Lmao I can talk about this shit all day. Man when I tell you I was obsessed, I WAS OBSESSED. Like I ate, slept, and breathed billdip.
Looking back at it, I think that ship and the community surrounding it was a safe place for me. Yeah, it had a lot of shit I shouldn’t have been reading at that age but also I just found comfort in escaping reality for a little bit and creating and writing little stories. It was really nice while it lasted but then as I got older I kinda drifted away from the fandom. It made me sad at first and sometimes I wish I could go back but I know this is apart of growing up and I’m just kinda content with it now. I still read fanfics but as far as writing or creating fan art I just stopped cold turkey.
Oh yeah, that obsession was my entire life, I can relate on that. It was the thing I did all summer, after school, at night - it was like my daily meals honestly. I drifted off the whole thing a few months, or maybe even last yr, but I still wish I could go back to the Fandom just for the nostalgia, yknow? Like, there's LOTSSS of nostalgia in that Fandom, I cannot put it in depth enough about how much the ship overtook half of my teenagehood tbh. I think lots of kids just resorted to escaping reality w these sort of stuff, and I can see why w how they're like - yknow, figuring themselves out and all. Or just the idea of reading a romance story, no matter how cheesy or rushed, during everyone's worse moments. It feels impossible to just NOT get into one Fandom during puberty, like idk if that makes any sense