omw onto idk

Wrapping up a bachelor's in music, figuring out how I'm gonna make the world better with it. 😅✌🏽️🇺🇸🇧🇷

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{32}

I was in the gym for 15 minutes before I remembered I had a peer review due, so I dragged my feet through that, and now I can’t decide if I should work out more or stay in homework mode. My class was cancelled so I can get some stuff done while the sun is out, which is nice. I want to sleep well. So I have to write a final draft, finish my reading response... Also need to catch up on late reflection papers. >.< I’m feeling really... inept... but I gotta do what I gotta do!!!! Basically a month until I’m taking pictures in my cap and gown around campus. wooooooooooooooo

[60daystillgraduation]

{40}

Omg the time flies. It's late af and I've got so much on my plate but it feels familiar and I feel capable. I do need to sleep tho!!! I should remember that... On... Thursday... Lol

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4:36 a.m. I’m on my conclusion omg omggggg 

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{43}

1:23 a.m.

I paid rent for this apartment for the last time.  I made a payment on my credit card bill.  I had an amazing sushi dinner with good company.  I worked out yday morning for the first time in a while.  I got lotion and chapstick that actually work!!

I need to stay positive!!! I didn’t make as much progress as I wanted. Having a fucked-up sleep schedule means I never feel 100% clear and ready to tackle what I need to do. And it’s late right now and I’m frustrated but I need to accept one more night of toiling before I can try to reset tomorrow. :( I’m GOING to submit this paper tonight..... or “today.” 

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Whenever I’m writing anything academic, I always have thesaurus.com open, and I find it sooo helpful -- not so much for fluffing up with unusual vocabulary, but for finding what I actually want to say. Idk I have a lot of trouble writing, but popping in a word to approximate and then scanning a bunch of related words seems to speed up my process. 

e.g. I wanted to say something like “she creates a method” but not rly “creates” but puts together so I searched and found “organize” which seemed more fitting.

Also, of course, useful to keep from using the same specific words too many times. 

[stopyogatime-blog]

For those who have an intense urge for Spirit and wisdom, it sits near them, waiting.

― Patanjali (via stopyogatime)

[60daystillgraduation]

{44}

It's 3:35am but my sleep schedule is a mess! I almost want to get up and read more. Now that I've made progress on my medieval music paper I'm like addicted to it. Trying extremely hard to think about *one thing at a time* bc there's so much else to do. There is only one of me though. And that's okay. Idk why I have all this energy rn

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I'm gonna rename this blog and start over lol. I made good progress on a daunting assignment and that was good. School isn't gonna squash me anymore!! I'm going to do lots of work this weekend and reset and work out and cook for myself!! Only 44 days until I wear a cap and gown again. Omfgggg!!!

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[3/60] Showed up to work & put in my hours, so that’s lit. Also did a small assignment, cooked an easy dinner, stopped by an interesting show on incarceration and caught up with some friends, then stopped by a birthday party. So productive yet I find myself at 5am literally cringing over microscopic facets of experience. Getting drunker and doing some nasty dancing woulda been way better for me than hazy chitchat about my boring ass school life, but there’s always tomorrow, right? 😒

P.s. Avocado pudding still untouched and cookies brownies have found their sneaky ways into my life!!!! I can’t resist fate haha romantic way of saying I can’t resist temptation P.s. 2.0 I wonder if I'm depressed

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March 17, 2018 [2/60] Technically it's 2am the next day but I'll allow it. I went to class, talked to my professor, and then literally slept St. Patty's day away. I napped like... almost 12hrs tbh!! Anyway, I obviously did no work but I took a little time to plan out my work for the weekend.. Lots to do between school and work but I'm looking forward to a talk on socialism tmrw night, as well as an event at a bar and my friend's birthday. I hope I can sleep just a bit now, wake up early, be productive af and have a full, great day. Aaa what to wear?? 😍😋 Having done laundry is the best ok I love myself & need to sleep✌🏽️ P.s. zero interest in yday's chocolate pudding, I think cocoa powder & sugar are not enough to disguise avocado's.. nasty..... euughh the one fruit that I hate 💩😹

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March 16, 2015 [1/60] I started trying again today. Went to therapy, my fav food truck, then class.. Talked to my professor, sent a difficult email to another, grocery shopped... Worked out while I did my laundry, and tried making some avocado chocolate pudding which is now in my freezer?? I winged that recipe, but despite the sugar I added, it'll definitely be a healthier treat than late-night coffee and brownies I've been binging on. 😶 Only had one cup of coffee today!! Refreshing to see how much I can get done on my first day "back" Time for a salad and tomorrow's homework. Last night I went to bed around 3am so I'm shooting to push that back tonight.