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Question # 181

If you could have a clone to help you out when life gets busy, would you want one?

If I could have clone for when life gets busy I think I definitely would want. It would be excellent if I could have a clone of me to do things I don't want to do like laundry, clean dishes and run errands or even go to work for me. I think I might be a bit bored and that might bring up some of my control issues but I think largely it would be very helpful for me. I could get more sleep, possibly learn to relax a bit, spend more time with my daughter and or even possibly get a break, go on a date with my husband. I could probably use the time to think or even just be. I think about how my days start and how they end and they are so packed with things. 

I wake up as early as I can, I have shower and get ready for the day, pump breast milk, make my coffee, start breakfast for susu and me. Get her up, feed her, clean her up, clean the kitchen and the house, start any laundry that needs to get done, check methodist at work, work on any outstanding things at work, answer phone calls, set up Suhalie's toy stations, turn on Miss Rachel or Bluey so she's occupied, Get susu ready for the day, water my plants, pump again and put the milk away and get her down for a nap, which lately she seems not apt to take at all, get her up and change her in between all of this, give her snack time snacks, clean up the area and her, send her back to the toys, find time to connect with her throughout the day, eat something for lunch, clean that up, then think about dinner. ETC ETC ETC. 

The idea of not being as efficient as I am all the time is terrifying. Its scary to think about how things will get done and learning to embrace the chaos that in all likelihood might teach the people around me to be more self sufficient. Will there be a learning curve and some annoyance? For sure? I'm a first born daughter who was basically bred to be a caregiver. Giving up that role is probably one of my final bosses. But as my husband cleans up lunch and puts out the toy station after lunch. This journal is a reminder that others cannot step up and show up for me if I don't create space for it. I'm not saying I do it all the time. But I am proud of myself for letting people show up for me. 

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Lexi saves the day

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  The hug caught her completely off guard, she hadn’t remembered asking for it. The blackness of her eyes swam away like fish taking cover. The green iris shown itself once again in the sunlight. Lexi half watched half dreamed the black mist that took cover inside her once again. The mans words stuck with her, “I wouldn’t say I’m powerless…”. She felt him hold her tightly. Her eyes darted around as she heard sirens and people’s chatter below. “Thank you…” was all she could muster to say to the man. Her energy had depleted from using the power she had and she collapsed in his arms. Whatever her fate now, it was in his hands. Barely conscious, here’s eyes moved more slowly over the scene. She still wanted to move. She needed to get out of there before they found her. Who knows what else might happen. But her legs ignored her please to run so she sank deeper into the hold unable to move or speak.

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Alexei did not quite get what exactly was happening with this girl, but he wanted to make sure he did not lose track of her. She had gained his interest, which was going to prove to be very unpleasant for the other, he was sure of that. It was not every day you came across a magical being. Certainly not in Alexei’s life, so far anyway.  When the girl thanked him he pulled away and shrugged “You asked me to do that…Given the way you looked, I figured it was better than letting you jump off the building and go do something stupid.” He said, and held her just as she had collapsed “That must be some power, you can barely stand.”

Alexei smiled a bit, grateful that she seemed absolutely drained. She would be a lot easier to manage then.  With a sigh Alexei scooped the other up into his arms and started to make his way back into the building. He could hear the sirens growing closer and it was not in him to just leave a girl passed out on top of a roof. A few minutes later he was placing her on a bed in his apartment.  Lifting his left hand up he gently grabbed onto her jaw, turning her head lightly from one side to the other “Hmm. What kind of human are you?”