You're still my homeboy, I promise you that. I intend to keep that promise too. To my very grave. I'm serious, Mark. If anybody messes with you, you know I won't be bothered to speak out at least once. Because you deserve all the happiness in life and I hate how fate twists things to deprive you of that at the last minute. Let it out somehow. Scream at the Han River, binge on things, go back and have a retreat in the jungle. Do whatever it takes. You can't burn like this forever, so let it burn.
Can you tone it down with the seriousness? I’m not used to this sight, Soo. Haha.
Here we go again with the Dead Haha Era. It’s been what? The third time we’re at it? Seems like I’ll forever be stupid in this aspect of life.
This kind of hurt..how do you cure it, Dr. Do? You’re a cardiologist, so I think it’s best to consult you with matters of the heart (Although, I have always consulted you about these things ever since). But then again, I think it’s not my heart that has a problem. Maybe..it’s my head? My thinking capacity seems to betray me every time I get involved with things that require my emotions. Could it be my hormones’ fluctuating levels?
I don’t know, Soo. I want a logical explanation for this.
Why does it keep happening to me? Why, when all things are just starting to turn into something–or maybe I got it all wrong and assumed there was “something” when in reality it was “nothing”? All I have are questions but where are the answers? Am I just being overly dramatic about this or do you understand what I am trying to get across?
Take it easy but don’t preempt what’s about to happen? Bullshit. I did just that, risked so much even if I was scared of it all. Look at where that logic took me.
Fucking pathetic.
I am fucking tired, Kyungsoo. Tired won’t even fit for the level of exhaustion I have. I feel so fucking stupid for letting my guard down so easily. I should have kept my walls up because I’ll never be enough for anything or to anyone.
I just want to be okay. Forget feelings, I just want to think about myself. I want to be selfish again because I’m so scared. I’m so scared of going through the same three-month slump I had before. I’ve had enough of moping around, hating myself, and trying to put back pieces of myself that I’ve lost along the way. It was a long, painful wait before I’ve had my shit together. However, I’ve made another slip up and I’m back to square one…
I don’t know where this will take me or how long it will take for me to be back on my feet, and this uncertainty scares me.
I want someone to tell me where the fuck do I always go wrong, so I can fix myself and avoid subjecting myself to another self-loathing pit. I want to feel enough. If there’s a secret for being okay, please tell me.
I want to be okay for once..for a long time. I’m tired of fleeting happiness. I want happiness that actually stays.
Now that I have your attention, please support my group in our upcoming comeback!
But just to give a heads up (even if no one really asked for it): Hi. Yes, I am still alive. Things just have been so so busy since the start of 2017. We finished the Flight Log: Turbulence tour and there’s also the comeback preparations. So, yeah. That pretty much explains why my ass is never on here.
Wanna catch up? I’m on Twitter (I still have my aim but i’m barely on there). If you want to, feel free to follow me @_gudetamark.
Anyway, it’s a little late--wait, no. It is late. Time to rest so I’ll have energy for the practice tomorrow. See you whenever and don’t forget to give our album a listen once it’s out!
I’m one out!
Mark
[ Okay. I know I said I was gonna be more active on dash this New Year but surprise surprise I got a job! *SFX: Party Poppers* So yeah this weakass mun is so shit at time management so I can’t really squeeze in replies to threads here on tumblr. If you want to drop our threads, it’s okay. It’s been long overdue anyway. We can thread on twitter though! The app is more convenient for me than tumblr so I check that more often. Anyway, I’m really sorry for the threads. :( I want to make a comeback here on tumblr but I’ll try to gain motivation to write lengthy replies again and maybe wait until schedules are a little bearable for me. Thank you for understanding and I’m really sorry for being inactive. ]
{’ leaves the gift bag somewhere that he is sure to find it, inside, the bag contains the following gifts: one, two, along with a short note written on a festive christmas card }
merry christmas mark! sorry this is a little late - i’ve been a little too busy recently. you know that though - you’ve been the same. ah, our moods have been jiving in the not best way recently.. which is a shame. in the coming new year, let’s try to be our usually happy selves. i want you and me to be cute and happy like we usually are! thank you for being with me again this year, for christmas. i keep teasing you about your “gift of friendship” but it’s way better than last year when i just kept missing you because you and i were barely talking. let’s keep this up to next year! ♡, 맹
I often ask myself: What is a true meaning of Christmas? I’ve come to conclusion that it represents hope. A miracle. Birth of the spark in our hearts. May you take care of that spark for years to come. May it warm you from within. It’s the kind of fire which won’t turn your world to ashes. It’s there to be a guiding light on your journey.
I wanted to share my beloved Christmas carol with you as a gift.
Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas. [ ♬ ]
Seo Joohyun.
즐거운 크리스마스 보내세요
서주현
This is a little late but I do hope you had a great time during the holidays, Seohyun noona! I also hope the new year is treating you right because you deserve it. I’m still looking forward to the treat you promised me.. And I need to tell you about the gift I wished from Seo Santa. I think…I got it. . Thank you and let's talk soonーwhen both of our schedules clear up.
You don’t know how much you mean to me. (Yuck.) I’m glad we were able to spend so much time together this year, what with our busy schedules forever in crossroads. I hope 2017 will be a better year for you, for us, and for everyone. (I sound like we’re a couple. God forbid. NO. NO TO INCESTUOUS RELATIONSHIPS.) Here are a couple of books I wanted to give you, both for entertainment and enlightenment. And finally, this one. For our favorite vice.
Happy holidays, Marky boy. Don’t go #MARKATTACK-ing!… without me having a livestream.
FRILL LUV EST. ‘93,
Keppy.
Keppy,
What the fuck. It feels like I’m writing a letter for a significant other. Since we’re at it, thank you for being with me last 2016. You know how tough 2016 was for me, for you, for us (I will seriously throw up after this). But you were there through it all even if saving me sends you to heaven. Maybe, you’re my guardian angel in sinner disguise.
By the way, I think you’ve interchanged the books. On second thought, I guess I can also be entertained by Bible stories, and be enlightened by that guidebook about not being a dick. I thought we’re going to be good boys this year but screw it. Let’s try out that thing you got for our favorite vice. There’s always next year for our resolution. Kidding.
Love you, Keppy. I’ll give you your gift when you show your ass up, you d******* bitch.
#FRILL LUV EST. ‘93,
Betsy
I hope you find what you’re looking for in 2017, whatever that may be for you. 2016 has been tough. You’ve stood the test of time and you’ll continue to do so. I know there are a lot of things in store for me, for you, and for everyone else.
A new year is a new book in your life. Now is your chance to start another beautiful piece of literature again for yourself.
“ Be with people who knows your worth; you don’t need to have many people to be happy, just few real ones who appreciates you for who you are. “
AS usual, I have plan to do this even before Christmas but because of schedules and lots of things to do, the preparations took long enough to finish. You guys knew by now, that whatever I do; from replying to thread, answering inbox message and replying to chat from aim to IM, always took a while. From that, I apologize if you experienced waiting for my reply for quite so long and I owe your patience a great appreciation. Thank you so much for keeping up with me— staying still and even wanted to interact… I promise I’ll do my best to be here as often as possible on the year coming. You guys have been a great part of my 2016 and hopefully I’ll get to see you at my 2017. No cheesy things anymore but anyways — let’s all enjoy each other’s company and good luck to our future endeavors! Cheers!
MUN: I don’t normally post something like this since I’m too lazy to do one but this year it would be different I believe since I’d like to greet and thank everyone for spending my first Christmas as ‘SANA’. This might be late but BELATED MERRY CHRISTMAS and ADVANCED HAPPY NEW YEAR lovelies~ I’m hoping you guys to have a fruitful year coming!
☆彡 Hi, everyone! This is GOT7′s flying member Mark Tuan, wishing you all a Belated Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!
So, I’m making this post to make up for my absence last Christmas thank everyone who had been a part of the previous year’s adventure. Hopefully, we’ll stay in touch in the coming year. And as for the people who I rarely/haven’t had the chance to interact with because of my introverted ass (that I will TRY to get rid of in 2017), I hope we’ll become like that famous song from The Chainsmokers. You know, Closer.
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[J.LO AND JA RULE VOICE ] AND I CAN’T GO ON WITHOUT YOU
: For those who kept it real last 2016, keep doing you.
To my best friend, the only answer @kwonmna It feels nice to celebrate the holidays again with you. Sorry, my only gift this year is the ~*Gift of Friendship*~ Hahaha I’m kidding. Wait until the year-end shows are over. Good luck with your comeback. Kyungsoo and I will support AOA wholeheartedly. We’ve had our fair share of highs and lows this year. But hey, at least we’re together during those times (Ew, cheese). I just wish the coming year would be better for you, and may all the negativity from 2016 stay in 2016. My best friend only deserves the best because she is the best. I love you in the most best friend way possible, Mina. Let’s have more movie nights, yeah? #영원히마맹
To my partner-in-crime, my drinking buddy @kyungsoomd: Ah, this ditching bitch. KIDDING. If you’re really a ditching bitch, you wouldn’t be there during those #MARKATTACK and #MARKWASATTACKED moments. I know we always talk shit and joke around, but you’re one of the few people who I can trust my life with (in the literal and metaphorical sense). #AWOW I just wish you genuine happiness for 2017, Soo. Life is a dick and sometimes the system doesn’t have a gag reflex. However, don’t let it swallow you alive; endure the pain so you can bask in pleasure afterwards. HAHAHA You asked me about resolutions, right? Let’s try to be good boys this year, man. I doubt we’ll change but we can try, right? I luh yuh in a no-romo way, Keppy. #FRILL LUV EST. 93.
To my absolute boy friend, @absolutechansik: I know we don’t talk that often, but that doesn’t make you less special. Thank you for all the wise words, Chansik. Kyungsoo and I learned a lot from you that one night you paid us a visit. Hahaha. I’d love to hear from you soon, buddy. Hope we could hang out more so I could help you understand how humans work, no matter how complex it is to explain our behavior at times. I love you in a no-romo way, Chansik.
To the supportive Aunty Pingu, @hyoushiko: 2016 was mostly unpleasant but one of the good things that came out of that year is me meeting you. Hah, cheesy. But I’m thankful I found another person who shares the same sentiments with me. You’re beautiful inside out, Aunty. The past year’s challenges made you stronger but I hope 2017 will be a smooth-sailing year for you. You deserve to be happy and if anyone tries to ruin it for you, I’m willing to fight fish balls and squid balls.I love you, Aunty Pingu! Let’s have real food instead of feelings for our breakfast dates. HAHA
To my non-biological mom, Morticia *snap snap* @hyvnakim: Thank you for looking after me all the time, mom. And for also helping my introverted ass by introducing me to people. I like how our conversations are free-flowing. One minute we’re making puns from our typos, the next minute we’re reminiscing our emo past. #ShiftHappens. I hope you attract more positive chi this year. Ask your Feng Soo expert for tips on how to attract luck. Rawr means I luv u in dinosaur mom xD
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FOR KEEPS
: I know I don’t regularly talk to some of you but just know that I’m looking after you from afar. Hey, I didn’t mean that in a creepy way but I hope you get what I mean. Thank you for putting up with me and my sleep-deprived weirdness at times. Thank you also for those serious talks when I try to be profound and shit. I’ve learned something from you in one way or another.
@aqustd (my ball friend, who has entrusted me his ballsack; and that weird friend who initiates rap battles at 3am #tonguetechnology), @taehkm (my favorite bangtan member even if all we do is fight over who is the best between us), @myouiari (the foster mother of our foster children a.k.a. toothbrushes, floss, toothpaste and mouthwash), @wangjac (the son to the emorkson; apple pen to my pineapple pen), @southtae (the nutella sandwich dongsaeng), @hyedonq (the one and only homegirl slash playlist enthusiast), @lalizmanoban (bubbles; butt pal), @pijichu (the spoiled princess who demands a lot of attention and cuddles), @spvtnik (the kindest noona I know and I’m not even exaggerating), @ DEADBOI Jinyoung, who doesn’t have a tumblr but is worth mentioning here (fellow dead soul; Kermit and Spongebob Memelord™; Marcus the Doggo’s favorite human; Bark Jinyoung to my Bark Tuan), @shinjmin (le petit noona; jimin “hyung” hahaha i still get embarrassed when i remember how this nickname started)
☆彡LET’S BE FRIENDS?: I have had brief interactions with some of you in the past. I might have lost some threads with you but let’s make it up to each other this year, okay?
There are also people who catch my attention on the rare times that I go on dash but never really had the chance to talk to them. I hope we can change that this 2017. Okay? Okay.
@jeonqup (let’s get pizza!!), @yugento (my brother and fellow AOA enthusiast), @femmcs (my other brother that I haven’t talked to in a while), @ofissues, @supershykawaii, @sxcheon, @findmexsaveme, @hrvim, @jinvory, @wizardings, @kvnpmk, @jaexordium, @sngyun, @daiiyu, @daphnyx, @ahyngkm, @naenu, @prkjnny, @kylkyng, @sxrxndipity, @sohyvnkr, @ponyprk, @ayutoz , @kjh-x, @mxvngsoo, @imyovna, @jyhio, @oarin @nuttaela, @spiridicn, @sujjico, @xiaochxng, @intoyxurheart, @hyojungah, @mntzaki, @jaebumio, @fuzaken, @sujois (although I can’t find your blog anymore :/ ), @chngha
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TO THOSE I HAVEN’T MENTIONED HERE:
I still want to be friends with all of you! Whether you’ve been following me since the beginning or you’re a new follower, you’re always welcome to hit me up on my inbox, Tumblr IM or AIM (tuan.co). Always open to plot/para/script/whatever.
So, I guess that’s it? Let’s leave all the awkwardness and negativity in 2016 and start this new year on a good note. 🎉
For the fly-est boy in town, my son @93flyboy , for being a ditching bitch. I know I haven’t been around lately, I have my reasons for them. (Mostly because I’ve been going back and forth from my house to my parents’ in Goyang.) Nevertheless, I’m thinking of you. And your itchy ass. (Which is not as itchy as mine. Probably.)
━ spiced gingerbread cookies, in the shape of stars, is sent out to everyone in the list below, accompanied by a christmas post cards in various designs, and signed ♥, 맹 ━
this christmas has been even busier than the last, what with comeback preparations and all (pls look forward to aoa’s first full album, to be released on january 2!), so apologies if these are late and i haven’t had the time for actual presents. i’ll do my best to make it up for everyone’s birthdays. merry christmas, happy holidays, and a prosperous new year to you, friend!
Wow, I have never done anything like this before. I suppose this is pretty over due, but I am considering this also to be my late follow forever in addition to me being here for a little over a year and 1,000 + followers! 2016 has been one hell of a ride but hey, we all got through it and that’s all that matters. And I don’t know about you, but I am ready to start the new year with more wild and great adventures. Let’s look at 2017 as a new year to start fresh and hopefully, become a better version of ourselves. With the holidays around the corner, I wish everyone a very happy, safe, healthy Christmas. Over the past year and four months, I have gone through so much. There were numerous of people who came into my life and left, friends come and go but that’s life. So I want to specifically give a special shout out to those who have stuck with me through thick and thin. This is for you guys.
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