i am an artist (please god forgive me)

lux + adult + self taught digital artist + follows and likes from: @2amtechnicolor

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pinned under construction

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Must be the Season of the Witch...

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2020 - 2021 - 2022 - 2023

Happy Halloween!!

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BIG DAY FOR ANNOYING PEOPLE (ME) 💚💛❤

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refreshing an oc design

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Hi everyone.

As many of you may have noticed, it's been really hard for me to post for the past couple months.

Unfortunately I'm dealing with a bunch of health issues, mainly revolving around me sleeping. I am pursuing a diagnosis for narcolepsy.

I sleep way too much, sometimes up to 15 hours a day. I have trouble focusing, staying awake, or even just standing for long periods of times. It's really frustrating and it honestly makes me so angry at myself. It feels like my body is deteriorating, like I'm on a time limit to get things I want done.

My sleep isn't restful, and then I feel like I have to cram two days worth of productivity in the few hours I'm awake and alert. It's not even part of the "your worth is your productivity" grind of capitalist society; I can't even get done things that I want to do. It's a physical effort to just get out of bed in the morning.

It's not like when I dealt with my depression. With my depression I could think my way out. With my chronic exhaustion, I can't think my way out to a different body.

My dream is to be an artist and to be able to communicate through my art. I want to tell stories and connect with others through my art. But I can't make art right now, and that's the part that makes me frustrated to tears.

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Ok I have decided that I don't have the stamina for an october drawing challenge I am going to start #REPOSTOBER where I just repost old art that I like every day 💁‍♀️ JOIN ME IF YOUR DARE 🎃

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working on a third life thing. have some grians. 💚💛❤️

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09/20/2023

i shine only with the light you gave me

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9/02/23

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7/31/2023

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long time no see!! my energy levels have been up and down recently but i'll try to be more consistent. i'm doing traditional sketching again too! i like to do my coloring with crayons because there's less pressure on it being perfect.

my goal this week is to post on all my main socials everyday. i often have trouble posting because i doubt anyone wants to hear what i have to say or wants to see my art. but i can't gain confidence if i don't keep posting. it's the same as learning a new language, it's a skill you have to practice.

reading: grandmaster of demonic cultivation volume 5

watching: strawberry shortcake (2003)

listening: 88ミ☆ - wonderlands x showtime

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お久しぶり！先週、あたしのエネルギーは上がったり下がったりでした。ポストを堅実にしようとする。えんぴつと紙を絵を書くの返った。クレヨンも使うので完璧にしての圧力下った。

今週の目的は「毎日にｓｍｓへポストをする」。

。。。ああ。。。後で終わる。眠たい。

読んだ：茂田尾寿司5本

見た：ストローブレショートケーキ(2003)

聞きた：88ミ☆ - ワンダーランドウォーズｘショータイム

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P-chan: You really can't draw…unless someone appreciates your art? raincandy enanan: more than the sweet release of death, i crave the sweet sweet follower count increase…

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07/25/2023

daily doodle・今日のrkgk

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今日、働こうとするでも、３も時が眠た。あたしの眠るのに関して医者が電話をするの待っている。眠る試験が予定をしなくてはいきない。

日本語を読むのもっと色々勉強品が見つけたい。n5/n4の読書の大半は新聞の記事。つまらない。流行とアニメとなどを読みたい。

また、n4の練習問題がした。15の中に７は正しかった。読むは聞くともっと練習をしなくてはいきない。

読んだ：魔道祖师5本（蓝忘机のような彼氏はどこ？！ピエンピエン）

見た：ZOM100

聞いた：Dancing Ghost's Ball-Jointed Darling ー Mili

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Today, I tried my best to be productive but I still ended up taking 3 or so naps. I'm still waiting for my sleep doctor to call me back to schedule my sleep study.

I'm looking for more material for japanese reading practice. Most "N5/N4" dedicated collections are news articles which I find boring. I'd like to read about fashion and anime and trends and such.

Also, I did the N4 practice questions today. I got 7 out of 15 right. I really need to work on my reading and listening comprehension.

Reading: Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation Vol. 5 (WHERE CAN I FIND SOMEONE LIKE LAN WANGJI??? i am crying on the floor)

Watching: ZOM100

Listening: Dancing Ghost's Ball-Jointed Darling by Mili

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Daily Doodle・今日のrkgk

7/24/2023

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大会の回復の日！眠て過ぎた。でも、またに日本語が勉強をするの来た。明日、あたしはまた絵が書いての始まる。明日に椋原一威さんのｍｖ「cat」が封切りをするのそうして、午前6時に起きるつもり。

見て：ZOM100

読んで：よつばと！

聞けて：「オーダーメイド」－leo/need

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Con recovery day! I slept way too much. But, I'm still continuing to studying Japanese. I'll start drawing again tomorrow. Kazui's MV premieres tomorrow so I'm waking up at 6am.

Watching: ZOM100

Reading: Yotsuba&!

Listening: Order Made - Leo/Need

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07/21/2023

Listening: Speak Now (Taylor's Version)

Playing: Persona 3 Portable

Watching: Artist Alley Booths with heart eyes <3