[a-design01-spam]

bit city spoilers i guess but i had a vision so had to do this

[a-design01-spam]

like a month ago my cat got really sick, like really really sick. to the point that she had to get an iv for a few days and now she's so much better and back being her healthy self. but it made me think about how fucking destroyed I'm going to be the day that she dies. i just know it is going to ruin my life the day that it happens.

and i work on therapy to try and not steal hurt from the future, but sometimes when i look at her i see the way she looked when she was sick and it breaks my heart a little.

anyway, i love my cat so much

[getting-messi]

Argentina singing their national anthem passionately ahead of the Semi-Final vs England

[a-design01-spam]

sometimes i see the most beautiful women on here and all i can do is look at them for ten minutes and then move on

[kindahoping4forever]

Via 103.5 KISS FM Chicago

[a-design01]

It's been almost 4 months since my last post... honestly I haven't been feeling creative and it's hard to make things most days. I don't know my voice or style or what I want.

But still I make things sometimes and I even like some of the things I make.

So, here are 3 posters that have nothing to do with each other except that making them brought me out of the creative hole I am in

[a-design01-spam]

this is crazy

[a-design01-spam]

court on this video is so "little brother in a 2000s disney movie" coded

[a-design01-spam]

the labubu moment in the first "thats not a hat" smosh games video is crazy. shayne and court represent the parents, arasha is the younger kid and angela and chanse are first and second childs. idk, im high and this probably doesnt makes sense

[a-design01-spam]

sometimes i sit and think about how shit i am at designing things and how i probably don't even deserve to get paid for what i do and that I'm taking advantage of people. but then sometimes i look at some of the things I've done and realise that I'm really not that bad. i would even say that sometimes i can be pretty good

[a-design01-spam]

i was watching a video about this woman that went to a mega curch as an ex-mormon and at some point she said something about how a lot of religions hijack humanity. that they give these speeches that appeal to human emotions and then say that you are feeling those emotions because God is real.

as a person that grew up catholic but never really belived in God i think that explains a lot of my feelings. i went to mass on sundays, i went on a lot of spritual retreats and sometimes i ended up crying and feeling sadness or hope or happiness or anguish or anger and i think at the time i atributed those feelings to a belief in God. but after i realised that not only i didn't want to be part of the church but that i didn't believe in God, i didn't really understand why i felt those feelings.

i think i finally understand why, and it is because i'm human

[a-design01]

Dr. Samira Mohan after a horrible shift

[a-design01-spam]

i'm so sad, nobody talk to me. I'm grieving my sister

[a-design01-spam]

luke dyed his hair black and i had to channel it into something

[elgngraphicstudio]

[a-design01-spam]

parasocial time but there's a lot of talk about dan and phil on smosh and how dan and shayne would have fun or whatever and i agree BUT. i need dan and spencer interacting, i feel like they are two sides of the same coin

[a-design01-spam]

are you watching or being watched? - mixed media art

[a-design01]

i ask myself every day if i'm gonna let fear take that