Blade's Side Blog

He/It/Fang ⁓ Adult Punk ⁓ NPD ⁓ Persecutor

[a-jagged-nightmare]

Welcome In

PT: Welcome In /End PT

This is a sideblog cause I got tired of seeing too much of our collective system's stuff in the feed. I'm active off and on due to unreliable fronting. You'll see me post in bursts.

My name's Blade, you can also call me Nightmare or Dagger/Dags. I use He/Him, It/Its, and Fang/Fangs pronouns primarily, however any of the pronouns here (link) are also fine. I'm a Proud Persecutor, Narcissist (as in have NPD), and Faggot. If you got problems piss off. I'll either ignore you or laugh at you. Either way you won't do anything here. I also have HPD, AsPD, SzPD, and we have a fair amount of disorders collectively including psychosis spec ones. We're bodily 18 but personally I'm somewhere not too far above 21 as a headmate.

I personally am punk, and we're getting the body into the punk scene collectively. If it's not obviously by that, we don't fucking identity police there. Male lesbian? Cool. Not my business. AFAB transwoman? Cool. Not my business. A literally fucking dog smacking at the keys. Cool. Not my business. This blog is explicitly supportive of "contradictory" identities, alterhuman identities (especially nonhuman, fiction and fact identities), those with atypical dysphoria, and disabilities of all kinds. I do not however identify as radqueer.

But yeah, you'll primarily see a lot of persecutor, narcissist and punk stuff here. Hopefully I'll have my own projects to post here soon, we'll see.

Tags if you're curious: #Blade's Battles - My text posts #-Reblog - Reblogs (very ambiguous definitely) #I refuse to be silent - Punk Reblogs (will also have gen reblog tag) #Jacket Progress - Progress on our jacket

I tag us political stuff, because we're in the US and it effects us. I encourage you to stay aware, but also don't overwhelm yourself.

More to be added

Credit

ID: A black userbox with red outline and text that reads "This user wears "persecutor" like a badge of fucking honor". The image is in red and black and shows what appears to be two feet up against a screen of some kind (Image unclear). /End ID

[natalieironside]

I think I'm gonna start calling it "CBRN ordnance" instead of tear gas, pepper rounds, et al. Just to hammer home the point, y'know. "The cops used teargas against the protestors" You mean the regime deployed proscribed CBRN ordnance in order to pacify the dissident citizens

[catgirlwarrior]

i think it's important that this stays with the post

[biteybeast]

i do think its really convenient how they name this shit so nonthreateningly. "tear gas" awwww it makes you cry a little haha. wrong. you can go blind.

[natalieironside]

"Gas that makes you go blind and gives you chemical pneumonia and respiratory cancer" just isn't as marketable, I suppose

[rat-collective]

Whatever gas they shot at us literally ate through the waterproofing on my rain coat and permanently damaged one of my eyes (needed surgery), and I wasn't even hit directly.

[a-jagged-nightmare]

ID: a screenshot of tumblr tags that read "#the big machine" and "#cbrn stands for 'chemical biological radiological or nuclear' btw /End ID

[transwarlock]

FAG FLAG 🏵️ 🧨

Okay so basically I’ve wanted to make this for a really long time, but didn’t know where to start. Since any discussion surrounding the slur ‘fag’ is inextricable from discussions about ‘dyke’ I felt that the best approach would be to directly mirror my dyke flag design. 

black - power, strength, and freedom that comes with reclaiming ‘fag.’ also representative of any and all black mlm and black nonbinary achilleans who identify as fags, as they have always been the backbone of this community.

red - the history of ‘fag’ as a violent slur, then being transformed into a more positive identifier that many of us reclaim.

orange - strength in numbers, solidarity, and a sense of community, all fiercely dedicated to protecting vulnerable LGBTQ+ people from harm.

yellow - unapologetic love and support for LGBTQ+ men, regardless of attraction to men or lack thereof.

white (carnations; typically green) - became a queer symbol in 1892 (thanks to Oscar Wilde). wearing a green carnation on your lapel was a secret, subtle hint that you were a man who loved other men (since ‘fag’ is a slur most commonly associated with / used against mlm). 

read more about the symbolism of green carnations

thank you for reading! 🧡

please feel free to use this flag in edits, icons, etc. (you don’t have to directly credit me, but I won’t stop you.)

[a-jagged-nightmare]

ID: A black flag with three diagonal stripes going from top left to bottom right. The right stripe is red, the middle stripe orange, and left stripe is yellow-orange. There is black space/stripes between each stripe. In the bottom left corner is a flat white carnation up straight, and a second one tilted towards the top right corner overlapping the first flower.

@radiomogai

[anarchistmemedistro]

Meta Is Blocking Links to ICE List on Facebook, Instagram, and Threads

Users of Meta’s social platforms can no longer share links to ICE List, a website listing what it claims are the names of thousands of DHS e

ICE List Wiki

ICE List Wiki

[squeakitties]

wikipedia no longer being anywhere near the top of search results when looking up anything feels eviscerating

[ichorandpride]

#they really said “you can’t use wiki as an academic source-use our garbage AI that’s even less reliable”#and you can’t even opt out of it

no but you can FORCE it away. use ublock origin and copy paste the blacklist i made into the filters to be able to remove the bullshit AI overview that google forces. it also removes youtube's forced ads (at least until they fix it)

you can also use the ublacklist extension and use this blacklist of AI image generation websites to curate your google image results

there are ALWAYS ways around stuff. it's just a matter of looking into it and asking around

[nicenice7]

I'M FREE

[alistairsprayerwarrior]

FOR WIKIPEDIA!!!!

[a-jagged-nightmare]

PT: no but you can FORCE it away. use ublock origin and copy paste the blacklist i made into the filters to be able to remove the bullshit AI overview that google forces. it also removes youtube's forced ads (at least until they fix it) you can also use the ublacklist extension and use this blacklist of AI image generation websites to curate your google image results /end PT

ID: Meme image of someone breaking a chain above their head in front of a sunset/rise /end ID

Pt: For Wikipedia!!!! (in all caps) /End Pt

[anarchistmemedistro]

[a-jagged-nightmare]

ID from alt

ID: tweet by @/DebsEbooks: “We have no enemies among the workers of other countries; and no friends among the capitalists of any country; the workers of all countries are our friends and the capitalists of all countries are our enemies. The class war is our war and our only war.” /End ID

[interstellarchaosss]

More adopts! This one is already claimed!

You can find our open adopts at our ko-fi.

[depsidase]

[highhappyhog]

I made a Zine about this! If anyone ever wants to print and hand it out, please do!

[eldritchbauble]

Your disgust factor is not a moral compass.

[persecutor-bites]

Persecutors do not need to become protectors to “redeem” themselves

Ignoring persecutors unmet needs redirecting their rage towards externals (those outside your system) does not fix anything, if anything it just makes it worse. Persecutors are people, not angry dogs that you can train to hurt others.

[non-dys-sys]

Persecutors deserve better and not because they’re “misguided protectors” but because they’re people. -Medds

[non-dys-sys]

It’s never okay to lock a headmate away, never. They could be the worst person in the world, you still shouldn’t lock them away. There’s a difference between keeping headmates away from eachother and taking away someone’s privacy, free will and connections. You are abandoning that headmate, you are telling them that they are not worth helping, that they don’t deserve to get better. If talking it out doesn’t work for them there are other options, I’d recommend giving them their own space to speak their mind without threat of mistreatment for it, for starters. If someone really doesn’t want help don’t force it on them, just let them know it’s always an option and leave it at that. -Ange

[fvck-around-find-out]

Bitter pill for some of you "good" alters to swallow, but some "bad" alters split because you needed someone to hate.

Some persecutors act the way that they do precisely so you'll direct your hate onto them, where it's safe, rather than anger your abuser or abuse an innocent yourself.

Maybe actually unpack why you hate that alter before you do. "But they did this or that or" yeah, maybe they fucking did. But why did they do it? Just to be a cunt? Maybe. Sometimes sure. But sometimes you need to look a little deeper and give your brain some fucking credit – it can do some messed up shit to keep you safe. Including creating an amalgamation of morally bad behaviour that you can feel good about taking your anger out on.

Except, sometimes, that amalgamation has feelings and a name and know what their job is, and don't enjoy it. They do it because it's the only way to guarantee you're not going to cuss out your abuser and get you all hurt or killed.

[perseculters]

Shout out to little persecutors who don't get taken "seriously" because theyre little

Shout out to little persecutors who need as much care as a regular little

Shout out to little persecutors who don't need to be cared for

Shout out to little persecutors who don't think they deserve to be cared for

Shout out to little persecutors who are more dangerous then the systems adult persecutors

Shout out to little persecutors who are trying to get better

Shout out to little persecutors who are trying to get worse

Shout out to little persecutors. you're valid and I love you.

[persecutorlifeandsupport]

When We Say Don’t Lock Up Your Persecutors We DO Mean ALL Persecutors

I see a lot of people saying “don’t lock up your persecutors” is a privileged saying that doesn’t apply to systems with “severe” persecutors. This is wrong.

You are not evil or terrible for locking up your persecutors, but you are digging your own grave. Potentially literally.

Yes, it isn’t always safe for persecutors to front! But that doesn’t mean they shouldn’t ever be allowed to, and it most certainly does not mean they should be isolated from the rest of the system. 

Persecutors usually- not always, but almost- act the way we do because of trauma, in some way or another. Even when they aren’t, trauma has a habit of making people dangerous. ‘Locking up’ your persecutors, or any member of your system, or any person really, is going to be traumatizing. It just will be.

You can’t lock us up forever. And when we return, the results will be even more dangerous than before, with the additional consequence that they will not trust you. To heal as a persecutor requires compassion and inner-system relationships. You have to feel that your systemmates are worth sacrificing yourself, your identity, your goals, for. And yeah, in the end it’s worth it, for you and your system especially. But it’s hard, and when you can’t trust your system it gets even harder. That’s part of why persecutor-hosts are such a big problem.

That being said, you also can’t just let us run rampant. Some of us are only perceived as harmful because of what we represent or because of the misguided beliefs of the rest of the system, but not all of us.

We would recommend that you allow your persecutors as much fronting time as they want. If you have the ability to lock them up, you have the ability to let them out and only prevent fronting in situations that are dangerous. Let them have a hobby, be it kickboxing or painting, and let them stay in front as long as they want, or until they do something dangerous. 

You also need to foster trust and some form of mutual understanding. Persecutors are often adrift from the majority of the system, and there’s a lot of miscommunication that goes on. Working on that, and helping foster at least one positive relationship with your persecutor in-system (and out-system as well) is going to be incredibly helpful.

For example, if your persecutor has problems with self-harming, you could offer markers and paints, allow them to scream or sing at the top of your lungs, encourage them to talk to someone, inside the system or not. Figure out what they want and give it to them. People don’t want to hurt themselves or others for no reason.

It’s slow. It hurts. But it is so worth it.

[persecutorlifeandsupport]

#Hello persecutor here#redirection was better for me than anything else in my experience#figuring out what was at the root of my desire to hurt people and figuring out how to express that other ways#like I have a sparring room in the inner world and some targets for practice#and I’m in a few servers for persecutors so I can talk with people like myself#I’m by no means good but doing that was much better than locking me up (didn’t happen but it would have just made things worse)#persecutor shit

- @professional-retired-asshole

[variegated-fairywren]

YES. Treating us like we’re super dangerous and always will be is a surefire way to make that a reality. At the end of the day, what it took for me to stop what I was doing was one of my headmates asking me if I wanted to watch TV, like I was a person they wanted to spend time with. Just. Treat us like we’re people. Don’t let people hurt you, stand up for yourself, but treat persecutors like people. That’s basically the best advice I can give for dealing with a persecutor.

[a-jagged-nightmare]

Pt: When we say dont lock up your persecutors we do mean All persecutors /End pt

[professional-retired-asshole]

Shoutout to persecutors whose end goal of recovery isn’t being a protector (or some other supporting role)

Shoutout to persecutors who don’t want to engage in what’s generally thought of as “recovery”

Shoutout to persecutors who prioritize change/personal growth/adaptation to what they’re dealing with now, not “recovery”

Shoutout to persecutors who want to be recognized for who they are now, not who they might be in the future

Shoutout to persecutors who need to continue to be persecutors in order to deal with their current environment, persecutors who aren’t “safe” yet

Shoutout to persecutors who have no internal motivation to change their morality or ethics

Shoutout to persecutors who see nothing wrong with what they’re doing, but still have to change their behavior

Shoutout to persecutors who struggle to change their behavior

Shoutout to persecutors who prefer ways of coping and interacting with others that aren’t “therapist-approved”

Shoutout to persecutor-protectors and persecutors-turned-protectors who do their jobs in a way that isn’t soft and positive, or do their job in a “mean” way

We’re valuable as we are now, not just as we might be later or might’ve been earlier

[a-jagged-nightmare]

Pt: We're valuable as we are now, not just as we might be later or might've been earlier /End pt

[nix-far-scourge]

everybody remember, there is plural joy out there. you don't have to suffer and be miserable to be a system. sure, might suck sometimes, and some will have their struggles, but you will make it through the dark. Remember the good that comes from being a system, things that happen in headspace, the internal support, everything that you didn't have before that you needed desperately. you will live, we all will. we're all systems regardless of origins and what terms we may use, we need to support each other. and hate isn't fucking punk!