Isn't it too dreamy?

"I get paranoid sometimes and i'm convinced everybody hates me. My therapist says I have social anxiety. I think i'm just smart enough to know the face of human nature is so horrifyingly ugly."

[loveisabuse-deactivated20230724]

i love remembering those times when ppl used to tell me "it gets better i promise!!" but little did they know i have a personality disorder and it would in fact not get better , and would actually get worse with time (because i was not getting any treatment for it)

i always would think WHY it was never getting better , because i just thought the problem was depression , and that it would pass

recovery is possible , but with a personality disorder it's a constant uphill battle and not something that's going to just go away . it takes years and years , and even then it's still possible to slip back into those patterns

[4nthrop0phobia]

started therapy again and found out that I have not one, but two personality disorders. Turns out that my social anxiety isn’t just social anxiety but avoidant personality disorder. So now I got borderline and this. Add depression on top of that and that’s me. Anyone else with this mixture of personality disorders? lol

[4nthrop0phobia]

just came back from the worst bpd episode I’ve ever had. made some terrible decisions while my head wasn’t clear and now that I look back at it I feel like I wasn’t even myself and everything feels like a dream/movie. I’m lucky that the people around me are very supportive and understanding but I realized that I need help again immediately... untreated bpd really sucks and can destroy everything

[enmiljontystnader]

[anxiety-ghoul]

me: haha damn, i didn’t cut myself in months, might as well never do it again :) my arms one week later:

[theirdelusion-deactivated202106]

[fagbat]

That psychosis feel when the ground feels wavy and it feels like youre sinkin everytime u step down and going way up everytime you lift your foot up so youre getting motion sickness from walking

[schattenxdesxlichts]

[bowel-m0vement]

[diphyllia-grayi]

there is a point in your depression where you just give up on getting better but you still won’t kill yourself. you just float around in this state of nothingness and don’t notice anything around you because you’re just so numb and you just don’t want to do anything about it anymore

[dark-soul9]

stuck between overemotional and emotionless at the same time

[disabled-and-neurodivergent-dea]

Here's a thought: if you're not a medical professional or a fellow disabled/chronically ill person, don't give me medical advice! I don't want it and don't need it!

[anxietyproblem]

[liz-cat-meow-deactivated2020011]

[toadallybpd]

healthy coping mechanism are so boring like bitch I don’t want to color I want to do drugs

[omfgiamsofuckedup]

It didn’t make me stronger, it made me suicidal.

[godshideouscreation]

*spends so much time disassociating i have no idea what’s going on*