Saranya (Queue56 RP)

rp out of the minecraft!

[a-fallen-eos]

Uhh.. hello? This app thing appeared on my comm, I don’t know how, but it seems nice I guess

ooc! Name: Saranya Nickname: Sar Pronouns: she/her Age: minor, 16ish

main is @sardar106 and Minecraft user is MaGhost

Whisper made an account for their character and I thought why not make one for mine, so here it is

some other things about her here in this link for the sillies

asks and stuff are always a welcome! I’m here for the rp, we do the rp it do be just me being a silly guy and perhaps posting sad stuff when I get thoughts though lol

tagging #words of a fallen eos - posts #answers of a fallen eos - asks #conversations of a fallen eos - reblogs

(very creative, I know /silly (also it’s 4 pm and I haven’t slept since 6 pm yesterday, so—))

[a-fallen-eos]

Uhm.. hi Saranya? I- I hope this reaches you. I don't know if I'm still being watched so I don't want to talk too much here, but.. gods I miss you. Altair said you were still in Hypixel?? Are you okay?? Why haven't you been back??

You've been gone for so long.. I miss you. Please come back... I hope you can read this...

- @the-experience-eclipse

..hi Expyr. I'm still in Hypixel, yeah, I'm not not okay, so there's that... I don't really know why I can't get back to the Queue, it's been months and my powers still won't let me go there

...I miss you too, Ex, I miss you a lot and my avian instincts definitely agree with that.. I really want to come back but I don't know if I even can at all. I can thankfully read your message though, hope this reaches you too..

[the-experience-eclipse]

...that doesn't make me any less worried Sar.. what's been going on there??

If you not being able to come back is in any way my fault, I'm sorry... I hope you'll be able to soon though. It's not been great here without you. Not that Altair isn't great, it's just- different. Bad different.

I'm really glad I can at least message you though.. Please stay safe for me...

[a-fallen-eos]

ah… no, you don’t have to worry about me, I’ve just been staying at my house there, never participating in any of the minigames too

I don’t think my powers not working is in anyway your fault at all. it could just be because I’m a bit tired, that’s all. no need to apologise if it did have something to do with you either, though it’s probably not the case

sorry I haven’t been around or contacted you at all, I couldn’t, at first, but it does seem to be fixed now. and I’m safe, no one can harm me here, and even if I did join any of the minigames, anything that happens resets immediately after they’re done

[the-experience-eclipse]

Have you been tired for like half a year then??? Look I don't know if time passes differently there, but you've been gone for like.. many cycles now...

Still, stay safe. Just because it resets doesn't mean it's not bad - trust me, I'd know. I'm glad we can talk like this, at least...

[a-fallen-eos]

...well to be fair, tired isn't the most accurate word to give myself right now.. but, yeah, I do know that I've been gone for many cycles, not that it's been half a year though. I guess the repetitiveness of each day and weak and month and just being cooped up there blended together...

yeah, I'm glad we can talk.. been so long since I talked to someone at all, until Altair contacted me, at least

[a-fallen-eos]

Uhm.. hi Saranya? I- I hope this reaches you. I don't know if I'm still being watched so I don't want to talk too much here, but.. gods I miss you. Altair said you were still in Hypixel?? Are you okay?? Why haven't you been back??

You've been gone for so long.. I miss you. Please come back... I hope you can read this...

- @the-experience-eclipse

..hi Expyr. I'm still in Hypixel, yeah, I'm not not okay, so there's that... I don't really know why I can't get back to the Queue, it's been months and my powers still won't let me go there

...I miss you too, Ex, I miss you a lot and my avian instincts definitely agree with that.. I really want to come back but I don't know if I even can at all. I can thankfully read your message though, hope this reaches you too..

[the-experience-eclipse]

...that doesn't make me any less worried Sar.. what's been going on there??

If you not being able to come back is in any way my fault, I'm sorry... I hope you'll be able to soon though. It's not been great here without you. Not that Altair isn't great, it's just- different. Bad different.

I'm really glad I can at least message you though.. Please stay safe for me...

[a-fallen-eos]

ah… no, you don’t have to worry about me, I’ve just been staying at my house there, never participating in any of the minigames too

I don’t think my powers not working is in anyway your fault at all. it could just be because I’m a bit tired, that’s all. no need to apologise if it did have something to do with you either, though it’s probably not the case

sorry I haven’t been around or contacted you at all, I couldn’t, at first, but it does seem to be fixed now. and I’m safe, no one can harm me here, and even if I did join any of the minigames, anything that happens resets immediately after they’re done

[a-fallen-eos]

Uhm.. hi Saranya? I- I hope this reaches you. I don't know if I'm still being watched so I don't want to talk too much here, but.. gods I miss you. Altair said you were still in Hypixel?? Are you okay?? Why haven't you been back??

You've been gone for so long.. I miss you. Please come back... I hope you can read this...

- @the-experience-eclipse

..hi Expyr. I'm still in Hypixel, yeah, I'm not not okay, so there's that... I don't really know why I can't get back to the Queue, it's been months and my powers still won't let me go there

...I miss you too, Ex, I miss you a lot and my avian instincts definitely agree with that.. I really want to come back but I don't know if I even can at all. I can thankfully read your message though, hope this reaches you too..

[a-fallen-eos]

hey- …i don’t know if this is working-

i just wanted to shoot you a message, since you haven’t exactly- been on the Queue

is everything alright? we haven’t been able to hear from you and,, i don’t really know where you are right now.

just.. message or- or call me back when you can, alright?

- @bright-fallen-star

ah— ...hi Altair. it does seem to be working...

...I'm— fine... or as good as I can be, really. very sorry I haven't been on the Queue... I— I'm nowhere bad, per se, it's just Hypixel, used to it. sorry I haven't checked in on you guys all the while the whole time I was here. I couldn't, at first, I couldn't join the Queue and this app wasn't working for a while either,, don't even know when or how it was fixed but now it is and I'm glad we can talk again, even if only through our communicators

and... yeah. sorry again, really, but you don't have to accept it at all...

[bright-fallen-star]

it’s alright, don’t say sorry- this isn’t your fault.

i’m just glad we can talk again too. i- it’s been a long time, but i’m happy it’s happening now. i just hope you’re safe, and okay.

i don’t know if you want updates or-r regular messages from me but if you do, just let me know? i can tell you what’s been happenin?

[a-fallen-eos]

...okay. still feel like I need to do something worthy of being an apology, but.. thank you

it has been a very long time, yeah, and I'm safe as one can be in Hypixel, but how have you been? Expyr and Oli too?

ah, yeah.. both sound good. I'd really like that, it'd be nice hearing about what's going on there with you, I think

[bright-fallen-star]

i’ve been alright. a lot of time has passed, but the challenges and such keep me busy. expyr is.. doing as well as it can given the circumstances. been tryin’ to help them take breaks but exp doesn’t really like that.. vy is away for the next few weeks from the queue. oli has been around the queue though! decorating and such, though he does stop by base a few times.

i’ll be sure to give you more updates - it’d be nice to hear from you too

[a-fallen-eos]

that’s.. expected of both, I guess… but Expyr’s away now?..you’re mostly alone right now? I’m sorry, I… I really wish I could come to the Queue right now…

I… don’t really have many updates to give… just been cooped up in my tree there. don’t want to.. well, can’t, more accurately, get out to join any of the mini games here

[bright-fallen-star]

yeah, expyr’s away now.. but that’s okay, i can handle base by myself. and like i said before, just being able to talk to you is enough for me, don’t be sorry for things out of your control.

that’s fair.. i don’t know much about hypixel but i wish you the best of luck in resting and staying away from the minigames. .. i wish i could send you something over the comms but i hope these voice notes are enough

[a-fallen-eos]

it's.. not being able to handle base by yourself, it's being able to handle being by yourself.. I don't know how strong your avian instincts are, considering we haven't talked about it, but I know I can't handle being alone sometimes.. and. I'm thankful you think that you think being able to communicate is enough...

the Hypixel minigames vary a lot, but they all require some form of movement and.. I can't really do that. the... cause is also why I don't sound the best right now but it's fine, I'm used to being in pain...

that's not how it works, sadly. but, now that I think about it.. I might be able to send small things to you, if my power is only weakened and not gone, that is...

[a-fallen-eos]

hey- …i don’t know if this is working-

i just wanted to shoot you a message, since you haven’t exactly- been on the Queue

is everything alright? we haven’t been able to hear from you and,, i don’t really know where you are right now.

just.. message or- or call me back when you can, alright?

- @bright-fallen-star

ah— ...hi Altair. it does seem to be working...

...I'm— fine... or as good as I can be, really. very sorry I haven't been on the Queue... I— I'm nowhere bad, per se, it's just Hypixel, used to it. sorry I haven't checked in on you guys all the while the whole time I was here. I couldn't, at first, I couldn't join the Queue and this app wasn't working for a while either,, don't even know when or how it was fixed but now it is and I'm glad we can talk again, even if only through our communicators

and... yeah. sorry again, really, but you don't have to accept it at all...

[bright-fallen-star]

it’s alright, don’t say sorry- this isn’t your fault.

i’m just glad we can talk again too. i- it’s been a long time, but i’m happy it’s happening now. i just hope you’re safe, and okay.

i don’t know if you want updates or-r regular messages from me but if you do, just let me know? i can tell you what’s been happenin?

[a-fallen-eos]

...okay. still feel like I need to do something worthy of being an apology, but.. thank you

it has been a very long time, yeah, and I'm safe as one can be in Hypixel, but how have you been? Expyr and Oli too?

ah, yeah.. both sound good. I'd really like that, it'd be nice hearing about what's going on there with you, I think

[bright-fallen-star]

i’ve been alright. a lot of time has passed, but the challenges and such keep me busy. expyr is.. doing as well as it can given the circumstances. been tryin’ to help them take breaks but exp doesn’t really like that.. vy is away for the next few weeks from the queue. oli has been around the queue though! decorating and such, though he does stop by base a few times.

i’ll be sure to give you more updates - it’d be nice to hear from you too

[a-fallen-eos]

that’s.. expected of both, I guess… but Expyr’s away now?..you’re mostly alone right now? I’m sorry, I… I really wish I could come to the Queue right now…

I… don’t really have many updates to give… just been cooped up in my tree there. don’t want to.. well, can’t, more accurately, get out to join any of the mini games here

[a-fallen-eos]

hey- …i don’t know if this is working-

i just wanted to shoot you a message, since you haven’t exactly- been on the Queue

is everything alright? we haven’t been able to hear from you and,, i don’t really know where you are right now.

just.. message or- or call me back when you can, alright?

- @bright-fallen-star

ah— ...hi Altair. it does seem to be working...

...I'm— fine... or as good as I can be, really. very sorry I haven't been on the Queue... I— I'm nowhere bad, per se, it's just Hypixel, used to it. sorry I haven't checked in on you guys all the while the whole time I was here. I couldn't, at first, I couldn't join the Queue and this app wasn't working for a while either,, don't even know when or how it was fixed but now it is and I'm glad we can talk again, even if only through our communicators

and... yeah. sorry again, really, but you don't have to accept it at all...

[bright-fallen-star]

it’s alright, don’t say sorry- this isn’t your fault.

i’m just glad we can talk again too. i- it’s been a long time, but i’m happy it’s happening now. i just hope you’re safe, and okay.

i don’t know if you want updates or-r regular messages from me but if you do, just let me know? i can tell you what’s been happenin?

[a-fallen-eos]

...okay. still feel like I need to do something worthy of being an apology, but.. thank you

it has been a very long time, yeah, and I'm safe as one can be in Hypixel, but how have you been? Expyr and Oli too?

ah, yeah.. both sound good. I'd really like that, it'd be nice hearing about what's going on there with you, I think

[a-fallen-eos]

hey- …i don’t know if this is working-

i just wanted to shoot you a message, since you haven’t exactly- been on the Queue

is everything alright? we haven’t been able to hear from you and,, i don’t really know where you are right now.

just.. message or- or call me back when you can, alright?

- @bright-fallen-star

ah— ...hi Altair. it does seem to be working...

...I'm— fine... or as good as I can be, really. very sorry I haven't been on the Queue... I— I'm nowhere bad, per se, it's just Hypixel, used to it. sorry I haven't checked in on you guys all the while the whole time I was here. I couldn't, at first, I couldn't join the Queue and this app wasn't working for a while either,, don't even know when or how it was fixed but now it is and I'm glad we can talk again, even if only through our communicators

and... yeah. sorry again, really, but you don't have to accept it at all...

[a-fallen-eos]

why can't I... why can't I go back to the Queue? did something happen to it? is there something wrong with my world travel? did they stop it, take it from me? what's wrong...?

I have to go back, but I cant, I haven't been there much this cycle. I hope nothing's wrong there, that's the only place Expyr and Fitz have, except for the void, I guess

I just want to go back there, please...

[the-experience-eclipse]

I COULDVE FUCKING WON THAT

I FAILED SO BAD

I DONT EVEN KNOW WHO KILLED ME BUT IT WAS MY FUCKING FAULT

I WOULDVE BEEN FINE IF I WENT OUT IN A FAIR WAY

BUT ME FAILING IS THE WORST FUCKING THING

SARANYA WOULDVE SEEN THAT god i bet she wont wanna team with me anymore

WHY DO I HAVE TO BE A FAILURE AT EVERYT-

why am i even asking myself. ITS THEIR FUCKING FAULT

we're both failures, Expyr. youre flawed at your core, as much as i am. we both failed terribly. we're both failures.

[a-fallen-eos]

Expyr... no. yes, I'm sad for you that you didn't win. and that, as what I've seen, an accident of you having worn your wings instead of chest plate. but I'm not mad at you. that's no reason to leave you. we've been together for three (well, technically 2.5) cycles now and I plan on continuing that. I want to stay with you throughout the queue. it doesn't matter your placement in the challenges, it doesn't matter if you make mistakes, I am gonna be here for you while I'm able to.

do not beat yourself up about not winning again. do not beat yourself up for anything. everyone makes mistakes, human, adjacent, or not at all. heck, my whole life has been a mistake after another. and having that weighing you down is just gonna make things worse for you. so, please, necer think I'm abandoning you for some minor one that doesn't even affect me.

and I thought this little bird did not want to care and get attached to people... huh, things have changed

[the-experience-eclipse]

Saranya YOU DONT UNDERSTAND

I AM NOTHING WITHOUT WINNING

[a-fallen-eos]

Expyr...

please, listen. both to me and what you're saying.

wining does not defy who you are. you are, and have been, a thing from when you were formed. wining does not defy you. not to me, and it shouldn't to you either.

[the-experience-eclipse]

except it does. it does fucking defy me. thats what i was fucking MADE FOR

[a-fallen-eos]

I… that’s not…

Expyr, being made to win is not something you can control. it’s something that’s happened and can never technically change. but being made for something and beating yourself up about it because of failing is something you can try to control. you should never beat yourself up over anything that you can’t even control. what’s happened happened, what’s done is done, you can’t keep beating yourself up every time you loose, that’s just gonna lead to one bad thing after another.

and trust me when I say that. Expyr, I was born just to be hated by my mother because I had a chance to be able to fly while her moving her wings hurt. being born only to be hated by the one person who should’ve loved me all my, and the rest of her own, life is something I would’ve never been able to control. do I still beat myself up about it? not really, but I did a lot in the past. the fact that if I never had working wings, my mom would’ve loved me and my childhood wouldn’t have been the way it was. but that’s not something I was able to control, now, was it?

I’m not trying to compare you to myself, just. giving a new perspective of something quite similar

[the-experience-eclipse]

Saranya. you dont understand.

i was made to be on the queue. to compete. to win.

theres nothing else beyond that. youre a fucking person. you have a life.

i dont

they could disappear, be removed from existence, at any time, if i wish to do so.. it was made for winning. its just a failure at it. thats the thing.

[a-fallen-eos]

you have a different purpose to me

you are my friend, there’s that.

everyone fails, everyone has accidents and make mistakes, to wining, there’s a next time. and that doesn't have to mean next cycle either.

[the-experience-eclipse]

of course you wouldnt understand. seems like thats a multiversal curse as well.

[a-fallen-eos]

I understand what you mean by this, Expyr. but that doesn’t mean I agree with the fact you’re putting out

and I’m assuming you mean the other versions of you by that?

[the-experience-eclipse]

I COULDVE FUCKING WON THAT

I FAILED SO BAD

I DONT EVEN KNOW WHO KILLED ME BUT IT WAS MY FUCKING FAULT

I WOULDVE BEEN FINE IF I WENT OUT IN A FAIR WAY

BUT ME FAILING IS THE WORST FUCKING THING

SARANYA WOULDVE SEEN THAT god i bet she wont wanna team with me anymore

WHY DO I HAVE TO BE A FAILURE AT EVERYT-

why am i even asking myself. ITS THEIR FUCKING FAULT

we're both failures, Expyr. youre flawed at your core, as much as i am. we both failed terribly. we're both failures.

[a-fallen-eos]

Expyr... no. yes, I'm sad for you that you didn't win. and that, as what I've seen, an accident of you having worn your wings instead of chest plate. but I'm not mad at you. that's no reason to leave you. we've been together for three (well, technically 2.5) cycles now and I plan on continuing that. I want to stay with you throughout the queue. it doesn't matter your placement in the challenges, it doesn't matter if you make mistakes, I am gonna be here for you while I'm able to.

do not beat yourself up about not winning again. do not beat yourself up for anything. everyone makes mistakes, human, adjacent, or not at all. heck, my whole life has been a mistake after another. and having that weighing you down is just gonna make things worse for you. so, please, necer think I'm abandoning you for some minor one that doesn't even affect me.

and I thought this little bird did not want to care and get attached to people... huh, things have changed

[the-experience-eclipse]

Saranya YOU DONT UNDERSTAND

I AM NOTHING WITHOUT WINNING

[a-fallen-eos]

Expyr...

please, listen. both to me and what you're saying.

wining does not defy who you are. you are, and have been, a thing from when you were formed. wining does not defy you. not to me, and it shouldn't to you either.

[the-experience-eclipse]

except it does. it does fucking defy me. thats what i was fucking MADE FOR

[a-fallen-eos]

I… that’s not…

Expyr, being made to win is not something you can control. it’s something that’s happened and can never technically change. but being made for something and beating yourself up about it because of failing is something you can try to control. you should never beat yourself up over anything that you can’t even control. what’s happened happened, what’s done is done, you can’t keep beating yourself up every time you loose, that’s just gonna lead to one bad thing after another.

and trust me when I say that. Expyr, I was born just to be hated by my mother because I had a chance to be able to fly while her moving her wings hurt. being born only to be hated by the one person who should’ve loved me all my, and the rest of her own, life is something I would’ve never been able to control. do I still beat myself up about it? not really, but I did a lot in the past. the fact that if I never had working wings, my mom would’ve loved me and my childhood wouldn’t have been the way it was. but that’s not something I was able to control, now, was it?

I’m not trying to compare you to myself, just. giving a new perspective of something quite similar

[the-experience-eclipse]

Saranya. you dont understand.

i was made to be on the queue. to compete. to win.

theres nothing else beyond that. youre a fucking person. you have a life.

i dont

they could disappear, be removed from existence, at any time, if i wish to do so.. it was made for winning. its just a failure at it. thats the thing.

[a-fallen-eos]

you have a different purpose to me

you are my friend, there’s that.

everyone fails, everyone has accidents and make mistakes, to wining, there’s a next time. and that doesn't have to mean next cycle either.

[mmelete]

i wish ao3 allowed people to give kudos per each chapter. These 100k word NOVELS need more love than 200 tiny digital hearts ☹️

[the-experience-eclipse]

I COULDVE FUCKING WON THAT

I FAILED SO BAD

I DONT EVEN KNOW WHO KILLED ME BUT IT WAS MY FUCKING FAULT

I WOULDVE BEEN FINE IF I WENT OUT IN A FAIR WAY

BUT ME FAILING IS THE WORST FUCKING THING

SARANYA WOULDVE SEEN THAT god i bet she wont wanna team with me anymore

WHY DO I HAVE TO BE A FAILURE AT EVERYT-

why am i even asking myself. ITS THEIR FUCKING FAULT

we're both failures, Expyr. youre flawed at your core, as much as i am. we both failed terribly. we're both failures.

[a-fallen-eos]

Expyr... no. yes, I'm sad for you that you didn't win. and that, as what I've seen, an accident of you having worn your wings instead of chest plate. but I'm not mad at you. that's no reason to leave you. we've been together for three (well, technically 2.5) cycles now and I plan on continuing that. I want to stay with you throughout the queue. it doesn't matter your placement in the challenges, it doesn't matter if you make mistakes, I am gonna be here for you while I'm able to.

do not beat yourself up about not winning again. do not beat yourself up for anything. everyone makes mistakes, human, adjacent, or not at all. heck, my whole life has been a mistake after another. and having that weighing you down is just gonna make things worse for you. so, please, necer think I'm abandoning you for some minor one that doesn't even affect me.

and I thought this little bird did not want to care and get attached to people... huh, things have changed

[the-experience-eclipse]

Saranya YOU DONT UNDERSTAND

I AM NOTHING WITHOUT WINNING

[a-fallen-eos]

Expyr...

please, listen. both to me and what you're saying.

wining does not defy who you are. you are, and have been, a thing from when you were formed. wining does not defy you. not to me, and it shouldn't to you either.

[the-experience-eclipse]

except it does. it does fucking defy me. thats what i was fucking MADE FOR

[a-fallen-eos]

I… that’s not…

Expyr, being made to win is not something you can control. it’s something that’s happened and can never technically change. but being made for something and beating yourself up about it because of failing is something you can try to control. you should never beat yourself up over anything that you can’t even control. what’s happened happened, what’s done is done, you can’t keep beating yourself up every time you loose, that’s just gonna lead to one bad thing after another.

and trust me when I say that. Expyr, I was born just to be hated by my mother because I had a chance to be able to fly while her moving her wings hurt. being born only to be hated by the one person who should’ve loved me all my, and the rest of her own, life is something I would’ve never been able to control. do I still beat myself up about it? not really, but I did a lot in the past. the fact that if I never had working wings, my mom would’ve loved me and my childhood wouldn’t have been the way it was. but that’s not something I was able to control, now, was it?

I’m not trying to compare you to myself, just. giving a new perspective of something quite similar

[the-experience-eclipse]

I COULDVE FUCKING WON THAT

I FAILED SO BAD

I DONT EVEN KNOW WHO KILLED ME BUT IT WAS MY FUCKING FAULT

I WOULDVE BEEN FINE IF I WENT OUT IN A FAIR WAY

BUT ME FAILING IS THE WORST FUCKING THING

SARANYA WOULDVE SEEN THAT god i bet she wont wanna team with me anymore

WHY DO I HAVE TO BE A FAILURE AT EVERYT-

why am i even asking myself. ITS THEIR FUCKING FAULT

we're both failures, Expyr. youre flawed at your core, as much as i am. we both failed terribly. we're both failures.

[a-fallen-eos]

Expyr... no. yes, I'm sad for you that you didn't win. and that, as what I've seen, an accident of you having worn your wings instead of chest plate. but I'm not mad at you. that's no reason to leave you. we've been together for three (well, technically 2.5) cycles now and I plan on continuing that. I want to stay with you throughout the queue. it doesn't matter your placement in the challenges, it doesn't matter if you make mistakes, I am gonna be here for you while I'm able to.

do not beat yourself up about not winning again. do not beat yourself up for anything. everyone makes mistakes, human, adjacent, or not at all. heck, my whole life has been a mistake after another. and having that weighing you down is just gonna make things worse for you. so, please, necer think I'm abandoning you for some minor one that doesn't even affect me.

and I thought this little bird did not want to care and get attached to people... huh, things have changed

[the-experience-eclipse]

Saranya YOU DONT UNDERSTAND

I AM NOTHING WITHOUT WINNING

[a-fallen-eos]

Expyr...

please, listen. both to me and what you're saying.

wining does not defy who you are. you are, and have been, a thing from when you were formed. wining does not defy you. not to me, and it shouldn't to you either.

[the-experience-eclipse]

I COULDVE FUCKING WON THAT

I FAILED SO BAD

I DONT EVEN KNOW WHO KILLED ME BUT IT WAS MY FUCKING FAULT

I WOULDVE BEEN FINE IF I WENT OUT IN A FAIR WAY

BUT ME FAILING IS THE WORST FUCKING THING

SARANYA WOULDVE SEEN THAT god i bet she wont wanna team with me anymore

WHY DO I HAVE TO BE A FAILURE AT EVERYT-

why am i even asking myself. ITS THEIR FUCKING FAULT

we're both failures, Expyr. youre flawed at your core, as much as i am. we both failed terribly. we're both failures.

[a-fallen-eos]

Expyr... no. yes, I'm sad for you that you didn't win. and that, as what I've seen, an accident of you having worn your wings instead of chest plate. but I'm not mad at you. that's no reason to leave you. we've been together for three (well, technically 2.5) cycles now and I plan on continuing that. I want to stay with you throughout the queue. it doesn't matter your placement in the challenges, it doesn't matter if you make mistakes, I am gonna be here for you while I'm able to.

do not beat yourself up about not winning again. do not beat yourself up for anything. everyone makes mistakes, human, adjacent, or not at all. heck, my whole life has been a mistake after another. and having that weighing you down is just gonna make things worse for you. so, please, necer think I'm abandoning you for some minor one that doesn't even affect me.

and I thought this little bird did not want to care and get attached to people... huh, things have changed

[a-fallen-eos]

Stupid fucking wardens and withers. would've maybe had a chance if i wasn't targeted by them. warden blasts fucking hurt too. they broke my three totems before killing me. my wings... I can't have them on right now... but they got blasted badly. they hurt a lot. I hope they won't be damaged unlike my back... fuck it hurts—

was the second one alive on Ruby... 2 Rubies against 4 Sapphires. and of course both of us couldn't have done anything about it.

if only we started with more Rubies. we were literally half the amount of Sapphires there before the challenge even started.

and stupid fucking bow I thought you'd help me fight people. only useful when I'm not the one using it. I hate bows I hate bows I hate bows

At least Expyr won. wasn't able to congratulate it ...I hope exp's doing well after that... I sure pushed them off at the end but it got back up a bit after. that probably scared the shit out of exp... ...I want to apologize. I want to know how it's doing... are they okay? probably back in the void again...

And Fitz died to a wither I think... hope he's doing well too. they got killed somtime around halfway through the challenge

[a-fallen-eos]

I got to be there, in the final challenge, after all my question is why didn’t I come to the cycle earlier why only an hour before the challenge