Diary Entry 10
Hey yall. It’s been a minute. And by a minute, i mean 6 months. I’ve been dreaming a lot lately. Been visited by many dead relatives in those dreams. Everyone lives in my dreams as if they never left this earth plane. Do I sound crazy yet? Cool, I’ll keep going. I sometimes wonder if we really are all connected somehow. A simulation? A god? A silver cord connecting us from our dream world and the world we are on right now? I’ve been thinking a LOT lately about why I’m here. Like the real reason I’m here. I often find myself trying to understand if I’m here for a reason or if I just hit the sperm lottery and here I am. I’d like to think it’s the first one because then maybe there is something more out there. I’m gonna keep going SO if this is totally too wonky for your head, I advise you to dip rn haha. I’ve become very spiritual since we’ve last spoke. I’ve started actually believing in Spirit guides / guardian angels / my higher self / whatever you wanna call it. I find myself talking to them in my head. I’m not sure if I hear anything back but I do feel a sense of feeling less alone. Maybe it’s all in my head and I’m just so scared of knowing that nothing is nothing and some people were right. Whatever it is, I think I’m going to keep talking to them. I guess I’ll find out one day. Gonna leave for now but I’ll talk to y’all real soon. Bye for now