fairydust.unicorn.you

let me escape. let my whispers be heard.let me lose myself. let me find my way.

[findingwordsforthoughts]

“fire. you are a child of sun. you are never still, you dance, dance, dance your way through life and love and people and baby, do you even remember what it’s like to stand still? you’ve never held someone’s hand without tapping your fingers on their knuckles; you’ve never kissed with your eyes closed and you can’t sleep in an embrace because it feels like a cage. you are a child of sun. bright, burning bright, brilliant. but baby, you need to understand that stillness isn’t death. and love does not love to be chased. earth. you are the one everyone counts on. you are the pillar, the calm one, the one who holds hands and offers shoulders and darling, have you ever held someone’s hand without it feeling like a burden? have you ever leaned on a shoulder? have you ever opened your eyes during a kiss? you think life is about reason and logic, but tell me - how do you measure the feeling inside your belly when you wake up next to the love of your life for the first time? how do you apply logic to love? tell me, how will you soar, if you refuse to fly? air. you were born feet first and since then you’ve done things your way. you are the one wearing mismatched socks, the one whose keys are always lost, the one with 20 missed calls. your head is in the clouds, but baby, your feet have never touched the ground. it’s awfully lonely up there, inside your head. freedom must feel like a noose around your neck some days. the thing about having wings is - it makes it hard for people to give you a hug, it makes it hard for them to even keep up. you think you are weightless, but darling you are weight-of-the-world on your shoulders, no one to help you out - no human contact. water. you are vastness. you are oceans and broken mountains and wildfires put to sleep. you are beautiful and magical and terrifying, so terrifying. you seem endless, you see, endless joy and sadness, and it’s so easy for them to drown in you, drown and disappear and baby - you wouldn’t even notice. you are your own world. your own battle. you change people in half and don’t see it as breaking. they fall asleep with a summer shower, and wake up next to a hurricane.”

— marina v., aether, pt.1

[blossomfully]

“What happens to our promises now?“ she said. "The future that we created in our heads? Where does it go? Do we end up living it with other people? Skewed versions of each other? Or does it just disappear? Does it fade away, as history? Does it become nothing? All of our hopes and dreams. Do they die just like that or do they stay in us forever?”

— Sue Zhao

[grumpytrans]

today we let ourselves grow and change instead of going back to what's easiest

[wordsnquotes-net]

[intrainingdoc]

Resident Wellness is a Lie (Part 1 of 3)

When I took a job as a residency coordinator in graduate medical education at a local community hospital, I made myself a promise: I will not date a resident. They’re too busy, we work together, and we have nothing in common.

“It is exquisitely painful to watch the person you love get broken by their job, destroyed by the thing they once loved.”

Residency coordinator Jennifer R. Bernstein of The New Inquiry writes for in-House about watching her partner, a resident physician, struggle with burnout during residency, and why ideas of ‘wellness’ and ‘resiliency’ must be dismantled.

http://in-housestaff.org/resident-wellness-is-a-lie-part-1-1319

[humanitymed]

“If the modern age is the age of interiority, then perhaps we have gone too far in locating the sources of our unhappiness in our own minds.“

YES, I love this, thank you.

[appalachiananarchist]

If we are to heal medical education, we might start by affirming what wellness is not. Wellness is not a yoga class, or a coffee cart or a meditation practice. To be well is not such low-hanging fruit. If the modern age is the age of interiority, then perhaps we have gone too far in locating the sources of our unhappiness in our own minds. Practices like mindfulness and gratitude and other forms of yuppie “self-care” are generally benign unless and until they obscure the material causes of people’s suffering. No amount of meditation will compensate for not having nutritious food to eat, time to sleep or emotional bandwidth to spend on one’s loved ones. Insofar as scientists have studied happiness, most notably in the Harvard longitudinal study, they have identified interpersonal connection as the sine qua non of fulfillment. But how are you supposed to connect with your friends, partner, family, if you can’t stay awake long enough to hold a conversation?

That is one of the best articulated paragraphs on this issue I have ever read. 

Later in the article she talks about a resident who left surgery to vomit and returned to get yelled at. I witnessed the exact same thing. My chief on gen surg got horribly sick. The poor man looked like a walking corpse, pale as a ghost and trembling when he moved his hands. He could not take any time off so he kept showing up to the operations. He would scrub in, last about 15 minutes, and then scrub out to vomit. He eventually walked himself to the ED to get IV fluids and then walked back upstairs to finish rounds.

[mymedlife]

While wellness may not be a coffee cart, my hospital no longer provides food in the doctors lounge and we no longer get coffee and bagels at division meetings. I am definitely less well without those things.

[sixwordssayitall]

“I was sure of two things: the sun would rise tomorrow and I would love you just as deeply the next day.”

— @sixwordssayitall

[sixwordssayitall]

IG: sixwordssayitall

[luniapoetry]

“Goodbye has never been a strong suit of mine. Perhaps that is why the universe continues to make me say it. I haven’t yet learned how to let go.”

—just another disappointment (1/11/19)

[blackkpromqueen]

[wordsnquotes]

“I’m never gonna wait that extra twenty minutes to text you back, and I’m never gonna play hard to get when I know your life has been hard enough already. When we all know everyone’s life has been hard enough already it’s hard to watch the game we make of love, like everyone’s playing checkers with their scars, saying checkmate whenever they get out without a broken heart. Just to be clear I don’t want to get out without a broken heart. I intend to leave this life so shattered there’s gonna have to be a thousand separate heavens for all of my flying parts.”

— Andrea Gibson

[thelovewhisperer]

It’s funny how when you finally get over someone, you start seeing them in a whole new perspective. It’s like you’re looking at them through the eyes of your best friend, and you realize, he’s nothing special. He’s just another ordinary boy.

Quotes from The Love Whisperer Blog (via thelovewhisperer)

[thoughtsintorhymes]

she said, ‘love is when i look at you and my heart does that thing it does - you know the one? where it speeds up for a split second. just a second. and then it’s calm. everything is calm. i don’t think my heart has ever beat as steadily as it does when i’m with you. and see, my bones are brittle, but you hold me and i feel stronger than ever. my lungs are weak but you let me breathe. my head is full of fog but my thoughts are never as clear as they are when i’m thinking of you. love is the way you hold my hand and i know, without a doubt, that everything is going to be fine.’

love is // r.e.s (via thoughtsintorhymes)

[thelovewhisperer]

I’m not the silly romantic you think. I don’t want the heavens or the shooting stars. I don’t want gemstones or gold. I have those things already. I want a steady hand. A kind soul. I want to fall asleep, and wake, knowing my heart is safe. I want to love, and be loved. — Shana Abe

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[wnq-writers]

I am made of magic and stardust, I deserve someone made of the same stuff.

jennhopkinsart (via wnq-writers)

[fyp-science]

I’m against ignorance. I’m against sloppy, emotional thinking. I’m against fashionable thinking. I am against the whole cliché of the moment.

Herman Kahn (via fyp-science)

[wordsnquotes]

I promise to plant kisses like seeds on your body, so in time you can grow to love yourself as I love you.

Tyler Knott Gregson (via wordsnquotes)

[findingwordsforthoughts]

sometimes you can just tell, you can tell that something’s changed, something imperceptible has shifted out of place, and what you were - how you fit together is forever altered. and sometimes it hurts in a way you can’t quite explain, it hurts more than an argument, more than leaving the house angry at 3am, more than packed bags and empty bottles of wine. it hurts because there’s no one to blame, there’s nothing to trace back, there is nothing to regret. sometimes things end without fanfare, sometimes it’s as simple as knowing that their eyes no longer light up when they see you smile. and sometimes it’s knowing that they love you enough to stay, despite that. sometimes love hurts more than hurt itself. sometimes you fall asleep, and in the morning find the world a changed place. but for the life of you - you can’t pinpoint the change. and sometimes that drives you mad, and sometimes it drives them away.

marina v., quiet endings. (via findingwordsforthoughts)

[findingwordsforthoughts]

we haven’t met yet and i wonder: what you are doing right now if you, too, are making mistakes trying to pass the time.

marina v., letter to my future partner in life. (via findingwordsforthoughts)