School Sux

She/her // 18 // ugw: 90lbs Not pro just trying to find a community that’ll motivate me

[4am-and-depressed]

not all too active here anymore cause i moved to edtwt but i’ll still post some things here every now and then

if you wanna follow me my @ is sk1nny_g0als and i go by Kat!

[sweetcherryslim]

Healthy Banana Bread - 137kcal/2g protein

Servings: 12 slices - 137kcal/2g protein per slice

4 bananas, about 1 ⅓ cups, mashed

1 large egg

1 Tablespoon vanilla extract

3 Tablespoons light brown sugar

2 Tablespoons granulated sugar

1 teaspoon ground cinnamon

1 teaspoon baking powder

1 teaspoon baking soda

1/2 teaspoon salt

1 1/2 cups all-purpose flour (white or white-whole wheat)

2 Tablespoons unsalted butter, melted (or substitute applesauce)

1. Grease a standard 9×5” loaf pan (I also like to line the bottom of the pan with parchment paper to make sure the loaf doesn’t stick).

2. Mash bananas in a mixing bowl. Add egg, vanilla, brown sugar, granulated sugar, and cinnamon and stir well to combine.

3. In a separate small bowl stir together flour, baking powder, baking soda and salt. Add to banana mixture and stir to combine.

4. Gently stir in melted butter. Bake at 350 degrees F. for 35-45 minutes or until a toothpick inserted into the center comes out clean.

4. Allow to cool in the pan for 5-10 few minutes before inverting onto a wire cooling rack.

[4am-and-depressed]

gonna try this soon

[4am-and-depressed]

made this crème and it was (with toppings) 191cals so not too bad. i only rly made it bc i’ve been feeling binge urges recently so this was my attempt to settle them :/

[4am-and-depressed]

Having such a bad fucking day today and I can feel the breakdown coming ✌️

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Doubt anyone in tumblr doesn’t know about this stuff, but in case you don’t fucking get these. They’re only 150 cals and have pretty good protein too!

[4am-and-depressed]

Sometimes, I think about how even when I was 10 years old I would go through phases of not eating. Then I think about how I was probably just destined for an eating disorder this whole time.

When I think of it like that, I realize that there isn’t really a reason to try and get better because I’ll always just end up back where I started.

[4am-and-depressed]

Sometimes I feel like I’ve been split

I’m taking up physical space

I can feel myself

Standing

Talking

Existing

But my body is the only reminder that I’ve been placed here

I can’t escape perception

But I wish I could

I can leave a room

But can’t take the memories of myself with me

How freeing that would be though

To disappear completely

Any affect I’ve had on this world erased

I wish I could wander the garden of stars

Simply myself as a being of consciousness

A cold stark difference to the burning flames surrounding me

Melting my skin

Disintegrating my touch

Leaving not a grain of myself left

To wish for something so impossible is to find comfort in my isolation

[4am-and-depressed]

Going out to the beach this Friday with some friends so I’ve got less than a week to lose 10 pounds

[4am-and-depressed]

Once I get a small waist, sharp jawline, toned stomach, thigh gap, ribs that show, protruding collarbone, and overall slender frame, it’s over for all you bitches

[4am-and-depressed]

Ate too much yesterday and let myself have some chips so I’m just gonna fast today to make up for it

[4am-and-depressed]

Just accidentally fasted for 16 hours slayyy

[4am-and-depressed]

went to my sisters art exhibits today and even though there was loads of food and a bunch of desserts (plus i only really ate breakfast today) i didn’t eat anything except a few pieces of fruit! what surprised me though was that i didn’t really WANT anything, like no cravings whatsoever

[4am-and-depressed]

this was me this morning????? idk how i’m losing weight so fast but i’m not gonna complain

[lanaknowsitried0]

lol yep <33

[4am-and-depressed]

slayyyy

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Went to go try on prom dresses yesterday and I looked so fucking fat in all of them

[mariedouceur]

tumblr is like dark web but for teenage girls

[4am-and-depressed]

Bitches with ed are just people who crave external validation