[bluedragonflydream]

It may seem like I'm not doing much with my life, but please don't forget, that I work extremely hard for you to see me as normal. All the other task are like a second job and you will never realize how exhausting my most significant job is.

[remanence-of-love]

[dionysian-mystery]

Aloha from Hell by Richard Kadrey

[orlandoswords]

if you’ve ever loved a narcissist, this is for you

yes, my pain became anger

portrayed as numbness’ rage

because who can stand your selfish soul

scraping against the skin

with it’s dull and rusted blade

i am not the first

to fall victim to your ruthless game

nor will i be the last

because you never change

you only replace

“this time will be different” you say

only to still gaslight, lie, blame, manipulate

chaos is all your “love” creates

go ahead

convince the world your new love is great

but your new victim

just hasn’t seen through your fake

you are a parasite

taking love and taking life

you find good and kill it

you hate it because it’s nothing like you

you have no faith

the shame that you wear as chains

is all that guides your way

you leave casualties

like the clouds leave rain

if only i could have seen your soul

instead of your face

if only i had known that your body

is your only grace

i’d have run miles and miles away

you tell your friends i changed

that i was unstable

that i was deranged

tell them i was insecure and paranoid

tell them all about my reactions

to your abuse

and avoid telling them everything you’d do

go ahead, paint yourself as the victim

but don’t ever say you had good intentions

because you’d have put a rope

around my neck; pushed me over the edge

and watched me choke to death

if you had to choose between me

or cheap validation

and more money on your paycheck

everything i had, i gave

and you gladly kept it

but what am i left with?

this knife in my chest

cuts on skin

poison on my lips

that’s it

you create messes

and leave so you don’t have to clean it

you cut me

but became upset that i was bleeding

then you poured bleach on my skin

and said i was insane for screaming

these people aren’t like you and i

they lie with dead eyes

they can tell you they love you

and sleep with others at the same time

there is no remorse or regret in their kind

no conscience in their mind

they break you down within an inch of your life

just to watch you lose your mind

and leave you there at your lowest

but only after they’ve found their new supply

whom they cannot love but can only idolize

as much as it hurts to admit it

this is what happens

when you love a narcissist

[dark-soul9]

I notice everything; I wish I didn’t.

[souljashawty-deactivated2025040]

I hate having bpd so fucking much. I hate how I feel the urge to push everyone that loves me away. I hate sitting on the bathroom floor rocking back and forth because I don’t know what to do. I hate being called dramatic because I’m unable to control how I react to everything around me. I hate that people will never understand what it’s truly like be inside my head.

[anagelic-deactivated20220717]

[thereignclub-trc]

I don’t know who needs to hear this right now, but your progress is not ruined after 1 bad day, 2 bad days, maybe even a month or more of bad days. Everything you experienced and learned during that time is valuable and essential for your growth. Forgive yourself, and try again. 

[ai-papi-deactivated20201124]

she is just like water powerful enough to drown you soft enough to cleanse you deep enough to save you

[dolefulscribbles]

*feels both “I am so bored & understimulated I want to do EVERYTHING!” and “I am so exhausted & overwhelmed I can’t do ANYTHING” at the same time*

[dark-soul9]

I notice everything; I wish I didn’t.

[toadallybpd]

[borderlineflower-deactivated202]

i want to see more ACCURATE representation of people who suffer of borderline personality disorder. i’m tired of seeing us portrayed as psycho bitches who either want to ruin someone’s life or do crazy shit for attention. we’re human?? we have a heart and we have feelings??? we’re not villains???? we’re just regular people who feel too much and yes we can be too much at times but we’re literally doing the best we can?????? 

[ryebreadgf]

[becherdireinen]

I have the purest heart so it’s never my loss respectfully.

[willow]

im so sensitive i wasn’t made for earth

[quotemadness]

“I will breathe. I will think of solutions. I will not let my worry control me. I will not let my stress level break me. I will simply breathe. And it will be OK.”

— Shayne McClendon