maria

she/her | 17 | relapsed *not encouraging eds in any way* too fucking embarrassed to put my stats 💀

[bequiteanddriveeee]

"if you dont stop youll be really underweight and you can get sick and die your so young you'll regret this"

ill get really underweight if i continue? :)

[hidefdoritos]

"a joy to have in class" aka This Child Will Not Be Diagnosed for at least Eight Years

[undiagnosedlol]

started this acc in 2021 at age 14, now 3 years later and i'm still suffering but fatter😍🔥

[undiagnosedlol]

STOOOPPFPOGOHKWJRKEKRK

[undiagnosedlol]

i remember this getting all the reposts n shit🥲💔 honeymoon phase come back im still missing u

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also everytime i look back on this acc i get so many 8th grade flashbacks omg it was terrible, however i miss the honeymoon ed phase sm</3

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i keep on posting once every like 27 years but had to quickly update my bio bc i'm definitely not 14 anymore💀

i still regret recovery to this day 😐

[undiagnosedlol]

damn, almost a whole year

i haven't been on here in forever. i've only been on edtwt and still suffering from a lot of shit related to eds💀

[undiagnosedlol]

well uh, hi

i am still suffering but here's a low cal pancake recipe :'D

creds to the original person!

[undiagnosedlol]

hi friends i'm still alive

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it's not even 2022 and i want to fucking d¡3....

[kanekicanteat-deactivated202301]

can y’all reblog this if you aren’t diagnosed but suffer w an ED? I feel like the only one sometimes

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STOOOPPFPOGOHKWJRKEKRK

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the only post of mine that went viral 💪😫

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so it has come to a conclusion that i went from having anorexia to bed 😐

istfg if this becomes a cycle between anorexia to bed and back to anorexia.

i'll never have a healthy relationship with food 😐i fele so invalid

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it hasn't even been a year since i made this account but i know damn well my first posts are fucking cringey and embarrassing💀

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just changed my whole layout aesthetic wassup😀

[clustcrhug-deactivated20220301]

whos gonna tell some of yall that body dysmorphia isnt just about thinking you're fat. it's more to do with an unstable self image. i feel like i'm skinny after i starve and then feel like i've gained 30 lbs after looking in the general direction of an oreo. the dysmorphia doesn't go away because i think i'm skinny sometimes, that is STILL dysmorphia

[undiagnosedlol]

!!!!!!

there's times where I don't even know what I look like. Do I look 80lbs or 180lbs?

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STOP

I'VE BEEN SEEING NOTHING BUT 222, 333, AND 444 TF