What do you do when your lover fades in front of you? The person you knew slowly ceases to exist.
Do you help them? Like I tried. Despite being a shell of my former self.
Or leave them? Like I’ve been left. After admitting I’m a shell of my former self.
Their mental health and well-being is more important to me than my own, I’ll be fine, I always am in the end.
I just wasn’t enough. I wasn’t enough to rebuild their happiness. Their family is enough, the instant brightness I saw in you as we sat with them, going to separate places kinda hurt. But I also know you need that because I can’t give you that, which also hurts.
And I’m sorry. I’m sorry I’m not enough. I’m sorry I’m not what you need. I’m sorry I can’t offer what you want. I’m just sorry for my shortcomings. I’m sorry I’m a nag. I’m sorry I want attention you can’t give. I’m sorry I hurt you by hurting me. I’m sorry your happy isn’t with me. I’m sorry your healing isn’t with me. I’m sorry I tried to force it. I’m sorry it didn’t work. I’m sorry you broke. I’m sorry I did too. I’m sorry for everything. Because it’s all my fault.
