i prob wrote this like a week or two ago about growing to feel like i have to be independent and to feel like i have to do everything myself and that i shouldn't need or want help from others. and after writing that out lo and behold they do the same exact thing at work again. there's a person who started volunteering who is in college on the pre vet track so i showed her some things. her mom is volunteering now too. and one of the board members came over and the girl was there. and she (board member) was showing the other girl things like medical things and explaining it to her. it makes me so jealous like one person mentions that they're pre-med and they don't have to press to be shown things. ive been at this place for years and doing this job for over a year full time now and i have to press and press and beg to be shown how to do things. not even as a "im premed and want to learn" but even as like i literally need to know how to do this treatment because this rabbit needs it and nobody is showing me. i literally had to beg to learn subq fluids and then i figured the rest out by myself. i learned nebulizing by myself, i learned meds calculations by myself, i learned intake exams by myself, i learned grooming by myself, i learned bottle feeding by myself. what makes other people different from me where i have to teach myself everything and everone else seems to get guidance so easily even tho im the one who's here every day and dealing with these sick rabbits. i never got invited over to learn bottle feeding i never got an explanation of why we do certain things i never got shown how to do treatments i always have to teach myself. i just dont get it. and i'ts literally my fucking jpb why do i have to beg to be updated about vet exams and test results and important stuff like that it's not even about me at that point. i just am always being left out nobody thinks of me nobody thinks hey this is lindseys job maybe she should know or hey lindsey wants to study medicine she should know this or hey lindsey is with the rabbits every day she should be shown how to do this properly so she doesnt have to learn it through i fucking youtube video
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