Formerly and now Once again A-Square-6-28-496, Formerly and Once

I'm 31 years old (born in 1994). See disability-access-square, and imagedescription square for my main disability side blogs. I believe in anticolonialism, indiginous rights, climate change mitigation, biodiversity, civil rights, queer liberation, disabled rights and access and so on. I believe in sharing resources if not socialism, society built for the public good not for the uber-uber-uber-uber-rich endless wealth growth , building/maintaining community, and anarchism (as an ideal of opposing unecessary power structures and orderings). I think we should have better public transit and protect the wilds. My blog functions often as a diary and as a to do list to compensate for my executive functioning issues. I enjoy star trek and many other fandoms.

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I'm thinking that my to do list might need three sections.

One - checklist: (5 -15 minute tasks)

meals, dental hygeine, laundry, folding, dishes in dishwasher, clear counters, recycle papers,... append desired grocey items to list, ...

Two - checklist (15 minute -1 hour or less tasks)

pick up items from grocery store, mail letter to friend, ask for adress to mail letter to other friend, text brother about dance lessons (sus/ variable time estimate), ... etc. , when are taxes due? , talk to mom about orthotics. Practice kindness? , make dental appointment.

Three - (hour+ projects)

Buy shoes, buy orthotics (sus time estimate?), do Taxes (search for info, print off forms, fill out, send), get dental insurance. Change primary care doctor, go out dancing, archery, biking, swimming, online training "grocery" list: mouthwash, dentil floss (I have a few months before I need more), toilet paper, shoes, orthotics, ice cream? (not necessary), laundry protector bag, ear plugs, nice black pants, doctor: primary care, dentist, podiatry

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My hip hurts more than I was expecting with usage, but I don't know why I did not expect it to hurt. I've gotten spoiled I guess. I forgot how it feels when I fuck it up.

I say, and my thumb still hurts to bend--it helps if I rub the surrounding area post usage. But really it's true. I've been spoiled with confidence in my own body. Surprised pikachu face that it could hurt to do something as simple as walk or stand still. Again.

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i fucked up my stretches too. because of course i did. 4 hours of sleep is not enough sleep. everything gets fucked. also i was distracted and it's hard not to fuck up when you want your body to be fixed

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I'm awake on 4 hours of sleep. I don't feel tired. but i'm gonna need another sleep cycle. I'm hurt. My body aches. My hip is a little fucked up courtesy of work yesterday and my coworkers being unhelpful and chatting while I tried to cover everything in *our* 3 sections and me trying to take longer and longer strides without any chill. My legs are tight which is fine. My shoulder is messed up from when I tried to left the milk in a way that I clearly should not have (that was just me being stupid). (I think it's okay with that weight when I keep the weight tucked in close to my body but trying to extend outwards requires a stronger set of *different* muscles that I don't have. So, I can't do it without hurting *something*. It'll get better.)

Anyway, that sucks. I'm not even sad about it tho because it does not alter or change anything in my life really. Like, there are things I can't go out and try to do today but it's already my established routine to have setbacks like this all the time. So, it does not evoke a sense of grief in me. And my current lifestyle is actually usually pretty happy. One thing I'm going to have to do is figure out how to talk to the relevant coworkers about it. It's difficult because it's like who am I to say I think they're goofing off too much?

So, I'll do my dynamic stretches now. I expect pain for 2 weeks from this.

[datgreenmonstah]

“The tiger”(2020) based on a poem written by Nael age 6

This piece apparently was never posted here, so I’m fixing that

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I once again want to read Boko No Hero Academia fanfic but specifically about MY character OC. Which is --I can't write her right now. I don't know the things I need to know in order to write her.

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what I want to do today: [] sleep [] eat [] brush my teeth. even tho i don't want to. [] call my friend [] return my friend's books [] read library book [] turn in shoes to shoe store recycle/reuse program [] verb sunscreen [] verb thread [] ... [] verb pants [] verb shorts [] verb underwear ][ ...

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well I had dinner and a longer search for my missing nightgowns. i suspect they're in a box underneath my bed. which if true, is a pain to try to get at.

so an hour of mild room tidying/rearranging/searching later I'm still awake. I still don't feel tired.

my thumb is sore tho.

also, my library book is gonna be auto returned soon...

i should read it while i can.

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i've been lying in bed with my eyes closed in the dark and I can't sleep. I think it's because I did not have second dinner (or third meal since lunch was not really a thing). also maybe bc i had the overhead light on for hours and while it did not give me a headache, it always ruins my sleep schedule. one or both of those.

so, I was thinking. Mostly about how I should eat some dinner. also that I should go do things tomorrow.

which can't happen if I have not eaten and slept.

also how my body is eating itself because I have not eaten enough. and how I'm sore because I went too hard. and how I don't feel like getting up and getting dressed and how it's a pain to live with one's parents because it requires getting dressed. presumably, similar problems with roommates that you are not in a sexual relationship with. And also this would be simpler if I owned more functional clothing that was easy to get in and out of quickly... a nightgown. a nightgown is perfect for this. I do have that... which brings to my attention the fact that i have apparently misplaced all of my nightgowns. I cannot find them. Presumably they are all together because that's how I like to organize things but I cannot find them at all. amazing. I really need a functional wardrobe. whatever. 3 am dinner time.

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lost two more hours to short form content. this time it was an accident tho. was closing a tab. oh well I should comment on this before moving on since I've had it open in tabs for several days and it feels like a waste otherwise. which is ridiculous. it's a waste either way. then many more videos. more waste. foolish.

I need to get to sleep nowish. it's my latest bedtime.

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watched a bunch of short form video content on Facebook (facebook reels) and it was mostly a waste of time. BUT I was doing it intentionally.

So the types of videos I got were educational scams guilt trips fitness weight loss /appearance bait masquerading as fitness knots theory and on and on less and less relevant or memorable. some cute baking videos comedy I've seen before. SO, the types of videos I WANT the fitness videos ( I can't remember how to do certain exercises. I should maybe find a book instead) the knots. they were cool. but I've seen better. And I've seen these ones before. also I liked the one about whales.

[elokitties]

are we going to start acknowledging that cancel culture does not work on oppressors and has thus created a system of impossible morality which makes people stagnant and fearful instead of empathetic and productive members of society. and those under the most scrutiny for moral purity are most often the victims of the so called cancelable offense

[rlyehtaxidermist]

one of the best academic paper titles

[rlyehtaxidermist]

for those who don't speak academia: "according to our MRI machine, dead fish can recognise human emotions. this suggests we probably should look at the results of our MRI machine a bit more carefully"

[derinthescarletpescatarian]

I hope everyone realises how incredibly important this dead fish study is. This was SO fucking important.

[imightbeobsessedwithsocks]

I still don’t understand

[derinthescarletpescatarian]

So basically, in the psych and social science fields, researchers would (I don't know if they still do this, I've been out of science for awhile) sling around MRIs like microbiolosts sling around metagenomic analyses. MRIs can measure a lot but people would use them to measure 'activity' in the brain which is like... it's basically the machine doing a fuckload of statistics on brain images of your blood vessels while you do or think about stuff. So you throw a dude in the machine and take a scan, then give him a piece of chocolate cake and throw him back in and the pleasure centres light up. Bam! Eating chocolate makes you happy, proven with MRI! Simple!

These tests get used for all kinds of stuff, and they get used by a lot of people who don't actually know what they're doing, how to interpret the data, or whether there's any real link between what they're measuring and what they're claiming. It's why you see shit going around like "men think of women as objects because when they look at a woman, the same part of their brain is active as when they look at a tool!" and "if you play Mozart for your baby for twenty minutes then their imagination improves, we imaged the brain to prove it!" and "we found where God is in the brain! Christians have more brain activity in this region than atheists!"

There are numerous problems with this kind of science, but the most pressing issue is the validity of the scans themselves. As I said, there's a fair bit of stats to turn an MRI image into 'brain activity', and then you do even more stats on that to get your results. Bennett et. al.'s work ran one of these sorts of experiments, with one difference -- they used a dead salmon instead of living human subjects. And they got positive results. The same sort of experiment, the same methodology, the same results that people were bandying about as positive results. According to the methodology in common use, dead salmon can distinguish human facial expressions. Meaning one of two things:

Dead salmon can recognise human facial expressions. OR

Everyone else's results are garbage also, none of you have data for any of this junk.

I cannot overstate just how many papers were completely fucking destroyed by this experiment. Entire careers of particularly lazy scientists were built on these sorts of experiments. A decent chunk of modern experimental neuropsychology was resting on it. Which shows that science is like everything else -- the best advances are motivated by spite.

[brightlotusmoon]

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Should I get up? Yes. Am I going to get up? well now I am... yes.

[heatherwitch]

Ray Bradbury’s short story “There Will Come Soft Rains” that was written in 1950 is set on the day of August 4th, 2026 (tomorrow)!! Now’s your chance to read it around the time it’s based in!

Audio: A recording of Leonard Nimoy reading it on Internet Archive.

Text: A PDF version.

Graphic Novel: On Internet Archive.

[unamccormack]

I used to set this one for second year undergraduate creative writing seminars on writing science fiction on a double bill with Octavia E. Butler's "Bloodchild" and no-one here gets out alive.

[regionalpancake]

!!!! Today is the only chance we’ll ever have to listen to this absolute banger of apocalyptic fiction on the very day the story is set 😲✨

Nemoy’s voice is PERFECT in this!

(A content warning if you do listen - the dog dies, though it’s not super graphic)

[regionalpancake]

I paused the robot vacuum so I could listen to this 1950’s story predicting the robot vacuum.

[disorientation]

Having a "stupider people have done this" attitude about the things you want to do can open so many doors

[beggars-opera]

Sometimes I think about how the entirety of the media that forged me as a person during my middle/high school years is tainted now and like...how the hell does one truly recover from that

[talenlee]

I've been saying this to Harry Potter fans that come to the stall for years now, but the phrase I want to impart is that every good thing, every good lesson, every cool line you got, out of the works of bad people, is a little handful of gold you stole from a dragon.