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luca, 26, he/them queer + autistic artist, header by @feliville

[6edbuge]

I drew a darkner version of minnow ;w; he's very similar in design, but I tried to make him colours more “dusty” and fur fluffier, cos he's a dust bunny

[yakowo]

commission for @6edbuge

[6edbuge]

hi, ive decided tht im taking a break from art

for the past few years, creating art has slowly become smth i hate more and more. not all of it, i still deeply love my ocs, creating fanart, & thinking abt my ideas for hours on end every day. which is why this break is not going to be easy. im genuinely devastated tht im missing art fight for the first time in 5 years

but what ive realised is that i treat art like smth i have to solve and put a painful amount of pressure on myself. im in this cycle of i miss drawing, i try to draw, it doesnt feel right, i get upset. frustration has become associated with art itself, and then the next time i draw im tense and upset before ive even drawn a circle. theres no pushing through this. i genuinely need to stop drawing because its so painful.

the reason i havent made this decision yet despite this building for years is because taking a break feels like failure. but every drawing i make also feels like failure. im never winning and im emotionally defeated.

i dont know how long the break will last. i desperately hope i can draw for fun and enjoyment again as soon as possible. but im not abandoning my blog, i still have ideas i want to share, just not through drawing right now. ive recently found a love for writing, and i know thts not what any1 came here for, but it would be cool if at least a couple ppl would stick around to see what i can do. ive written some things tht i loved the process of and loved the result. for the first time in years i feel like im ready to pursue something else

thanks for reading if u did, ily!

[molabuddy]

comm for @6edbuge !!! :D

[6edbuge]

I hate my garbage fucking art im so close to deleting my account there is nothing worth keeping or sharing. Why is learning so hard and frustrating and difficult, ihate drawing i hate not being able to produce anything worthwhile or good or pleasing, i want to be better so bad, i want to feel proud of something. Ivve been drawing all my life and this is all i can do. I feel so uncomfortable trying to sell my art i feel like im trying to scam people but i have no other wwy of making money rn

[6edbuge]

i feel so stupid for trying to learn cos i dont get any of it, i dont know what shapes look good i dont know how perspective works i dont know how to fucking draw. i feel so stupid and useless. can i just be good at one thing. one thing ive spent my entire life practising. im too stubborn, art barely makes me happy id be better off without it. i just wantto delete it all and move on and be happy, but i wont, because it cant all be for nothing

[6edbuge]

I hate my garbage fucking art im so close to deleting my account there is nothing worth keeping or sharing. Why is learning so hard and frustrating and difficult, ihate drawing i hate not being able to produce anything worthwhile or good or pleasing, i want to be better so bad, i want to feel proud of something. Ivve been drawing all my life and this is all i can do. I feel so uncomfortable trying to sell my art i feel like im trying to scam people but i have no other wwy of making money rn

[skunkes]

some chibis ive done so far

[6edbuge]

lineup of @feliville's main cast from his upcoming comic!! lovlov love them so much <3

[6edbuge]

you are special

[6edbuge]

First try at drawing these guys :-] I feel like I need to adjust dereks outfit in future, I do not know how to draw armour I made it up as I went lmao

[feliville]

March Commissions !! 💜

( @mason-flare, @constantlag, @6edbuge, @snowbellecity, @sweethearts )

[hiilumaru]

Wiggle chibi for @6edbuge :3

[6edbuge]

Minnow's new refs!!

[6edbuge]

hi congrats on the top chop : -) im happy for you!! looks great, keep being yourself!!

:-o thank u sm, i will, i cant believe its been 4 years already, and i still admire it every single day !!

[6edbuge]

I miiight delete later but i am soo gender euphoric rn every1 look at my gorgeous gorgeous chest

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[salartmander]

Comfy cuddles 💜 Commission for the best @6edbuge!!