TW: ED BLOG NOT PRO

ur ana big sis 

[undiagnosedlol]

i hope everyone on here recovers one day, because you all deserve to be happy and have peace with food, instead of suffering with this horrible mental illness. ❤️

[mossbug]

when i die i want u all to come to my grave and put stickers on it

[dankmemeuniversity]

[crushedcoffeeberries]

[25ana]

Literally came so close to committing the unalive last night hahaaaaaa and I SH so hardcore

How the fuck am I gonna keep the cuts hidden ahhhh

[25ana]

Basically binged and I still have dinner plans w my boyfriend fuck

For someone w an0r3x1a I sure eat a lot

I took a bunch of diet pills which is dumb but fuck it

Gonna try not to eat tmr Sunday I definitely will have to bc family but tmr despite my social commitment at the lake I’ll be Gucci

Liquid fast starts Monday I have to be at my first gw by the 31st of may or 1st of June

I have 11 days I got this I’m so close

[25ana]

Meh I’m hungry why does the body need food I’m like bitch eat the fat on my thighs calm down

[25ana]

I woke up and I’m getting the courage to weigh myself bc I’m so fkin scared I’m STILL maintaining😞

[25ana]

AHH FINALLY SCALE DID THE MOVES. Only 1.6 down but the most important thing is we are so close to getting out of the 140s.

Motivation…:)

Also realized imma need some tummy definition for the beach so gonna start doing this core workout 3x a day

6 weeks of that + fat loss should do somethin

[25ana]

I woke up and I’m getting the courage to weigh myself bc I’m so fkin scared I’m STILL maintaining😞

[25ana]

Okay so with food in my stomach I’m still at the same weight I’ve been the past few days. Tmr morning I had better see a difference.

Wtf is going on

[25ana]

It’s so hard not to like panic and get too emotional about this stuff.

Like I know it won’t help I just gotta put my mind to it and let the results come but I can’t stand how I look and am so mad I let it get to this point

Like I don’t wanna cry lol it’s pointless. Just starve instead.

I know what I gotta do. It’s not a matter of can I it’s will I or won’t I.

I got this. I’ll fix it.

[25ana]

Are like 1000 cals yesterday most likely.

Fuckin pissed.

I have to eat today bc of the shoot, but we could order our own food and I just got a house salad that’ll be like 140 cals

Thursday I’ll be fasting and Friday as well.

I may not be able to weigh myself til Friday since I might stay at the air bnb for the shoot we’ll see

[25ana]

I hate being this size.

Also I volunteered to help with a shoot for a client tmr and I realized I need to be in a swimsuit so that’ll be great.

I just want to lose weight

[25ana]

All I want right now is a salad from sweetgreen

With avocado, green goddess ranch, sweet potatoes, JUST MY BODY IS SCREAMING FOR NUTRIENTS.

but it’s too high calorie 🥹

I miss getting salads at lunch.

It’s harder since I’m not seeing results either right now since I’m maintaining.

I just want to get out of the 140s at least. Pls lol. Some progress

[25ana]

I’m hungry and cold 🙄 time to go look at some motivation lol

[25ana]

Fckin maintaining since last Thursday!!

I read though that maintaining on your period isn’t uncommon

Will keep you guys updated :/

[zensscared77-deactivated2022060]

I just wanna lose 30lbs istg

[25ana]

I don’t ask for much lawd 😂