[1stneptune]

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[iwnaseeu-deactivated20231228]

[1stneptune]

I miss the cold air going into my lungs.

The anticipation of the unknown.

My heart beating hot.

Being free

[1stneptune]

I want to be in a hot pool

[pulsatory]

[justregularsuffering]

[lionfloss]

source

[brok3np4radise-deactivated20250]

You cannot make everyone think and feel as deeply as you do. This is your tragedy … because you understand them, and they do not understand you.

Daniel Saint

[blasphemousangel]

[1stneptune]

I hate myself - for many reasons. I love myself some. Most days all I do is fight the thoughts in my head, I am my worst enemy. That’s the real me. Not the social façade of a the perfect life we all portray for social media.

Some days it all feels like it falls into place but it comes crashing down again quickly at a trigger. I rethink over and over what has happened in my life, every horrible memory. I read it’s maybe because of my cancer moon. I dwell and let it fester. It’s hard and I get deeply scared that it won’t get better. I find the joy in little things, like a new hobby or passion. I repeat this pattern. I know I will always cycle, that it won’t last forever. I’m still here. I fall asleep with the haunting thoughts, feeling broken but I know there is still hope for the next day. This is me.

[1stneptune]

Existing is hard.

[qvotable]

“Forgive yourself for not knowing what you didn’t know before you learned it.”

— Maya Angelou

[1stneptune]

Nothing is better than this. 💫

[1stneptune]

“The more you are detached from life the more you are attached to the game”