24/7AvPD

Important: I don't reply to messages privately, only publicly on the blog. I don't do chat. I can't and won't diagnose people. See #247 admin note. Reason for this blog: I needed a place to write about living with all the feelings and thoughts that come with the diagnosis Avoidant Personality Disorder, AvPD.

[24-7avpd]

People: "I don't have a life hhahahahahaha'

Me, knowing that they do or that they at least have relationships, friends, travel, have a loving family: 'Hahaha. 😑'

[24-7avpd]

They: hey have you seen [this movie] yet?

Me, heart flutters, thinks: I really want to, go ask them!!!

Me: no.. do y..

They, interrupting: I have, it was a bit too long.

Me: oh..

Me, thinking: oh no, everyone has seen it already, I'm not a friend, there are better friends for them, I thought they knew I loved that type of movie, why does no one ever ask me, why is me asking always useless, it only just out was I really that slow, why does this keep happening, sigh.

My heart: *breaks*

[24-7avpd]

I've never been happy in my life.

I don't think I ever will.

I don't know how to go on.

[mjalti]

i hate when personality tests ask questions like “how would other people describe you” listen bix i already agonize over this at every moment of my waking life and i dont need u bringing it up in this my area of escapism

[24-7avpd]

The last time someone was at my house I'm not related to was over three years ago.

I don't live in a bad neighborhood. It's just that nobody cares to come over.

[24-7avpd]

I feel like crying.

[24-7avpd]

When you're lifegoal is just to have some friends. And when you're failing at it.

[tentacltherapist]

“I Constantly Think I’m Breaking A Social Rule I Wasn’t Made Aware Of” a novel by me.

[ryuko-archive]

it’s hard for me to make friends irl and it’s even harder for me to make friends online so i guess i’ll just die

[sherwat-blog]

All credit goes to the masterpost…posters. Because they’re great people.

Cheer up and Relax

Sad?

Ugh, Feelings

Calming Noises

Feeling Okay?

Websites for when you want to…

Cute games

Coping Skills and Distractions

A happy things Masterpost

Feeling stressed, sweetie?

Fun Stuff

Hobbies Masterpost

somethingpointy’s Masterpost of Bullshit Time Wasting!!

For when boredom Strikes

Good psychological games masterpost

Learn To Code

Mental Illness

Anxiety Masterpost

Bipolar Disorder Masterpost

Depression Masterpost

Eating Disorder Masterpost

Mental Health Help Masterpost

Panic and Anxiety Information Masterpost

Recovery Resources

Self Harm

Momma’s Alternatives to Self Harm

Ultimate Self-Injury Recovery Masterpost

Coping with thoughts of self harm Masterpost

Films

The Big LGBTQA* Film Masterpost

Studio Ghibli Films Masterpost

Disney Films Masterpost

Animated Movie Masterpost

What do you mean I’m not 10 anymore?

General Self Help

Abercrombier’s 2014 Self Help Masterpost

Help Corgi’s Self Help Masterpost 

Helpful Links

Everything

One Big Masterpost

Everything Masterpost

Nicoisbroken’s Master list

Literally Rad’s Resource Masterpost

In Case Of Emergency

Suicide Hotlines

Tumblr’s Counseling and Prevention Resources

Dealing with Suicidal Thoughts

Others

If you’re considering sending anon hate

How to Become an Adult

[boywithbpd]

anyone else feel like their trauma isn’t bad enough n they’re probably just overreacting to normal childhood experiences? same

[24-7avpd]

I always feel it's not bad enough.

[24-7avpd]

I feel my life is over before it even started.

[fairycosmos]

when i watch other people my age, i see that they have this kind of effortless way about them that i don’t think i’ll ever have. the way they talk to each other and the way they go out and pursue what interests them without having to think twice about it. the way they know how to conduct themselves, the way it all comes so naturally to them, like breathing or swimming or riding a bike. it’s like they all have something ingrained in them that i just don’t have, and it’s so embarrassing and it’s fucking killing me. i wish i knew how to be okay.

[labors]

someone: shows me any kind of affection expecting nothing in return

me, shaking, crying a little: wtf

[arabwife]

the moment i feel ignored or unimportant is the moment i emotionally check out

[dxrissa]

It happens quickly too.

[5ather-deactivated20191025]

The worst feeling is when you find out you didn’t mean as much to someone as you thought you did and you look so stupid for caring too much

[wnq-writers]

You never, ever, ever, get over some things. And time doesn’t heal them. You just learn to manage them. But they’re always there.

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