quinn🦇

least normal fan of anything

[4eyedecker]

my mom and brother wete joking about my brother living at home until hes like 30 and my mom was like “we’d all get sick of each other at some point” and my brother said something but i didn’t hear it but it was about my dad being mean to him and it must’ve been intense because my mom was like shocked. and she was like quiet and then like “you know he means well….” and my brother was like “i dont want to do this rigjt now” so my mom dropped it but she obviously couldn’t stop thinking aboht it and later in rhe car ride she turned around and she was like “you know he just wants the best for you okay?” and my brother was like “yeah whatever” and then later in the evening it was just me and my mom and she started brought it up again and said something like “i feel so bad he’s so mean to him, i feel like it’s my fault because he’s so much like me” “and im worried sometime it might be too much for max” and i jokingly said they should just go to therapy and my mom said “your dad would never go to therapy” and she explained rhat he is okay with it for other people but not himself and i told her about how at my first therapy appointment i told my therapist one thing that would make my house hold better would be if my dad went to therapy or worked on anger management and i also ALMOST told my mom i think my dad is autistic but i didnt bc i didnt have time to explain it all and that is definitely too much to drop on my mom in a 4 min car ride. but yeah just a lot going on and then my dad was yelling at me and my brother and i just yeah i don’t want to talk about it anymore but i feel so bad for my brother all the time

especially because my dad is like my favorite person.

[mashkdemss]

Someone help Michelle, I think we're losing her

[4eyedecker]

this lyric is so simple but so important to me. as the song describes the missing the simplicity of childhood it says this line which i feel like even though is melancholic, describes my childhood perfectly as i was an extremely anxious kid who always worried about how i made others feel. i would stay up late ridden with anxiety writing my parents notes to show how much i love them. but i also feel like this lyric could be interpreted as seeing how you change as you grow up, (as the previous lyric to this line is “trying not to think of all the ways my mind has changed”) and i relate to that a lot as a teenager who doesn’t always act how i feel, and can be selfish, but still loves my parents nevertheless.

tl;dr: girlpool writes a simple yet powerful lyric in which i relate to on many different levels

[4eyedecker]

Hikaru Indou -> Will Byers

Yoshiki Tsujinaka -> Mike Wheeler

[bylrlvr]

i’ve played these games before

rare aesthetic: closeted gay men mourn for their lost potential with the love of their lives

[deqncas]

them doing this because connor said he couldnt see hudson because of the too many flashes. they're so cute i feel sick to my stomach

[4eyedecker]

i love you so much i dont know what to do with it

[hymnism]

making a collection

[putridghost]

Wait I have more

[acemingo]

[4eyedecker]

i feel like an alien pretending to be a girl

[folsaeure]

intimacy and violence (between men) on our screens. the Terror (2018). Frontier (2017). GCW Homecoming (2022).

ID: once again thinking about intimacy between men being more of a taboo than direct and grotesque violence.

I can watch a show with queer characters who's intimacy is entirely off screen - but I'll see the brutal punishment one of them gets for it in its entirety.

I can watch a series that show's me sliced throats, smashed heads and sexual assault of women - but won't show me a direct kiss between two male lovers.

I can watch a staged fight that uses real violence - and see more outrage against the actors homoeroticism than their brutality.¹

It's not that i wanna see them fuck onscreen so badly, and I actually love the creativity of an indirect kiss, I even enjoy violence in my media to some degree - but nothing exists in a vacuum and I cannot ignore what they decide to show and hide.

Especially when it's literally spelt out for us, like censoring a simple kiss on another mans temple for a "family friendly" cut.

¹ the outrage over deathmatch wrestlings brutality is ridiculous too, but in this case specifically it was quite telling that ive seen more homophobic complaints than the usual issues people have with this form of art.

[yorkshirearthurdent]

They should block chatgpt on uni WiFi the way they used to block coolmathgames

[beyond-a-name]

they should make chatgpt automatically redirect to coolmathgames so you can actually fucking learn something

[feluka]

youre never alone. bacteria

[npdbenrey]

experimenting

[ghostofkathrine]

Bat vase by Richard Freiwald

[4eyedecker]

I wish i knew what i wanted and i wish i could just talk to her and i wish things would work out and i feel so dumb because to everyone else it looks like it should be obvious but its really not i just dont fucking know its si bad

things i know:

She’s really pretty

Shes the only person i talk to somedays

She understands me like no one else

I feel like I dont need to hide stuff from her

I think about her 65% of the time

There was a week or so where I thought about her 90% of the time

I dont want her to move on from me

I have no idea what that says about my feelings (and it feels so selfish saying it like that, i swear there’s more too all of that)

I want to know her for the rest of my life

Ive been wondering if I like her romantically or platonically since the start, but I do that with most new friendships

I almost told her i liked her (when i couldnt stop thinking about her)

And then I thought about if I actually liked her or I just liked the idea of liking her

And then i got anxious and now i second guess everything

Im tearing her apart by dragging this on

But its so hard for me because Im scared of what my answers can change for us

Because its all just too fast for me so Im worried I dont like her right now but later on I will and that’ll just cause issues

We have 80% of the same intrests

Shes the second closest Ive felt with anyone

First place was not good, and bad to base off of for how to go about this

But its all I know

[theplagueratt]

He's the bear!

[at-the-end-of-all]

thinking about this post but i actually change my mind cause i had a way better idea for remus to be the good girl led astray by sirius, the priests rebellious daughter. and they should go to catholic school together. and remus thinks she’s a monster for being queer (maybe she’s also trans here) and lies and prays and lies and prays constantly

[at-the-end-of-all]

i do want to write this but i don’t really have the time or energy atm and knowing me i may never get around to it so i will just leave this here.

creds where i could find them:

?? // ?? // 78fahrenheit (demo) - tommy // Take Me To Church - Hozier // De Profundis - Oscar Wilde // ?? // Tweet by sainticide // ?? // American Artifacts - Phil Bergerson

[at-the-end-of-all]

eating them for breakfast

the vibes of the playlist might seem a little off but it makes sense to my brain trust