lilith

what uneasiness lies in being loved

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welcome to lilith's blog

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21 – she/her – n.1 megumi fan in the world – i like to write and draw, mainly (about) megumi. angst&grief&love connoisseur

masterlist incoming

my fanfic gloomy here (ongoing)

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goddamn, manchild

you act like a kid even though you stand six foot two

self-loathing poet, resident laurel canyon, know-it-all

you talk to the walls when the party gets bored of you

but i don't get bored, i just see you through

hmph

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canon x oc haters should hear me out. y/n is almost always an oc that does not have a name and lacks (mostly) a physical description by the author. you're in denial if you think the opposite 😂. yes both ocs and y/n are 90% of the time self-inserts of the author and it's okay. i am not missing out on really good fics which will likely have a decent characterization of the reader's pov just because i'm petty. skip the physical descriptions and read the oc's name as yours. you will have another x reader fic with a self-insert which will probably be better than any y/n slop.

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any time i start an anime or any tv show without the dark haired side character trope i feel coerced into doing something i don't want to do because then why the hell should i be looking forward to another episode in which that mf would have had a total of 3 mins of screen time !!!

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bought new ipad can't wait to draw on it

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So much for pretending to care about coexisting and yet gege can't stop hating Megumi lmao

i'm telling you that man hates megumi more than he hates gojo

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being a megumi fan is not for the weak.

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maki x karate

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guys i feel like megumi would either 100% be a law student or he would 100% stay the fuck away from it. part of me knows that he would not even believe in the legal system but another part of me thinks that he would fw law so much. he loves reading non-fiction and has an outstanding critical sense. (he'd definitely be influenced by tsumiki's moral compass).

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chapter 17 of gloomy is out and it is my favourite so far. it's so important to me 😭 treat it kindly

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reflections

! grief and everything associated with it.

megumi could catch a glimpse of you in each and every reflection, and not just the ones he casted upon cold stretches of water or in pieces of glass laying across asphalt – and that if you looked closely, were smeared in blood – but also in patches of light scattered like a mosaic, the mosaic of your face, and he would hate them the most, because he was slowly forgetting how to assemble the jigsaw.

in his memory, you were made of single puzzle pieces of whom he could not find the right interlock. he could still remember the exact number of your moles, but not where they dotted your skin as marbles dispersed on dry sand. the smell of your hair still lingered in his memory, but not the hidden nuances that revealed themselves only when sunlight reflected on it. and some pieces were missing altogether. for instance, he never would have believed that, someday, he would have been unable to recall the sound that your laugh made when it echoed in hollow spaces; strangely, the peculiar sighs you made when you could not inhale deeply was engraved in his brain, and it came flooding back when he caught himself doing the same.

you lived in the gestures he had observed for years and that he unconsciously made his own. the idioms that you used to say, which he adopted and naturally found their way in his discourses. the facial expressions you used to make that he mirrored, and he would pretend to be annoyed when someone pointed it out.

he grew accustomed to the dark. reflections waning as the sun sat and a new piece missing by the time it rose again. he knew the pillow would not smell like you anymore the following day. that the clothes you left on the floor lacked the warmth your body once gave them. your plants did not die, only because he watered them just to try and catch that glimpse of you doing the same.

and megumi knew that trying to grasp them would be useless. he had to come to terms with the fact that, slowly but surely, your reflection was going to slip through his fingers entirely. the puzzle was never meant to be solved. all that was going to remain was megumi, a mosaic of the people he once loved.

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gloomy

megumi fushiguro x f!OC

synopsis

from that day, she has started to see curses. they have haunted her anywhere, until nanami coincidentally saved her life and brought her back with him to jujutsu high. there, in spite of herself, she is forced to get along with someone whose mind is incomprehensible to her. however, as she starts to subdue the ghosts of her past, an impending shadow creeps closer.

or;

a curse finds its blessing.

wattpad

ao3

list of chapters

you can read up to chapter 16 on both wattpad and ao3. in the meanwhile, available chapters will be published here with variable regularity.

chapter 1, new moon; chapter 2; chapter 3; chapter 4, waxing crescent; chapter 5; chapter 6; chapter 7, first quarter; chapter 8; chapter 9; chapter 10, waxing gibbous; chapter 11; chapter 12; chapter 13; chapter 14, full moon; chapter 15; chapter 16; chapter 17; chapter 18, waning gibbous; chapter 19; chapter 20; chapter 21, last quarter; chapter 22; chapter 23; chapter 24; chapter 25, waning crescent; ???; ???; ???; epilogue, new moon.

ao3 tags

Original Character(s) × Depression × Eating Disorders × Fushiguro Megumi-centric × Fushiguro Megumi Needs a Hug × Fluff and Angst × My First Fanfic × Parental Nanami Kento × Megumi is a yearner × Underage Drinking × Forced Proximity × Other Additional Tags to Be Added × Implied/Referenced Self-Harm × Literary References & Allusions × Shibuya Incident Arc (Jujutsu Kaisen) × Mutual Pining × Symbolism × Foreshadowing × can be self insert if you squint your eyes × Not Beta Read × English Is Not The Author's First Language × Implied/Referenced Child Abuse × Death in Childbirth ×

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gloomy

megumi fushiguro x f!OC

synopsis

from that day, she has started to see curses. they have haunted her anywhere, until nanami coincidentally saved her life and brought her back with him to jujutsu high. there, in spite of herself, she is forced to get along with someone whose mind is incomprehensible to her. however, as she starts to subdue the ghosts of her past, an impending shadow creeps closer.

or;

a curse finds its blessing.

wattpad

ao3

list of chapters

you can read up to chapter 16 on both wattpad and ao3. in the meanwhile, available chapters will be published here with variable regularity.

chapter 1, new moon; chapter 2; chapter 3; chapter 4, waxing crescent; chapter 5; chapter 6; chapter 7, first quarter; chapter 8; chapter 9; chapter 10, waxing gibbous; chapter 11; chapter 12; chapter 13; chapter 14, full moon; chapter 15; chapter 16; chapter 17; chapter 18, waning gibbous; chapter 19; chapter 20; chapter 21, last quarter; chapter 22; chapter 23; chapter 24; chapter 25, waning crescent; ???; ???; ???; epilogue, new moon.

ao3 tags

Original Character(s) × Depression × Eating Disorders × Fushiguro Megumi-centric × Fushiguro Megumi Needs a Hug × Fluff and Angst × My First Fanfic × Parental Nanami Kento × Megumi is a yearner × Underage Drinking × Forced Proximity × Other Additional Tags to Be Added × Implied/Referenced Self-Harm × Literary References & Allusions × Shibuya Incident Arc (Jujutsu Kaisen) × Mutual Pining × Symbolism × Foreshadowing × can be self insert if you squint your eyes × Not Beta Read × English Is Not The Author's First Language × Implied/Referenced Child Abuse × Death in Childbirth ×

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texting bf!megumi

! suggestive, fluff at the end ^^

a/n: first attempt at smau! lmk what you think <33

a/n: i saw that one omw joke somewhere and it took me out so i had to include it but i do not remember who made it 😭

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i need megumi x grumpy!reader i am NOT calling him gumiii~

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megumi with a spine tattoo