A Darker Shade of Light

Momentary Brilliance

[a-k-a-williams]

[a-k-a-williams]

Bravery or bravado

Nervous or vibrato

What will it be?

When the time comes?

[a-k-a-williams]

Try to pretend that we're not dying, alone.

Afraid of having to grasp the unknown.

I cradle to this memory of you;

A saddened glimpse if what not to do.

Distance: intentional, deliberate.

Too much for anyone to moderate

Gaps, more than any zip code could achieve.

A path left too unpaved, that, I believe.

And I cry, not with any tears at all,

Like a dormant tree, trapped in the chill fall.

Waiting for some sun that will not come soon;

Forever eclipsed, not even the moon

To shed some divinity as guidance

Through this solemn and deathly silence

[a-k-a-williams]

The clown prince

[a-k-a-williams]

Monday's quip

Blessed are these wee lit hours

That shape seeds to budded flowers

All I ask is for a well met hold

A reason to face the dark and cold

Never regretting the could have beens

And tracing a line of past and friends

They circle back to complete a thought

And now rest, for we had fought 

The good fight and the bad

To renew a look that we once had

[a-k-a-williams]

Since you will not speak

Allow me to say goodbye

I know, you tried, we tried

It should not be so complicated

It’s fated, to be

No longer bound, you’re free

What do you wish to see?

Horizons with no ending

Winds and willows bending

To your needs

I can not say that I’m excited

Delighted,...

[a-k-a-williams]

Apparent Aperation

Since you will not speak

Allow me to say goodbye

I know, you tried, we tried

It should not be so complicated

It's fated, to be

No longer bound, you're free

What do you wish to see?

Horizons with no ending

Winds and willows bending

To your needs

I can not sat that I'm excited

Delighted, yet curiously divided

I'm sitting in a room

That use to be our room

Devoid of all it's old meaning

Can I be the one finally right?

Passage of phrase, I did write

Should not be so damn confusing

You're afraid that I am losing

It's the very air I breathe

Forgetting our feet

To rise above and see

We're more than Where we're going

Even more so than where we are

The future is so convoluted

Growing up to what we were eluding 

A bare canvas but full of meaning 

The good, the bad, the demeaning 

Knowing there's nothing

The terror of the scene

Decaying Memory of organized dementia 

[a-k-a-williams]

Caffeine and nick

This Maduro T replaces the need For creamed coffee A blackened brew, now a tinted hue A simple pleasure For a simple peasant

These jittery broken down hands Have forgotten the feel of skin Simplicities and perceived sin

The screams that flitter through The walls, to others might stir A scowl, but this mind does prowl And cannot be so easily disturbed By ghostly flights

Hesitation might seal my fate Yet patience has courted me The leaves have begin to brown As silver begins to line the crown

How many broken hearts Will this malpractice force? And though I hold no PHD I have the symptoms Of illegible writings and cockiness

I find it hard to even treasure Even the simplest of pleasure I enjoy and despise the wrapped elegance Beautiful tones on degenerate lips

That woes and soothes And turns a stiff shoulder To lighten the load To remember that stress Is a part of the mind

So let it go from time to time With balance remember of caffeine and nicotine

[a-k-a-williams]

A lazy sitting wonderer

The smell of rain The knock on wood Chirps of bugs I know not their name

The boards groaned Swollen from water Shrinking from the heat Sounds like buried bodies Reminding me they’re here Beneath my feet

My eye sight is fading A stronger prescription is needed To combat what I most likely Fueled from foolish behavior

The water calms the soul But disturbs the mind Interrupting these fleeting thoughts

[a-k-a-williams]

One pump

My veins have reached 32 Oxidation would not recess the blue A once raging, coursing river All but halted, except the shiver Remind me what it means to live Take back the promise and remove the shiv Remember what it once was That memory that left warmth and fuzz Hold fast to God gold and glory The Spanish dream or your untold story Forge now, dig deep and discover A new ritual to help recover Flickers of birds scatter in drones Fleeing from a flock of crones Fluttering in flustered fovea Giving ground to this induced hysteria

[a-k-a-williams]

Life should not be about life, liberty, and only the pursuit

[a-k-a-williams]

Life is pursuing the things you love doing and accomplishing. Never forget who you are or give up on your dreams

[a-k-a-williams]

Renaissance

Today I vow to make a change: I heart, mind, body, soul, purpose, and direction. My life revolves around work. It dominates every facet of my being; It even permeates my dreams. There is never time like the present to alter ones destiny. I take a stand at new direction. It is time to re-embrace the principles upon which I once stood. 

[a-k-a-williams]

all lefts

No time to waste

But no time to face

All the fears that I have

But what do I fear besides

Heights and mice in men

The kind of cowardice of mind

That leaves only to where we begin

Perpetual commotion

In a circular motion

[a-k-a-williams]

The word that could not be said

My heart goes out to you

I felt the spark that love

Strikes your body with

Resuscitate me 

It is interesting

To have told myself

I do not feel it

Only to have it

Be Felt, all over

Transcending doubt

Is it possible?

To love again

And yet, I will not

Share those three words

With her

I do not wish to rob

Either of us

Of the pleasure we have

I shall for the time being

Test it, to see if it can

Be more than myth

And smoke and mirrors

She will know when the time is right

[a-k-a-williams]

Post traumatic past dramatic

Hurry up, I'm out on a limb

It won't be long 'till I fall again

I'm just just here to see if you would catch

To test how far we all detach

Ourselves from humanity

But before I lose more sanity

[a-k-a-williams]

un-Followed footstep

When the pieces begin to fall in place

Ware seems less evident in open space

One can breathe in calmed air

Each step not appearing apart of a crazy stair

Impossible and out of reach

Regressing to a simple path