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19 -year-old Multimedia Arts student from Manila // also a mom of a cute 2-year-old boy

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Hindi tayo tao, hindi tayo hayop; bagay tayo.

kasi ang hilig nating magpagamit // {/BrienneOfArt}

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Windoll. 2016

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Party Hard Shibber. 2016

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Woman Up. 2016

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Doge 1.0. 2016

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I’ll only call you when it’s half past five my class is done.

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Of all the things you've exposed to me, your soul captivated me the most.

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hola new followers

Again I apologize if this blog doesn’t follow back. (Secondary blog rule sucks)

However, I follow back with my other blog.

Though I don’t follow everyone back. Sorry.

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CAS Week Opening: Part 1

15th February, 2016 - It was the first day of our CAS week and for our opening event, we had a CASplay or Pinoy Panitikan Cosplay where everyone who had FIL classes dressed up as different Filipino literature characters, and I was the only one who went as Darna.

My Darna cosplay was supposed to be just a joke, since I wanted to dress up for grade’s sake at the same time I didn’t want to be boring so, Darna. But good lord, when I put the entire costume on, I felt like I had to be in character since Darna is pretty damn iconic.

And I actually won 1st runner-up for this cosplay. Hooray!

Costume was rented from Pinoy Superman himself, Mr. Herbert Chavez.

Makeup and hair by yours truly. :D

-- Photos by: Vincenz Dumelod and Reese Macalma, and from my phone cam.

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“But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts.”

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“ Where is this love? I can't see it, I can't touch it. I can't feel it. I can hear it. I can hear some words, but I can't do anything with your easy words. “

-Alice, Closer (2004)  

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You can buy my love with hugs and kisses and quality time and beautiful conversations and loyalty. I don’t know why most of you men would still want hoes you can easily get with expensive gifts, a ride home, and fancy dinner dates.

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So this is how it feels to be done with all the crying. It feels empty. Like, everyday you wake up and just stare at the four walls of your room, without a single thought in your head, because you're done with thinking. You're done with all the negativity. You've already accepted the fact that negativity is always there so you don't really have to think about it more. It feels empty, yet, you know that emptiness can't be filled overnight or even in a decade. Because you've already accepted that you're not worth of any kind of love and care and affection anymore. (And reading about love makes you feel good but that elated feeling stops at the end of the poem you read or when the director's name flashes on the screen.) And it just sucks. You're not happy, but you're also not sad. You can't feel a damn thing, like, you're better off dead than be alive and feeling nothing at all.

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It’s National Heroes Day! So I’m just gonna leave this photo from my National Museum visit of me and the exquisite Spoliarium by Juan Luna.

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Hey, I need advice on how to move on. Haha! I just need someone to talk to. Is that okay? (I'll take that as a yes haha). So, nag break kasi kami ni Y nung june 15. So ngayon I'm still dying every night thinking about her, halos gabi-gabi na akong umiinom ng beer para lang makatulog at maiwasan mag overthink. I still love her. Even though we don't agree on almost everything I still love her in a way I just can't explain. Well, you need friction to create fire, right? So ayun, sana replyan mo ako

Ganyan naman talaga sa umpisa. Haha. Kahit ako noon, gabi gabi umiiyak and shit, asking kung kailan matatapos yung mga gabing ganun. Now I’m here, totally over him. Over time magsasawa karin umiyak at magisip. So maaadvice ko lang siguro sayo, keep yourself busy with things you love doing - video games, drawing, traveling, partying, etc. Di mo sya makakalimutan completely agad (alam mo naman yun) pero by keeping yourself occupied kasi syempre diba mas mababawasan lang yung time mo para magisip tungkol sa kanya. Altho sa una talaga lahat ng bagay ng gagawin mo maaalala mo sya hehe. So it’s also good to surround yourself with happy people and friends hehe. Ayun lang. Iiyak mo yan ngayon. In just a few months gagaan rin yan. Only time can heal. :)

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Kailan kaya dadating yung araw na magugustuhan nila ako hindi dahil maganda lang ako sa paningin nila, kundi dahil nakikita nila yung kung ano pang meron sa likod ng lahat ng gandang nakikita ng mata nila?