I have no psychological disorder thing, you could say these "voices" are my imaginary friends, but that sounds really lame so yeah voices. It started in 2nd grade (sorry for sudden backstory) and I didn't have many friends, I envisioned a character that probably any 2nd grade girl would of wanted to become, and I kinda just let her do things I would do if I could do anything in the world. then it multiplied until I now have over 50 voices in my head, each being people I would of wanted as a friend. For years I have wanted to share these things without people thinking I'm crazy, so yay blog! thanks to imgurian LetTheDarknessDrainYou for giving me the idea of making this blog.
surprisingly more people know about the people in my head, It's weird cause I would of never thought people would know about them when I was in 2nd grade, well look now my sister knows some of them by name and my mom even jokes about them. I have a couple drawings so when I have the time I will share them
I haven't made another post in a while (jeez i'm not good at this blogging thing) I've noticed that the people in my head have become more prominent in my daily life now that I have actually told some of my family members and friends about them, they still continue to multiply and I've become better at drawing them. Maybe if a picture tuns out well I'll post it here
so I was gonna start blogging sooner but I realized that I did not have batteries for my keyboard, then when I got batteries for my keyboard, I forgot the password to this account, and when I tried to reset my password for this account I forgot my password to the email account I'm using for this account... so it was a bit crazy
I keep forgetting to do this blog thing well I promised to tell you about my dreams so here's the oddest one yet:
There's this movie by Gorro Miasaki (hopefully I spelled that right) and he made this movie called Tales to Earthsea (something like that)
there is one part with a bunch of shops and merchants and there's a sea port and a really pretty fountain, I had those exact images in my dream down to the cracks on the walls 1 month before I watched the movie or even knew of its existence. I have other kind of lucid dreams, and really awesome dreams that I will share later (if i even remember)
i have been quite sick/busy so i could not make a blog this week... or last week, sorry to my 1 follower. anyways I'll talk about dreams, they mean a lot to me because if I see any of my voices in it they have their own free will since I can't control most things in my dreams. sometimes my dreams predict things i would see in the future but I'll get to that this weekend
The other night was very exciting! I had a dream with the first 3 people that are in my head! They acted like I imagined them to and everything, I have been waiting for this moment for 7-8 years!
one of my favorite things to think about is what would life be like in my "dimension" so far i have created my own species of plant life in my mind and i am working on animal life. Plants are cool, I drew some in my sketch book, maybe if i'm not lazy I'll share them on here.
Last night I had a dream, It flashed back to a bunch of dinosaurs eating people and i was one of the dinosaurs. now the dream was present time and the dinosaurs were like "hey don't be a loser come over this year and we will attack another village" and apparently this was a yearly event so anyways I had to print something and that's why I couldn't go because the god damn printer would not print. It was just so stressful the other dinosaurs were making fun of me...
story started, so far it's depressing maybe I'll post part of it later for now I will tell you about some of the voices. Let's see one of my favorites that suddenly appeared in my dreams one day was Brandon, he would be me as a guy. He's a little shit and likes to cross dress, when I told my friends, I thought they would think it's weird but they were totally into it. My friends even made their own (as we like to call them) genderbends. now all of them just kind of swim in my head being little assholes like the rest of my voices.
I have an idea, I'm going to make my friends cry... about a rock. I have a knack for writing and I made my friends quite upset about a different short story. I'm going to make the rock the main part of the story then BOOM SAD FEELS I'll update if it was successful or not
lately one of the people in my head started developing a mind of his own, once when I wanted something to happen he walked out and was like "no no no I'm done with this shit" and I couldn't think properly for the rest of that night. He randomly appears and tends to just say things, he's a nice person though it's just weird...
coloring my drawings will take longer than expected sorry for inconvenience. Last weekend I was talking with my dad (I have no clue what sparked this conversation at all) but it made me realize how related I am to him here's the story my dad told (told in dad perspective)
at a fraternity party we were told to get white shirts and to get pens and to write things on them, some things were mellow. one one girl's shirt I wrote "all you can eat $2"
I then yelled "that's how I got my dirty mind!" and freaked out cause I would totally do that to someone
I was going to post some more photos but it takes so much time to get them on my computer so I'll post it tomorrow. Let's see I told my parents about that dream I had and they kept making allstate jokes. They would constantly ask me "are you in good hands?" I don't know what to post about anymore, since I'm posting the art tomorrow I guess I'll color it in.
basically it was a pretty awesome dream, it was about rune factory 4 and I was my character from it. (i would like to make a note that I get really into character when playing rune factory 4 so I will call people "my wife" "my two wonderful children" "my boyfriend" etc so yeaah that's the kind of person I am) anyways, a certain cute little shit was making me happy and I was having an awesome dream cause usually when I dream about a person I want to dream about, they appear for 1 second and leave. Then when the adorable person got mad at me cause of reasons BOOM ALLSTATE COMMERCIAL IN MY DREAM so allstate sponsors my dreams so i know i get covered when a large monster is about to eat me yay?
so heres one person that's in my head, I named her after Shara from rune factory 3 it's a fitting name for her and it's memorable. She's like a person who makes plants go crazy and destroys things with them (childish I know I was 8 when I made this person and I lover her so shut up) a better description would be she's like a water bender but with plants... does that help? This is 1 of 2 accurate drawings I have made of the people from my head so yeah I'm pretty proud of it!
well now I guess I should talk about the voices, I know all of their names and what they look like and stuff. Some of them were created in my head cause I was bored or I dreamt (<<<whhh that word) about them, sometimes I imagine a character from a book and I like them so much I just keep them in my head. They're quite entertaining. I've tried on multiple occasions to draw them but most of the time they just don't come out right like small things that only I would notice, bugs the crap out of me.
I don't know what to do for the first post of this blog so I guess I'll just describe myself. I'm the kind of person who would be described as a smart ass with a dirty mind. I like videogames and anime, and I would have to say it weirds me out that people have a different way of imagining people like how they're described in a book. Like if i were to say a person had blue hair and gold eyes, would you think of it as an anime character? an actual person? now im getting deep in thought so I'll end this post here