memento mori

[skyrigel]

ever since i was a little girl i knew there was no hope for me

[999kcals]

im back and with bad news

i’ve officially lost my period for almost 2 months now

i lost almost all the weight i wanted to lose

but im killing my body

im scared

i don’t know how to get help

and i don’t know if i even want it

i hated myself before

i don’t as much now

but i don’t want to die

im just so scared.

[999kcals]

guyssss i’ve been consistent

it’s a small amount but considering i’m at such a low body weight right now it’s gonna be harder to lose….

i hit 108 though!!!

my waist rn is 23.5-24 inches right now :/ i wish i was smaller still

it took 22 days :(

i have to keep enough energy to be able to care for my patient at work so i’ve been on strict 1200 cals

(trust me i know it sounds like a lot)

BUT this is the best way i can keep myself consistent and actually able to enjoy life sort of while still losing weight

im going to try and incorporate more exercising to burn more cals instead of going down in cals again because i dont want to binge :/

[999kcals]

i hit 109 today angels!!!

[junglejim4322]

Not having a traditional job or plans to get an education will have people asking you things like so what is the purpose of you staying alive?

[999kcals]

liquid fasting todayuuyyy

i’ve had a c4, vitamins, and my electrolyte drink so far so we’re going strong !!

i have a zero sugar ginger ale to hopefully aid in getting rid of my sickness

gotta keep it up the rest of the day, but i have a lot of projects i wanna work on so i got activities to keep me busy and maybe i’ll draw or read at the park, it’s been very nice outside

[999kcals]

hiiii

im binging again 🙁

but for the week i still burned about ~1500 in total so next week if i eat back to normal because i’ve been an actual fat ass this week (still at 110 this morning)

i should be back on track to losing again

i’ve basically been eating almost maintenance which i guess is alright because i’ve been sick and having to literally fry my brain for college but i still need to be at my goal by my birthday in june…

i am being a whale tonight 💔

bed and ana are literally the worst ever but also the best thing to happen i don’t even know

i’ve been losing the weight very slow ugh

[999kcals]

recommendation for the girlies who wanna lose weight

barramundi sea bass is 150 cals for a whole slab and 32 g protein !!!

keeps you full literally all day and it’s not too expensive either - thaws out really quick and is super fast to cook

also jolly ranchers and energy drinks… obviously

but i swear i don’t usually have cravings when i pair the fish with cauliflower rice and some cottage cheese it’s so good too - really just tastes like chicken

[999kcals]

weighed in at 110 today…

im so beyond ecstatic i’ve been able to keep cravings down and keep the cals under 1000!!

10 more pounds to go until my goal… omgggg

[999kcals]

weighed in at 111 !!!

:3 progress

[999kcals]

bored

hai ppl of Tumblr

I don't have many followers or anything but I really have nothing else to do right now so I figured why not update

I had a lot of layers of clothes on but weighed in at 114 yesterday, I didn't have time to step on the scale this morning. feeling pretty good about the number ill see on it when I get home, considering I usually have 3-4 pounds worth of clothing on just to keep warm.

ill post again with an update at some point - I have a lot of stuff I wanna do today. staying distracted! works the best for fatasses like me who can't seem to think about anything other than food.

[starflesh-angel]

me: why am i dizzy and shaking?

my body: *trying it’s best to heal from last nights sesh while running on one monster and seven different pills*

[vrtualcvts]

I genuinely feel like such a horrible girlfriend. Like why am I such a bitch? I'm so disgusting and mentally unstable. I'm a fucking addict to all the wrong things. Fuck.

[xayasha]

skip dinner, wake up thinner

[x-honeybunnii-x]

words cant explain how unfeminine and dirty i feel with a full stomach

[999kcals]

it’s been a minute since i posted..

i’m currently at 113 pounds

only lost 2 since my last post so i’m feeling pretty defeated.

it’s been harder when the food noise starts to push it away, plus increasingly feeling faint and having headaches

i’ll get to my goal.

if anybody needs a buddy…

[39kg-angel]

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