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plus size alt fashion, animal husbandry & research, & weight loss journey posts :) plus just random stuff from my life 21 years old

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hello!! get to know a bit about me

• my name is abagail & i’m 21 :)

• i am a fan of alt & goth fashion and music

• i am AuDHD

• bigggg fan of animals—i am an animal educator currently!

• actively on my weight loss journey

pls feel free to ask me any questions!

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i have finally updated my list of animals to research that i wanna own and i am actually so hype :3 bf gave approval for anything smaller than he is tall, so i have up to 6’6” for snakes and stuff. which means im getting mostly males lol

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1/26/25 card pull

i am so happy i pulled this. i needed this today.

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hanging at a hotel for the night :)

very excited to be out of the house

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send in some questions for me!!

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i’m really interested in doing a full length d&d campaign after i did a one shot :D

i played as a grung, but now i’m interested in being a barbarian tabaxi tiefling with path of the ancestral guardian. also interested in a satyr bard character!! i feel like it’d be so fun. i love the character creation, and my autism loves the organization of the stats and everything. my friends and partner put on such good games, and have so much fun together. i love the group i ended up playing with. it was my friends, boyfriends friend, boyfriends friends partner, and my bf as the DM. i am so excited to play again. idk when we will, but i started becoming a dice goblin and collecting a lot lol.

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card pull of the day 1/22/2025

new moon in aries - it’s time to take action

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i’m so annoyed that i’ve been diagnosed with a fainting disorder that’s just unlabeled. they did bloodwork, that came back all fine. they haven’t done anything further than that. doctor told me they’d set me up for a tilt table test if bloodwork came back fine but that never happened. i’ve passed out twice publicly and i feel like i get dizzier each day when i stand up. i almost pass out several times a day. i’m definitely eating enough, definitely drinking water (probably not enough), and im trying to take care of myself as best as i can. my friends and some family think its POTS, i have no clue what could be wrong. i was thinking heart issue but they’ve also done heart ultrasounds with no results. i just don’t know what’s going on with me. i don’t want this for the rest of my life.

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okay update i’ve only gained 7.4 pounds since jan 1st but STILLLL seems crazy to me. i need to get it back down. i used to be 255.9 at my lowest since on these meds, and i so badly wanna get back there. i’d love to start going on walks and stuff too when it’s warmer out.

sadly i think the cold has just begun, though. it’s only 4° here and going to be below freezing the full rest of the week. idk when it starts to warm up again. i feel like january has been colder than december, and i thought december was our coldest month! hopefully next month it won’t be as bad. the days are starting to get longer now, hopefully that sunlight will be good for us :)

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well my pharmacy just called me and my zepbound is no longer covered by my insurance. so now they’re suggesting i try to get on a different covered medication that does the same thing. i’ll have to call the insurance company today sometime. i’m lowkey stressing because ive already gained back almost 15 pounds since being off of it. i cannot go back to the size i was. so now im going to try to take matters into my own hands in case i can’t. yesterday i tracked calories, my TDEE is about 2700 a day, i put my calorie goal as 2100. yesterday i ate about 2120, so a little over, but i was 267.8 yesterday and 267.1 today! so i did have some progress.

HW: 352

CW: 267.1

GW: 255

UGW: 220

i can do this :)

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feeling kinda cute today i guess

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i don’t think my about me posted🙄😔

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i am obsessed with this filter idk why LMAO

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been spending so much time journaling

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i am finally feeling the motivation to workout again.. this shit better last lmao. i am literally dying to get into the gym. i wanna focus on weight training and cardio, i know im capable of cardio but still figuring out the weights. i just am so ready to lose the weight. so sick of feeling like i do!! i know ive lost a lot already but ive been off my zepbound (forgot to ask my doc to up it, and now cannot afford it) for almost a full week and i’ve been gaining back weight. i feel like im eating like crazy!! so now im looking to food changes i can make. i think i need upped protein and fiber intake, as well as veggies. i’ve been taking super green gummies, idk how well those actually work or provide. i’m trying to do all i can to make my body good and it’s healthiest. i’ve been obese/overweight my entire life. i’ve never been healthy. i want so badly to experience that! and i feel like im in my prime years right now. it’s the time i want to be in shape the most ive ever wanted. i gotta use this motivation and propel myself ahead. i know it’ll take months or maybe even years to get myself where i want, but that’s okay with me. i’m ready to take it slow and take care of myself. i’ve even raised my weight goal from 180 to 220, because i know the 80 pound loss was really daunting to me. i’ve done it before, but doing it again scares me. i’ve gotten so far. i can’t stop now.