. She is simply amazing, wonderful loving mommy, caring and very thoughtful. So blessed to have known her. A woman of God. Whatever God will lead us to will surely be the best for us, like what happened to me. The person I don’t like turned to be the person I most loved. She is so beautiful in and out. So much grateful for God. By the way, her name is Miss Cristy Silva, the answer to my prayer, a spiritual mother.

That day was full of God’s wonderful plan for me. I did not only get to have Mommy Cristy but also my sisters, Laurice, Mae, Shaira, and the group of mighty women of God, Ate Pia (a leader with a Big Heart for God), Ate Elaine, Ate Myrtle. They became my friends, not just friends but a family. These are the people God blessed me with. I am really really blessed. Indeed, God led me to that place. Yeah! Hurray for Daddy God.

These people and the church thing experience were all God used to bring me where I am right now, which I believe is part of his wonderful plans in my life. This is just the beginning of a blessed journey he prepared for me, I am looking forward for a lot more for the years to come.

Indeed, Daddy knows BEST!

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I BELIEVE IN MIRACLES

MIRACLES. Do you believe in miracles? Have you heard of someone testifies about it? Many will say, “Yes, I do believe in miracles, it was written in the bible. Jesus performed many in his time.” But we are not talking here the miracles of Jesus’ time. What we are talking here is today’s miracles. Do you believe that miracles are still happening today and not just during the time of Jesus?

There are a lot of stories from here and there about the miracles happening in our time but sad to say many people are still not convinced that these things happen. “A miracle? What? Oh no, that gold dust thing? Gold teeth? Gemstone? Money miracles? That creative miracle thing they call? Angel’s feather? Duh? And even a dead man can be raised back to life? Things like this isn’t true, these people were crazy. They are not JESUS! And they are not even leaders, they just ordinary people.” These are the reactions we usually get when we tell stories about what is happening around us today, when we talk about miraculous things, people won’t believe and won’t show any interest at all. But if we tell them something bad happened like, this girl died, someone was raped, kids were being kidnapped, they will give their full attention and take time to comment and will not stop until they hear the whole story. These are the kind of people we have today, the UNBELIEVING BELIEVERS. They shout, I believe, I believe in Jesus’ name, but deep in their hearts, still doubt that miracles can happen today and not only in the bible.

But….there is another side of the story, thank God, there are also people who believe that miracles can happen today, like, someone got healed and delivered from any bondage from the enemy. They believe in miracles but limited only to those what was recorded in the bible. For example, healing from blindness, paralysis, deafness but not the extreme. They believe that God heals but not the mind blowing. What do I mean mind blowing? These are the acts of God’s miracle that is so hard to explain and answer the questions how and why. When it happens, it blows your mind and will leave you so amazed of the beauty of God’s power. For example, the food miracle (something appeared out of thin air), money miracles (someone paid your bill in the bank or found money in your empty wallet or ATM), gemstone appeared after you prayed and worship God, a feather in your bed early in the morning with your door and windows closed, appearance of gold dust in your hands and face while listening to a sermon, stories of instant healing and many more. These are the kind of miracles which we can’t explain how it happened.

I can testify that I really witnessed the gold dust thing happened with my two eyes wide opened. It was last 2013 in a conference with Joshua Mills in our church. It happened during worship time, Joshua was at the front row, we were worshiping God and suddenly everybody inside the church went near Joshua, shouting in loud praises. I was on the right side, he was on the left, so for me to see him I need to take few more steps and so I did. When I saw him, gold dust was all over him, his hair, face, body, it was so thick. He was wearing black that night and I saw him when he entered the worship hall, so I know that those that looks like glitters, it wasn’t there before the worship started. God’s presence manifested that night through gold dust, and it was not only Joshua Millss who had those but there were also other people who had it on their faces, Kuya James was one of them. It was real. Gold dust is real. God can really do it.

Another story is from my friend, Noel, whose arm was in a cast due to a motor vehicle accident, his bone was broken, the doctor put metal so the broken bone could be reconnected. He can’t flex and can’t lift his arm. He came to one of our church’s Leaders Advance Conference last 2014 and was prayed over. After the prayer, he was asked to check if something unusual happened. He said the pain was gone. They asked him to do things he can’t do before they prayed for him. So he tried to flex his arm and lifted it up. And there he was, stood so amazed of how God instantly healed him in just few words of prayer. It wasn’t only that he can now flex and lift his arm and the pain was gone, the metal was gone too. He confirmed it in our Facebook conversation. God is so so good!

Another miracle story I heard was someone who had a gallbladder problem, she was operated and had it removed. After a while, she experienced another health problem, the church where she was attending prayed for her and heard about her removed gallbladder and so they declared new organ. She went to the doctor the next day for a follow up check up, same doctor who removed her gallbladder. After her check up the doctor told her that he saw in the ultrasound something like in a shape of a gallbladder appeared but not sure because he knew that her gallbladder has been removed and it was done by him. The doctor can’t explain how it happened but confirmed that she has now a new gallbladder. New organ miracle, something that isn’t mention in the bible is happening today. These are the things we call creative miracles. God can create new things. He created the earth and everything in it. He doesn’t change, he can create things out of nothing. That is who he is, his nature, the creator.

Those kinds of miracles yes but how about raising a dead person back to life? Is it really possible? Well, I did not see it yet but I had an experience praying for a dead 10 year old kid once. He wasn’t raise back to life but it doesn’t mean that God can’t do it. In the name of Jesus, a person can be raised back to life. One story I heard many times and read in a book was a celebrity’s son (actor Philip Salvador). His son lost his life but was raised back to life after a declaration of life. You still don’t believe it? Buy the book of Ptr. Hiram Pangilinan, “What if God comes”, it was written there and they had a photo attached. I also read it from the book of missionary Heidi Baker, “Compelled By Love.” The kids she was taking care of prayed about 300 dead people already and they were all raised back to life, you see, these kind of miracles is still happening today. All praise to you alone, Jesus, the giver of life.

I believed in miracles, I believed Jesus heals, restores and saves. How about you?

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PASSION FOR THE LOST

I know I was born with a purpose. And it is “better to die and not know life than to live and not know why”, as Dr. Myles Munroe quoted. Many individual dies without knowing their purpose in life and it is sad to see them not reach their highest potentials only because of failing to discover their purpose of existence. The reason why as we go through life, one of our major assignments is to find out why and what we were created for and the answer we will get is called the PURPOSE OF LIFE.

I have been a christian for 15 years now. I accepted Jesus when I was 12 and my relationship with God started. I learned to pray, worship and read my bible but only when I feel like doing it not because I love the one who wrote it. I wandered to this world for many years trying to figure out what I was created for, what am I here for, what am I called to do. These were the questions I was trying to answer for the past years. I unconsciously sought for the answers, I didn’t know I was looking for something until the day I found it. In college, I took the course my dad wanted for me, I successfully passed the board exam and became a registered nurse (he died before I graduated and passed the NLE). I tried to work using my profession, but I wasn’t happy, it was not because I don’t like what I was doing but I don’t feel needed and comfortable of where I was. Maybe because, those were also the times when I started to be part of God’s church, and enjoying the presence of his children who considered and treated me as a family. Because God’s love keep on pouring through his people in the church, it didn’t require me to have a second thought before I bravely render a letter to our department head (not a resignation because I was a contractual employee), just a letter to formally let them know that I no longer want to renew another contract (just in case they’ll offer me another one). I was asked why and told them I was planning to specialize in dialysis so I need to undergo a training to become a dialysis nurse. But it didn’t work as planned because the money I reserved for the training went to my uncle’s tuition fee, the one who was taking care of my grandmother in the province that time. Oh well, my answer to that why it didn’t go as I planned it was what the book of proverbs says, “many are the plans in a man’s heart but only God’s purpose will prevail.” Funny, isn’t it? No matter how many times I plan my life if it’s not part of God’s plan, things won’t go well for me.

For the mean time I told myself, since I got nothing else left to do, I stayed in the church and explore and experiment. It wasn’t my first time involvement in a ministry of God but for me it was just like experimental because I just started to be involved in the ministry of God in the church, I was a newbie, still don’t know what to do, everything I did (like leading a group of youngsters, small group, an usher and even an intercessor, every first step attempted was an experiment, hoping everything will go well, and yes, through His grace, I survived) especially for a church as big as that church. And after one year of experimental experience, seeking for God’s will for me, purpose for living, shared moments with the group I was leading and the people I called leaders and elders, one anointed servant of God came and my world started shaking. I was busy doing things which I believe was a service to Him, when the answers to my prayers came, and my well organized, directed life started to shake and the missing pieces in my life puzzle unveiled.

I was seeking for an answer or a confirmation I must say of what God has already put in my heart the day I met Ptr. B. I was 12 when this passion to serve the lost began to burn inside of me. But I tried to forget about it and filled my heart with what I think was practical and a daughter supposed to do for a father who works so hard for his family. But when I went back to church and start to be with God and his people, I felt the joy in my heart, and the passion I tried to kill inside of me came back to life and started burning again. I was then so confused of what to do, praying and asking God if will I stay in the ministry or will I work, but God’s only answer those days were “wait patiently.” If I was to ask him about my financial worries, he keeps telling me, “I can meet your needs, I won’t let you go hungry.” He even showed me visions, that he was looking at me everytime I kneel down and pray and saw his feet coming down to rescue me in time of discomfort. He showed me his faithfulness and assurance of his protection, that made me more confused and so I said, I need one man to confirm it. One sunday, Ptr. G, told me that God showed me to her in a vision while she was praying and God told her to tell me that “whatever I plan to do, God is looking at me.” I didn’t expect to hear those words from her that day, tears began to fall from my eyes and felt the presence of God. That vision I saw, God confirmed it through her. I was happy and felt relieved but still I need more, the reason why when I heard that an anointed of God will come to speak at the church’s prayer works (dawn watch), I made sure to attend and be prayed over and it happened. The things he said that very day, was all confirmations of what God has been wanting me and telling me about. All that was left for me to do that time was the word, “OBEDIENCE.” I started struggling because I can’t give up what I was holding in my hands and risk it all for something I was not sure of (God is sure of it but I was not, TRUST-ing him was the problem). So again and again, I sought for more confirmations until I attended a glory encounter in one church and there got the courage to move my feet in obedience because everthing that Ptr. A told me was exact same words regarding what Ptr. B had told me and what was God has been telling me. No more excuses! Emptying the glass that has been filled fo so long is another way of Him filling it up with something new. New things that I never tasted and experienced before.

2013, when I started a new journey of my christian walk, I got the chance of meeting pastors from different churches and was given the opportunity to be trained to pray for the sick, sharing testimonies of how great God is, my visions and encounter with God. I was exposed also to the field of deliverance and learned the basics of the ministry. Newbie but was also given the time to share messages of God’s love to the youth and went with the group of pastors for missions that brings revival to provinces. Seen miracles of God’s powerful healing to the sick and outpouring of his Holy Spirit to the people. My heart was so blessed that God has brought me to places where I witnessed his amazing works. But God is not finished with me yet revealing his true purpose for my existence. Year 2014 when he told me to stay to one connection and one direction, thus made me decide to stay for a while in one church family. God brought me to that place where I found a new family of believers, people who are burning hot for Jesus, crazy laid down lovers and walking with so much passion and desire to love the poor. God made things easier for me, in just one sunday, he gave me a spiritual mother, a ministry where I can learn more of his love and service and friends. With the new door he opened for me, I know that what God wants me to learn is to love the unlovable. He opened an opportunity for me to become a volunteer teacher, loving the underprivileged kids, a right away application of what I learned from reading the compelled by love and attending the “birthing the miraculous” conference of Heidi Baker, known missionary, who loves the poor so much, that year.

God led me to a place where his love and joy overflows to people and where his presence resides in every corner. I am so much grateful how God is working in my life. Today, I am enrolled in a graduate school, taking units for professional education, and finally found my passion, my purpose of existence, though it is not the whole picture yet but I know now that one of the reasons why I exist is “to teach the lost”.

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BORN TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE

I have nothing to brag about except for the love of Christ in my life. I don’t know what I am capable of doing, I can’t even tell specific things I am good at. I don’t know what my interests are, because I live a life of going with the flow. If this thing they will do, I will also, I don’t know what I really want. Unlike other kids, as they grow up and mature in age, they were able to name a few of the things they want to do and how they will succeed. I am not an excellent student, I never led a group in school, I am always someone who is so silent and ready to support what others may think best for projects we’re working on. How about dreaming who I wanna be? I also dreamed the dream of others. My close friend, want to be a nurse, so what I did is, enrolled myself in college and took Bachelor of Science in Nursing (not a hard decision because it was also what my dad wants). After 5 years, I graduated and blessed enough by Daddy God to pass the Licensure Exam. Thank God! But it didn’t end there, still I don’t know what I want! Funny isn’t it? It was because I have a lot of things in mind.

After college like many other newly passed nurses, I am so excited to practice my profession. So I invested my time and even money for taking trainings which hospitals require for newly nurses who wants to practice their profession in hospital settings. Woooow! Very costly! But of course, I had no choice then but to take the trainings. And after a couple of months, I gained certificates which will now qualify me to apply as volunteer to hospitals. Imagine that? Volunteer, working without pay. But I enjoyed it so much to the extent that I sometimes worked overtime. Haha! But things started to change when God spoke to me while I was in a church service. He was talking to me now the third time. I heard it loud and clear saying, “Be an USHER”, (inner voice not the audible voice of God.) And it so happened that one of my classmates in college was an usher to that church. Did God arrange things for me? Because he knew I am a shy person so God put her there for me not to have an excuse? Wise Daddy God! I can’t now say NO to him, so I approached her and inquired. After filling up an usher’s information form, being interviewed (sharing my personal testimony) I was introduced to the group as a new member of their team.

The group started with few members and was only a few weeks old ministry. I appreciated every Sunday I was there to serve and greet people coming to church simply because I know I was really called by God to be there. Things went so fast, after a week our leader was assigned to a new location to be a pastor’s assistant (he is now an ordained pastor in the church) and the one who took his role was pregnant and had a hard time with her duties and responsibilities. Most of the members were young, so they decided to put me in leadership and to assist her though I was a newbie. I was given the chance to lead the group and seen myself being challenged of how much I was able to give for God. I was also given the opportunity to start and handle a connect group, though I really don’t know what to do or how to assume the responsibility but then since I handled the youth in the group already I had the courage to stand and pursue the leader’s training. I completed the training and had my very first small group in the church, where I can do and teach whatever topic I see fit, and of course as long as I have the approval of my community pastor.

In my 6 years relationship with God (real relationship not just being churchy), I learned a lot of things, for every given opportunity to be used by him, I can say that I wasn’t there only to teach but to learn from the people as well. It was the time where I became super close to God, to his presence, and stayed in my prayer closet. I recognized God’s power and that I am nothing without him working in me. I started knowing nothing and had no idea what I really want, but now I know that I was born to make a difference and shine for his glory.

Making a difference won’t require us to do something great or remarkable. My dream is to reach nations for God, I know it is not that easy to achieve. I want to travel and see myself sharing his love to people. I want to dream the dreams of God, goal his goals and plan his plans, and I know that one of the things that God wants is for his words to reach every nation in the world. I may not have the currency that nations require nor acquired education for people to listen and recognize. But my dream of reaching the nations can’t only be fulfilled with my feet stepping on the foreign lands. Because I strongly believe that my words through the power of internet will reach the nations faster than my two treasured legs. This is where I will start! Reaching you with words of love and encouragement from Daddy God. This is just the beginning. This is how I believe I was born, to make a difference through words!

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