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Today is May 2nd 2020 6:39am and I am in my moms office with music playing. While pacing the floor from a slight migraine. I had a sudden epiphany that I have to slow down and not listen down but listen up. In order I can live in established peace. Its an endless world of abundance. Love is something like slow sip of wine. I learn that from my mom

Light

Between living in light and living in the dark what do you get? Between love and care do you see it everlasting? Like a blast from the past we can put that day behind us. I have mercy for everyone. If I step that way it will be a slow easy life but with all the love and care I will only make it better. Tell your life . Tell me your fight. If you have my body that would be out of sight. If I find you just know I want you and like you. I’m confident when I come direct. If I ask a question I need your reassurance. Just know that trust will always be a love thing between you and me.

Letter to no one

No one follow me.

Yet ears hear.

I ask and I look

but never find.

People understand me but

do not find me.

Destruction is a nonexistent

Pain that never pays.

Women shell their emotions for protection.

Men do works and never wonder.

My life is a cycle but a straight line.

If lust is the reason we keep striving.

I want my love to be as strong as my communication

back and forth.

We live a life of beauty and happiness.

I want you and only you to understand me.

I can see us doing great things just you and me and our seed.

Is pravicy a thing any more?

Shits weird yo

You ever feel like you got someone watching you?

People will write more wrongs about a person than the right. I’ve put more effort in my work ethic than charging what my worth is. People have made more money off my presence than what I owe. What is the point if you just neglect the good in a person? I’m sure it’s people in this world that do no wrong but do their support outweigh their neglect? Do people constantly find a a way to be right instead of doing right by those. If I get a opportunity I bless those more than I should. My selflessness is a bottomless hell that no one refuse to understand. I keep going regardless of what people think. I fight for my life because that’s all I have. When all you can do is live and coexist what more can you do? Money is the only measure of a mans goodness in this life. Sad case but money won’t buy the balance of life. I took heed of my words and still get picked one verbally. I held my composure instead of lashing out full rage. Self control is my best asset. You rob me of that your life will be a even deeper hell than what you think exist. I am doing all the right I can. And any wrong I’ve done I ask for and work for the forgiveness that has been forgotten.

hchocolate

kushandwizdom

Her leg … the sink 😭😭😭

youngwestafricangirl23

This is all too real 😂😂😩

the1movement

😂😂😂😂

grandpaq

So this is why she was mad i didnt try anything… i was so confused 😩

supershybutpushingthroughit

Y'all don’t be understand the contortions we do to get the smooovest pussy

brothadom

Yo half us don’t even need all that 😂 we’re just happy to be in the game

greyscalesound

Real talk the I can only imagine the opportunities I’ve passed up smh can’t y'all just be straightforward?

tokillatequila-deactivated20200

Seriously why can’t you just be straightforward?

luvmangosdope

Lmao men are so clueless

greyscalesound

Its not a hint when you say THE EXACT OPPOSITE of how you feel 🙄 aggy lol

alwaysbewoke

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

pussydrippingold-deactivated201

We don’t have the luxury of being straight forward.

alwaysbewoke

and men don’t have the luxury of guessing whether or not you mean what you said because one wrong move and it’s 10yrs in rikers for attempted rape. all because we read a signal wrong. this is why i’m so glad i’m a grown ass man dating grown ass women. grown ass women know how to flirt, know how to tell you want they want, ain’t about that “hint” bullshit… fuck a grown ass woman will tell you straight up “you better come get this pussy.” hahaha.

a grown ass woman will tell you to come over and to bring a toothbrush.

a grown ass woman will tell you it’s cold outside but her mouth is warm.

a grown ass woman will tell you she’s the only thing on the menu tonight.

a grown ass woman will look you right in the eye, run her fingers across your lips and dare you NOT to kiss her.

a grown ass woman will kiss you right when you walk in like you’ve been away fighting a war for the last 10 years.

a grown ass woman will sit right on your fucking lap.

a grown ass woman will take your arm, wrap it around your waste and then back her booty right into you.

a grown ass woman will give you a glass of wine and straddle you.

she ain’t about misleading contradicting hints. she grown, she knows what she wants, go gets it and praise shanaynay for her!!

beautifuldarkkskkin-deactivated

Say it louder for the little girls in the back!!

pattythenest

Fuckin preach that shit

@luvmangosdope and @tinii1225 Take this fucking hint

barzemia

What I’ve gathered from how my friends interact with men: “No means no. Unless it means yes. And you better know the fucking difference you clueless pervert.”

banglethevisionary

@alwaysbewoke preach my nigga preach

alwaysbewoke

yea but ain’t shit changing…

wait! liking tweets and ig pics are hints now?

damn! i’m so happy to be a fucking grown ass man dealing with grown ass women.

themeninthistown

My life as a secret secret agent of my own life is pretty dope sometimes I feel like I’m unstoppable. I can’t have everything but I want to get to that point where I can share my happiness with others. I know sometimes what I do makes no sense but if it did I would probably be going in a better direction. I know my influence is positive and progressive. Yet not all of my actions are positive. I only want to be me comfortably. When I feel like I’m being challenged I feel like it’s only a test. Will I ever reap the true benefits of the life? I know one thing is for certain I am always on the upside of life. I want to be able to end poverty through culture betterment choices. If I can lead a life for those that struggle to follow. Eventually everyone will be in a good position in life. Even with the life I choose I want to make better choices. Even though my parents have their own agendas and I respect them for it. Eventually I will be the head of a household so although I’m a man I still don’t feel one with life. I know I say I do not want to have kids but that’s only because of the destiny I’m inline with. If the girl of my dreams was to walk into my life I would make sure I’m doing everything I can to keep US happy. I am a man that’s not afraid to show my emotions nor run away from something I’m truly devoted to. I will always capitalize on the best opportunities if not make sure I’m looking at all my options. Weighing each proportion out making sure my weakness are secured to grow and not fall in a fatal hole of stagnant space. I have a lot of I can offer but I also have a lot to work on. Even if I’m not ready time reveals all blessings. Sexually I can be a monster. I can please a woman in a blink of an eye. I don’t want to lose out on that either. I know I will learn and let live. I can’t live my life just being a robot not acting like I’m attracted to someone. My pride and position in life always be weighing me down. Sometimes I just want to have that one I can relieve my stress on and show them how much I care. Touching caress and experiencing their love sensually. Other times I wish I could just be free so hopefully I find that one that understands my struggles and pain. I have a lot of twin flames that come into my life I hope the love of my life understand that. I will work hard keep her comfortable and live fulfilling. I don’t know who’s meant for me but when I do know it will be every bit of love coursing through my body. The life of a artist, poet, and life luster. Please do not take my words in vain who I am today took a lot of pain from the last twenty six years. Who I am tomorrow will be endured by the trials of today. Who we can be in our next life time is greater than understanding and more than love, lust, and purity.

Self thoughts true love me love