Wie Geht's

Dreams, are hard to follow. But, it's not impossible to happen. Cheers!

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Yes.

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Give it a break

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his cute smile T_T

bonus:

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Sometimes I feel like my feelings aren't valid

What I share through my personal social media account, aren't valid either

People indeed see, read, and hear

But..

They just don't really care

I was once an open book

You would straight away notice my situation

Through my social media

Whether it's anger, disappointment, joy

I showed you myself, my raw feelings

Hey look what it'd brought me, pain

Pain for sharing too much

Afraid that someone, anyone's going to notice

Respond me with something I don't really need, snarky remarks

I even thought about deactivating all of those social media account I have

Instagram, twitter, facebook, etc

Funny, wasn't it?

It wasn't and it still isn't

My feelings were valid that time

My feelings were just as valid as yours

People can be cruel with their words

When according to them

Their intention is all true

I learn my lessons

Because I've been in that positions many times

Whether I haven't been

I will still be careful with my words

Because words are words

They come directly from you, the speaker

Be kind

Always

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Hopefully, my drawing skill will get better😭😭

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REMEMBRANCE

It comes to my mind

I have never ever celebrated good friday

as it's name, good

I have never ever in my entire life

honored the privilege of celebrating good friday

at church

I have never ever appreciated good friday

as much as i appreciate easter day

as much as i enjoy Christmas celebration

Now I realize

how much i have missed those privilleges

of celebrating good friday in fellowship

I am all alone now

in this very good friday

I am all alone now

in this remembrance of Jesus' dying time

at the cross

I pity myself,

True, i pity myself for having all the rights

to worship and praise Him

but actually failed to worship and praise Him

I attended church

I praised Him with my mouth

I worshipped Him with my lips

Instead, my mind went blank

It went somewehere elses,

every places but the presence of the Lord

I presented there

but I was not really there

I pray for Him to be present

I pray for a composed mind

everytime before start worshipping Him

I fail, again and again

Whenever I feel overwhelmed by my surroundings

I come to Him

I remember Him

His never-ending gentle love

to me, my family, people I love

always reminds me that He will always be here with me

no matter what

no matter when

In this very solitude moment of humanity

let us always be opened up

for His great love

This moment that we have never expected to be happened

but it actually happens now

I wish you all the good in heaven and earth

I wish you that someday you will feel things

that I will definitely feel until the last breath of my life,

His love

Jesus..

I wish His presence in yours and your family life

Let us be gentle towards each other

Shall we?

Happy Good Friday

I really wish you a good one

Sincerely,

Dea

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겹

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jo jungseok and kyungsoo’s new haircut

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This is supposed to be Do Kyung Soo, but you see I failed. Still need a lot of practice.

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Me?

What can I tell you about me?

What do you want to know about me?

I am not that interesting, you know

I am just a little hurt inside

Deep.. actually

Some tell me to let my feelings out

To speak what I feel

To let it go

I'm hurting them with my words

They are hurting me with their responds

How could I go on speaking my mind, when both party hurt each other?

How could I?

How dare I?

I'm learning

I'm in process of loving myself

You tell me..

You tell me to love myself

When all you do to me is hurting me

Judging me

I don't necessarily need to explain everthing to you

All the actions I have done

I realized just now

I crave-CARE-to much about how people see me

I want to be seen as a nice-reliable person

Fucked up, isn't it?

I am all fucked up

I know..

We all are

Let's stop it here. Right here. Right now.

I want to love myself

I don't need to explain anything to you

If it's A, then I'll do it

If it's B, then I'll do it

I will do it without any further explanations

As long as it doesn't affect you, your well being

Is it good enough?

Interesting, no?

Reading nothing but a self-assurance

I want to love myself

I want to love myself

I really want to

I really need to

Is it just a phase?

It's not.

This is the point where you need to learn boundaries--for some people in your life

Where you need to know what to do in the future

Where all you have is your own

Not them, it's you.. yourself

When the time comes

You can't help but judging me,

I am good, lol yes. Do you believe me?

There's nothing I can do much about it, right?

No explanations

I've decided not to explain anymore

You've set your mind by judging me

What can a simple or whole-explanations do about it?

Taking back your judgment?

You already have judged me

What's done is already done, you can't take it back

You can't take all the misery back

You can't take all the self-loathing back

Can you?

Let me tell you a secret

You can't take back all those hurtful comments

It is there, in my heart, my mind

It will always be there

I'm sorry

I'm deeply apologize if somehow i hurt your feelings

Without acknowledge it at all

Let's stop here.

I am done

I am good

I really am

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LAKU-MU

Tidak jarang dituduh sebagai penjahat

Perihal mengais noda-noda pemerintahan

Menjalar mencari jalan keserakahan menuju keuntungan

Bermain dengan kesepakatan,

mencari celah ketidaksempurnaan

Tidak dalam permainan, pula pengaisan

Tidak seperti yang kamu pikirkan

tanggung jawab itu ada, nyata

Celah keterlibatan pun selalu ada,

namun tidak semua berperilaku sama

Bukan pula generalisasi, melainkan kesempatan

Berikan itu kepada mereka

itu saja…

“Budak negara,” sebutmu

Keistimewaan dari seorang pengemban negara

keistimewaan yang mereka dapat,

itu kutukan dan cacian darimu

“Halah, kerjanya cuma main zuma di kantor,”

bukan kritik kau serukan, cemooh

kau harusnya sadar, tidak semua seperti itu

Bila pun demikian, apa lakumu?

Seorang budak negara seperti katamu

sudah seharusnya memberikan nyawa demi negara tercinta

karena itu tanggung jawab

Lalu, bagaimana dengan keharusanmu?

Sudahkah kau penuhi?

Apakah kesadaran itu bahkan terlintas di benakmu?

Tiada pembangunan tanpa campur tanganmu

Tiada pendidikan tanpa kerelaan hatimu

Tiada kelayakan hidup tanpa keikhlasanmu

Tiada lagi permainan kotor dengan akal sehatmu

Tikus dari masa lalu tidak cukup dijadikan alasan

untuk tidak bertindak apapun atas negara ini

Presiden Amerika pernah berkata,

“Jangan tanyakan, apa yang telah negara berikan

tapi tanyakan, apa yang telah kalian berikan pada negara,”

Soekarno benar.

Tugasnya melawan penjajah lebih mudah

daripada tugas kau dan aku melawan bangsa kita sendiri

------- ditulis pada tanggal 24 April 2016 dalam rangka memenuhi tugas pengantar perpajakan: menulis prosa bertemakan perpajakan. Direvisi pada tanggal 22 Januari 2020.

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Yes. I did. It brought me peace. They didn’t need to know every details that happened in my life.

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Lights

"Some of us, like to stay out of the lights.

and the rest, live for the lights."

- magnolia

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pillow harry <3

That’s how Ginny invited herself to stay the night at Harry’s place after her very first exhausting professional Quidditch practice. Eventually, he didn’t want her to leave too and they both moved in together :)

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