l a z a r u s

i reach for you like i would cake, desperate and hungry for more, yet it seems you and i were not meant to be, because even cake has an expiry date.

[247wonho]

i’m back bi+ches 

hello hello it’s been a while hasn’t it my friends? sadly work engulfed me into a sad world where rp/tumblr became but a tiny figment at the back of my mind and now school is doing the same. that and what is inspiration at this pount.

that being said, please keep your eyes our for a new revamped wonho. i don’t think he’ll be changing that much but i need something to get me going. i’ll be dropping all plots/interactions for the time being (as if i had any), until i get a grasp on who wonho will be... plus i’d like the chance to talk to everyone again and discuss former plots -> newer plots. im sorry to anyone i mightve had plots with but i’m sure we’ll meet again.

thank you.

[wonhosprincess-blog]

[247wonho]

❝ That’s just a lie. ❞

BTS ↳ SENTENCE STARTER PACK — accepting!

“is it now, baby?” he’s practically purring by the end of his sentence, as he leans over his counter to close the space between him and sumin. “you see  i think you felt something that night, a little zing, a spark of something more but you’re too afraid to say it out loud.”

he’s arrogant in the way he speaks, a smirk tugging at his lips as his eyes trace the features of her face. he’s too prideful to admit her presence in his work place taunts him, leaving a bitter taste at the back of his mouth everytime he lays eyes on her. he leans away this time, instead focusing his hands on mixing together a drink for himself. 

there’s a wide smile on his face, faux in every way really, as he picks up his glass and holds it up in a congratulatory manner. “i don’t blame you, i’m good at what i do.” 

[sugamiint-blog]

❝ BTS - The Most Beautiful Moment in Life Pt. 1

↳ sentence starter pack.

In The Mood For Love:

❝The boy is afraid of reality. ❞ ❝ His heart is at peace only when he throws the ball. ❞ ❝ I pretend to know the world, but my body’s still not ready. ❞ ❝ Shoot. ❞ ❝ The results are as low as the floor. ❞ ❝ Everything’s gonna be alright. ❞ ❝ The world gives me fear. ❞ ❝ My worries spread like cancer. ❞ ❝ God damn it! ❞ ❝ Feels like this moment will last forever, but the sun is setting. ❞ ❝ I’m just a scared idiot. ❞ ❝ I keep getting scared at the looming sense of reality. ❞ ❝ Why am I still here? ❞ ❝ The sun will set on your life. ❞ ❝ This moment won’t ever come again. ❞ ❝ I’m asking myself again, “Am I happy right now?” ❞ ❝ The answer is already there. ❞

I NEED U:

❝ Fall. ❞ ❝ I’m ruined because of you. ❞ ❝ I wanna stop. ❞ ❝ I don’t want you anymore. ❞ ❝ I can’t do this. ❞ ❝ This sucks. ❞ ❝ Please don’t give me any excuses. ❞ ❝ You can’t do this to me. ❞ ❝ I’m going crazy. I hate this. ❞ ❝ But you’re my everything. ❞ ❝ Please go away. ❞ ❝ I’m sorry. ❞ ❝ I love you. ❞ ❝ I hate you. ❞ ❝ Forgive me. ❞ ❝ I need you. ❞ ❝ Why am i hurting alone? ❞ ❝ Why do I keep needing you, when I know I’ll get hurt? ❞ ❝ You’’re so beautiful. ❞ ❝ You’re so cold. ❞ ❝ Why do I keep coming back? ❞ ❝ I’m just a fool. ❞ ❝ I’m just talking to myself again. ❞ ❝ The sky is blue & the sun is shining. ❞ ❝ Why did it have to be you? ❞ ❝ Just tell me you wanna break up. ❞ ❝ Tell me it wasn’t love. ❞ ❝ I have no courage to say that. ❞

Hold Me Tight:

❝ I should’ve just given in. ❞ ❝ Why did I argue all the time? ❞ ❝ You & I are like cell phones. ❞ ❝ Only your scent completes me. ❞ ❝ I can only see you. ❞ ❝ Hold me tight. ❞ ❝ Hug me. ❞ ❝ Can you trust me? ❞ ❝ You still shine. ❞ ❝ Now trust me. ❞ ❝ Without you, I can’t breathe. ❞ ❝ I’m nothing without you. ❞ ❝ I beg you. ❞ ❝ Everything feels cold & I’m even scared of the lear sky. ❞ ❝ It hurts. ❞ ❝ I hate it all. ❞ ❝ Please, please, please. ❞ ❝ Don’t talk, don’t leave, just quietly hold me. ❞

Dope:

❝ Welcome. ❝ If you’re ready, i’ll start. ❞ ❝ I worked all night. ❞ ❝ I got a feeling I’m pretty dope. ❞ ❝ All of you are so weak. ❞ ❝ Has nothing to do with me. ❞ ❝ Our youths may rot away. ❞ ❝ We’re running to success. ❞ ❝ I don’t wanna say yes. ❞ ❝ Make some noise. ❞ ❝ I gotta make it. ❞ ❝ I was always too much. ❞ ❝ I reject rejection. ❞ ❝ It’s dope. ❞ ❝ Well i like beef jerky. ❞ ❝ The media & adults say we don’t have willpower. ❞ ❝ Why are they killing us before we can even try? ❞ ❝ Why are you hanging your head & accepting it? ❞ ❝ Don’t ever give up. ❞ ❝ Our dawn is prettier than the day. ❞ ❝ So can I get a little bit of hope? ❞ ❝ You are all my slaves. ❞ ❝ Everyday is about the hustle life. ❞

Boyz With Fun:

❝ I don’t even know myself. ❞ ❝ We’re here. ❞ ❝ This is so funIt doesn’t matter, throw your timidness away. ❞ ❝ Let’s ride, go with me. ❞ ❝ I see the peak over there. ❞ ❝ I’m becoming weird. ❞ ❝ Look at me, I’m going crazy. ❞ ❝ Don’t stop meIf you don’t wanna, just go home. ❞ ❝ I think I’ll go crazy. ❞ ❝ Don’t ask me. ❞ ❝ I was always like this. ❞ ❝ I’m me from start to finish. ❞ ❝ My insanity is crazy. ❞ ❝ I wanna do everything my way. ❞ ❝ Don’t touch me. ❞ ❝ Who cares? I’m satisfied. ❞ ❝ I’m sorry. ❞ ❝ If hope is with us, we won’t know time is passing. ❞ ❝ Stop saying nonsense, you’re draining my energy. ❞ ❝ Don’t even think about talking behind my back. ❞ ❝ I’ll bite you with my teeth. ❞

Converse High:

❝ I’m so into your Converse Highs. ❞ ❝ I can’t help it. ❞ ❝ I like it so much. ❞ ❝ If I had only one day… ❞ ❝ You saved the world. ❞ ❝ Well eff your Chanel, eff your Alexander Mcqueen & eff your Raf Simons. ❞ ❝ White t-shirt, jeans & red Converse Highs. That’s it. ❞ ❝ I like you, but still don’t wear Converse Lows. ❞ ❝ I really hate Converse. ❞ ❝ That’s just a lie. ❞ ❝ You look better with Jordan numbers. ❞ ❝ When you meet me, don’t wear Converse. ❞ ❝ It’s too hard to take them off of you. ❞

Moving On:

❝ I remember how we came here three years ago. ❞ ❝ You & I used to fight all the time. ❞ ❝ Back then I thought this was a big place. ❞ ❝ But my ambition grew too big. ❞ ❝ Seems like it was just yesterday. ❞ ❝ We grew up a lot. ❞ ❝ This place smells like us. ❞ ❝ We cried & laughed a lot. ❞ ❝ It was so beautiful. ❞ ❝ Let’s move. ❞ ❝ Goodbye to this place that we grew attached to. ❞ ❝ Goodbye now. ❞ ❝ A lot of things happened. ❞ ❝ There were many memories. ❞ ❝ We were bound tighter together. ❞ ❝ Even the dust will be cleared now. ❞ ❝ Let’s take our & pride & go toward a bigger world with a bigger dream. ❞ ❝ A new start. A new beginning. ❞ ❝ After you’re done, let’s get a bowl of black bean noodles. ❞ ❝ Whether I liked it or not, it changed my life a lot. ❞ ❝ I hope that day will come soon. ❞

Love is not Over:

❝ The long night is following you as it flows. ❞ ❝ Time follows you & fades. ❞ ❝ Why are you getting farther away? So far that I can’t reach you? ❞ ❝ Tell me why. ❞ ❝ Can’t you see me in your eyes anymore? ❞ ❝ Love is so painful. ❞ ❝ Goodbyes are even more painful. ❞ ❝ I can’t go on if you’re not here. ❞ ❝ Love me. ❞ ❝ Come back to my arms. ❞ ❝ Love is not over. ❞

[247wonho]

* call me, baby | shs&jhs

[247jh-blog]

( ` he practically holds his breath for the first few minutes after getting wonho’s reply, anxiously staring at the phone in his hands – but nothing happens, so hoseok comes to the conclusion that he changed his mind. ) well okay then, jeez- ( ` he’s not really that surprised, but  his heart hurts nonetheless. he sighs, turning his attention back to the drama on tv as he tilts his glass back again, pulling a face as he gulps the last of the drink- only to jump and drop the glass back down on the end table beside him, fumbling to grab his phone when his ringtone starts up. he glances quickly at the contact – ‘don’t answer’ (how ironic) – and his stomach jumps into his throat as he clumsily brings the receiver to his ear. ) hi. ( ` he pauses. ) you called.. ( ` hoseok swallows, heart thumping as he falls into an awkward silence. what was he thinking? he doesn’t know what to say; drunk hoseok just decided  completely on impulse that he needed to hear wonho’s voice to calm down. sober hoseok’s gonna be so mad… ) so, um. ( ` come on, hobi– say something before he hangs up. ) d-did you know elephants can paint? 

[247wonho]

( * his breath hitches for a moment and wonho prays to every god he can think of in hopes hoseok hadn’t heard. it’s been a while yet wonho’s brought back into their curse of a relationship with a mere greeting, how pathetic. ) you told me to call. ( * he says with a roll of his eyes, sitting back in his work chair and using his free hand to work throughout his hazardous hairstyle in a nervous habit. he’s not sure where to take this. it’s obvious even the other doesn’t know what to say and this awkward silence is suffocating, the sound of his own breathing louder than his thoughts. finally, he sighs silently in relief at something to talk about, lettig out a small chuckle. ) i’ve heard that. i’ve also heard they go through months of physical pain to even be able to hold a paintbrush. sad, isn’t it — all for human interest. ( * nice one, bring up the faults of humanity, that sure cheers a person right up. )

[247wonho]

* call me, baby | shs&jhs

@247jh

( * his finger hovers over hoseok’s contact information, dread weighing down his chest. he’d been so sure when he decided to reply to the other’s texts, concern ripping apart the fence he’d put up around his heart — no jung hoseoks allowed — and now suddenly, he’s frozen. his hand clutches his phone tightly and his throat dries more and more by the minute. just do it, he tells himself. he said he would. he said he’d just take a minute, it’s been ten. not a moment later, he’s tapped on the call button and the sound of the line ringing. he waits, silent until the line patches through. ) hey.

[247wonho]

[ txt -> don't answer ] ik u htae me rnbut [ txt -> don't answer ] i kinlda nneed yyou?? [ txt -> don't answer ] can ucall me or somet hing or is that toomuch

[ sms –> hoseok ] give me a minute 

[247wonho]

@247jongdae

( sms : unknown ) hey, this is jongdae from the club ( sms : unknown ) so aside from being sexy, what do you do for a living?

[ sms –> ?? ] hey, uh i don’t know a jongdae [ sms –> ?? ] unless, we had sex last night, then i possibly know a jongdae  [ sms –> ?? ] and very funny, you’re a pickup kind of guy huh [ sms –> ?? ] hi, my name is milk. i’ll do your body good.

[247taehyung-blog]

( sms: gr8 dick ) omg HAHAHA ( sms: gr8 dick ) you know me well  ( sms: gr8 dick ) i wanna go to a shop where they put the ice cream like petals on the cone so it looks like a flower…….. its nice for instagram ( sms: gr8 dick ) and then we go to your place or w/e :D :D

[247wonho]

[ sms –> my bitch ] well then you better know a place that sells it cause i don’t lmao [ sms –> my bitch ] but sure, i’m down for the aftermath, you know i am  [ sms –> my bitch ] about to take a shower though, just let yourself in

[247wonho]

( sms: gr8 dick ) hey hey hey HEY ( sms: gr8 dick ) lets go for ice cream okay ♥♥♥ ur treat ( sms: gr8 dick ) ur the best thank u im omw i'll be there in 20!!!!!!!!!!

[ sms –> my bitch ] ice cream for dinner? [ sms –> my bitch ] why not[ sms –> my bitch ] as long as that means[ sms –> my bitch ] dick for dessert ; )

[shin--wonho-deactivated20230203]

[247wonho]

I want the K

kiss meme -> accepting!

random generator -> #15: kiss in the rain 

there’s something about a rainy day that makes wonho’s heart ache. 

not so much in remorse or sadness but more so with the concept rain is alludes to the washing away of sins, which might be why instead of running in doors to shelter oneself from the sad skies’ never ending tears, wonho stays outdoors and lets the rain wash around him. the water pelts down his face and soaks through his $$$ clothes and pours into his shoes until every step is a puddle of itself, but wonho likes the rain, he craves it.

he’s sinned enough. 

which is why when the rain starts its downfall right after the rom-com him and sooyoung had just watched, he holds onto her hands, unwilling to let her seek refuge. 

“stay with me,” he says in a murmur, pulling her closer in towards him so they’re hand in hand, chest to chest, body heat radiating warmth through cold raindrops. he brings up one hand to brush back the hair in her face, cupping her cheek with a gentle smile. 

i’m sorry, he whispers internally. i wish i could stop hurting you. 

instead he leans down and kisses her with all his might, pulling her closer in towards him as if they weren’t already pressing up against each other. 

maybe they wouldn’t get their fairytale ending, but at least they had this moment to count.

[247wonho]

“Stop saying that.”

warning: nsfw material! 

“stop saying what, baby?” wonho half pants, half purrs out into hoseok’s ear, winding an arm around his waist and holding him close. he lets out an appreciative sound every few moments as hoseok takes what wonho gives him in his attempts to fill him up as deep as he can go.

wonho works at sucking a mark into hoseok’s neck, biting down and laving his tongue against the skin, one hand coming up to roam the expanse of his chest. hoseok’s more built than high school – a given, yet wonho can’t help it, can’t stop touching hoseok’s chest to get a feel for every dip and rock-hard abs, made from dancing for as long as he’s had, to playfully brushing his fingers across the skin and taking silent glee in how the other shivers under his touch.. hoseok had long since tilted his head to the side, letting wonho have free reign, eyes screwed shut, and wonho wants to reach up, tell him to ‘open your eyes, i want to watch you come apart’.

of course he doesn’t.

instead he pays attention to how hoseok’s voice has long gone hoarse as wonho continues thrusting in, grazing his teeth against the sweet skin of his shoulder, slightly possessive in his intent to mark his ex lover? friend? as his because that’s exactly what jung hoseok was – his.

his thoughts remained unvoiced, his lips quivering with silent “love you”s here and there, yet all so non-existent because while jung hoseok is his, shin hoseok is nothing more than a coward.

“whenever you’re ready, baby.” i’ll be here.

Send me 'I want the K' and I'll generate a number

1: Hot, Steamy kiss

2: Cheek Kiss

3: Nose Kiss

4: Forehead Kiss

5: Firm Kiss

6: Gentle Peck

7: Romantic Kiss

8: Eyelid Kiss

9: Jawline Kiss

10: Neck Kiss

11: Collarbone Kiss

12: Chest Kiss

13: Stomach Kiss

14: Kiss Along the Hips

15: Kiss in the Rain

16: Upside-Down Kiss

17: Goofy Kiss

18: Underwater Kiss

19: Forceful Kiss

20: Any of the Above

21: Then there’s tongue

[247wonho]

* we don't talk anymore | shs/jhs

[247jh-blog]

 "that was really dumb, you could’ve been hurt-“ he stops, blinking. shit, i made it sound like i care- fix it hoseok– “not- not that i’d care.” wow. “i mean… if you’d come when you were supposed to, you probably would’ve gotten a real roommate and you wouldn’t have to deal with me.” yes good, make it sound like his fault.

[247wonho]

he's said it before and he'll say it again -- he’ll ever come close to understand jung hoseok. 

wonho’s sure there’s a hot and cold button on the other because one moment it’s all i hate your fucking guts and wonho laughs with bitterness seaping down his throat because he knows, he knows he knows; he hates himself sometimes too. but then there’s the are you okay’s and wonho can feel his heart beating in acceleration, his palms growing sweaty and a do you even care rise on his lips because he can’t tell when jung hoseok is genuine or simply asking because the situation asks him to.

he hates jung hoseok.

“because im tired,” wonho admits, a tired look overtaking his face because goddamn high school is only supposed to be a four year commitment, full of drama and love and broken friendships, all bearable with the ongoing logic that it’s four years of suffering. four years of baseless struggles to be number one, empty threats and snarky advances to the throne known as prom king. yet, here he is, years after high school and still his legacy follows him; shin hoseok, cheater.

it’s a fucking joke, is what it is.

“i don’t care, jung,” he laughs, slightly hysterical as he run a hand through his hair hair. he should wash it soon. if he remembers, he doesn’t remember a lot of things lately such as right now, in this moment, he doesn’t understand when everything came down to hate hate hate jung hoseok. when did it all change? 

“i’m tired. i wish i cared about gossip girl and her wrath,” he rolls his eyes a little here, “but quite frankly, the fight’s been drained out of me. i’m tired.” he’s silent for a few minutes, watching the pool’s water reflect stars in its abyss. tempting. he finally looks back up at hoseok, a pained expression on his face.

“i don’t understand you. you say you don’t care yet it’s fucking obvious you do. you say you hate me and then you do something and it’s like-- it’s like you’re in love with me or something. i don’t understand you. just tell me, what do you want from me, hoseok?”

[247wonho]

* we are never ever getting back together | shs&psy

[247sooyoung]

She hums and nods at him, lips tightly shut, before she continues walking, pulling her boyfriend with her as they make their way to the open air swimming pool and the café next to it. As soon as they sit down, Sooyoung pulls out her phone and starts tapping at it, going through any app she can find just so she doesn’t have to look at Wonho. 

[247wonho]

he sighs a little to himself once they’re finally walking. there wasn’t going to be an easy way out of this, an easy i love you, forgive me that could make sooyoung forget all the wrong he had done. again. the weight in his hand that should give him comfort and the naivety to believe things are going to be alright instead only inputs despair into every breathe he takes. he’s been wondering, when is the last time, the last straw before everything sooyoung and him have is torn into two pieces, irreparable. maybe they’ve already reached it, maybe if anything, it’s with a simple dose of glue, everything is still sticking together, as messy and jagged as it’s been.

something bad is going to happen soon. 

and yet, he’s wonho. and it’s because he’s wonho that he ignores the signs od distress going on in the inside of his mind, the internal moans of anguish that whisper wonho, you’re ruining your life every so often and if only he would listen -- if only he would pay attention to them and do something to make it right, maybe he could fix it. stop this endless cycle of pain and betrayal. 

if only. instead it’s because he’s wonho that he instead turns his head to the front of their path and ignores his inner monologue, letting out a quiet hum at her words, to let her know he’s listening, he’s here.

he’s always listening. 

he lets out another sigh once they’re seated, scooting his chair in closer to the table so he can take a glance at the menu. once he sees a silhouette drag itself over him, he glances over at his girlfriend before letting out a “chocolate milk,” he says to the waiter. “lots of chocolate milk.”

he motions over to sooyoung, letting both know he was done with his order. he wasn’t in a food kind of mood. not these days at least. not now. “and for you, babe?

[247wonho]

guess who has a laptop now :))))))))))))))))))