BROODING

DEEP THOUGHTS

[90syang]

The greatest flex is being unbothered.

Not because life is perfect,

but because you've learned that not everything deserves your energy.

People talk.

Life happens.

I protect my peace and keep it moving.

[90syang]

I finally realized something:

People can talk.

Life can throw punches.

Things can fall apart.

None of it gets to decide how I feel.

My happiness isn't in their hands—it's in mine.

So say what you want.

Do what you want.

Think what you want.

I'll keep my peace, protect my energy, and keep moving.

Because the moment you stop giving a fuck about what you can't control, you become free.

[90syang]

These days my energy keeps draining.

Got no strength left.

I just wanna sleep for a long time,

’cause sleep is the only place where my mind stops draining me.

People around me drain my energy.

They don’t even have to speak —

just knowing they’re in front of me is enough.

Only Zye excites my happy hormones.

From the rest, I just wanna take a nap.

[90syang]

Indulging your self in self-pity was one of those bad habits that would drain our mental strength at a time when we needed it the most. (Place of misery).

[90syang]

Today, as I was sitting on the bus going to work, I suddenly had a realization. I thought about my ex and noticed that I couldn’t clearly remember the happy moments we had. It doesn’t mean there weren’t any—there were—but I couldn’t remember what they were or when they happened.

That made me realize something: I want to start capturing my present happy moments in writing.

One of those happy moments was on February 14. After my work, my partner surprised me. He arranged my favorite flowers, a bag, a purse, and a chocolate beautifully on the bed. After my tiring evening shift, seeing that made me so happy.

He is sweet.

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14th Feb 2026

11:30am

#90syang

As I sit across from him, every conversation turns into a debate.

And I quietly ask myself do I deserve more than this?

I’m not asking for perfection.

At least… even after four years,I hoped he would be someone who’s truly into me.

Someone who remembers the little things

like the small plushy I once said I wanted.

Not because it’s big or expensive,

but because it would mean, *“I heard you.”*

When he doesn’t, it makes me wonder…

Don’t I deserve to be loved deeply?

To be chosen gently?

To have someone who wants to see me smile,

without me having to ask twice?

Maybe wanting flowers, soft surprises, and effort

isn’t asking for too much.

Maybe it’s just asking to be loved the right way.

And maybe one day,someone will love me without turning it into a debate.

[90syang]

We only get one body to live in.

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Some losses set us free

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It’s okay to have feelings of jealousy and envy every now and then. ITS ENTIRELY HUMAN . >_<

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There are moments when I struggle to find meaning in my life and feels unmotivated to keep going.

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For now m content :)

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When I am with you I feel like our time is running out, feels like it’s not enough.

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[90syang]

I am still glad that you were a part of my life. -Y

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We must believe in God truly ..if He is the one authoring our life.-Y

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23/05/23

As my relationship matures, I have noticed that my expectations are increasing and my disappointments aswell. Am I asking for too much? Is it too much to request a gentle nature?Am I overreacting? Is it unreasonable to want a perfect relationship?

Unconsciously , I keep comparing my current relationship to past and sometimes, it feels the same. -Y

#memo#founddisinmynotes#dailynotes

[90syang]

I have been wanting to write dis

But I don’t kno wat kept me…

So here it is ….

Dear you

Be a goooood dad and a goood husband. Genuinely Best wishes to you n your family 🪺🍀

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