mind map

[aassistantinsg]

So i broke down in the office yesterday. It wasnt because my boss said anything to me. I was more frustrated at myself, cause of the unrealistic goal i had set up for myself. Trying to finish my drawings within 6 hours and trying to get everything accurate. I obviously couldnt do it. Im just not experienced enough. BUT that does not mean i cant give my 100% and more. Ive been working at this firm for 2 months and ive learnt alot. Ive been improving everyday. Tho it may be minimal, some improvement is better than none. All i can say is that i know im giving my 100% if that isnt enough for my boss then it just isnt. I am giving my all. At least if and when he does let me go, then i know that i finished the best i could and with something. I am very determined to be better and get to the standard i need to be at. Its going to be difficult but i will get there. New years is in an hour and ive been home working. No one really here to celebrate it with. Maybe i should attempt to make a resolution list. 1. Dont stop believing in myself and God 2. Dont stop learning 3. Stay strong, assertive, demanding, determined 4. Be happy and least stressful. Learn to deal with stress better. Remember you are in control, assest, alter and adapt. 5. Be thankful

[aassistantinsg]

Adapt

[aassistantinsg]

Mind maps so you can check track of everything that happens in a project

[aassistantinsg]

You need to fail in order to move forward

http://www.bakadesuyo.com/2012/11/embarrassing-disappointing-soul-crushing-failure-need/ I feel that the article above shows some good insight to why its ok to make mistakes. It definately makes me feel better about the ones i have made over the past few days. On Monday I will make a list. Specifically a yo do list of the things i need to get done. Because i am too slow and am always losing track of time.

[wnq-anonymous]

In any case, you mustn’t confuse a single failure with a final defeat.

F. Scott Fitzgerald, Tender Is the Night (via wnq-anonymous)

[aassistantinsg]

Ive started this blog, as a healthy way to sort through my thoughts. I am an architectural assistant in Singapore. I got my job a year after i had graduated and found it difficult to get a job till my now boss had decided to take a chance on me.

I love what i do. I enjoy it. Its intense. Its complicated. Its challenging. I love the studio environment. I love the drawings i create.

However, i make mistakes. And coming to terms with those mistakes is something im finding very difficult. I feel like i cant make mistakes. I need to constantly remind myself im human. But i also need to learn from those mistakes. Be smart about the decisions i make. I am in control. I choose what i want to believe. So if i make a mistake, get over it and learn.

I suffer from anxiety too. I cant sleep or breathe. I think i suffer from gad, cause i worry about everything. This blog will help me draw these gad out help me realise my irrational fears. Its been bad these few days. I feel like i had moments of blackouts where i cant really remember why i made those decisions. I can only guess that they were spontaneous and emotional.

The goal is to write a little every night after work. Summarising my day as well as reminding and resolving my thoughts. Hopefully this will stop them snowballing around in my head when im trying to fall asleep.

[aassistantinsg]

The most productive, creative environments expect and plan on mistakes, and it’s a natural part of growing and learning. That said, some cultures aren’t as evolved yet and may make you feel like a mistake is bad. If you have genuinely done the best that you could at the time, with the knowledge you had at the time, mark it as a reminder that you’re human, and move on, no matter how anyone makes you feel. You’re in control of everything you think and believe–only you know what your truth is

Darcy Eikenberg