[quotemadness]

What if I slept a little more and forgot about all this nonsense.

Franz Kafka

[quotemadness]

“The strongest people have a past filled with chaos, heart break and disappointment.”

— r.h. Sin

[quotemadness]

“Remember that you were art long before he came to admire you, and you’ll continue to be art even when he’s gone. A masterpiece is still a masterpiece when the lights are off, and the room is empty.”

— Charlotte Beier

[quotemadness]

“We just got to accept that some people can only be in our hearts, not in our lives.”

— Kathy B.

[sparkandashes]

Remember that if you’re away from them, you’re definitely closer to something more deserving. Perhaps that is why you’re away from them.

[sparkandashes]

No matter how many chances you give, the wrong love never turns right, it always hurts.

[abbvee]

i’m living a nightmare that i want to so badly wake up from but this is reality.

heartbroken af i just don’t understand.

[abbvee]

usually i’m not one to think of thoughts like these since ive grown so much and so strong, and to ever question my worth ever again, and to never feel like i’m the one to blame compared to how i felt when i was younger. but when i do get random thoughts of sadness it makes me wonder if im hard to love.

the pain i’ve gone through sometimes and to never look back, but be able to see the growth from it where i can reflect about it and not feel some way. but sometimes it still stings.

[abbvee]

they say celebrate your friends’ wins, no matter how big or small. it’s good to feel good, and making people feel important and being there for them.

one of my best friends finally got her first big girl job. so i wanted to celebrate by taking her out to dinner. i usually am not pressed for bougie restaurants bc so far the ones i’ve tried were not impressive and the cost didn’t match up to the quality. but, i’m learning to experience more now that we’re getting older, and it’s ok to discover and explore things once in a while for a special occasion.

trying to pick out a place for the last couple hours and it just hit me with a sad feeling. no one really did the same for me. twice. when i went through a lot before getting my first big girl job and moving to somewhere new. and another leveled up move when i made the switch to an extremely better job.

no one was ever there for me. i’m ok with being a good friend. but this just made me notice i never really got the same treatment or even close to what my other friends do and the princess treatments they give to eachother.

it just makes me sad. because i had a broken past when i was younger when it came to friendships and not being very fair. or anyone noticing things they’d get and everyone else and i planning. but when it came to me for anything, no one was there the same for me. and i’m a type of person that’s for the materialistic things or needs treats, and i don’t expect anything either. it just hurts sometimes when everything all together hits me. yeah i’m blessed w better friends now that i’m older. but no one ever really pays attention or goes the extra mile like they would to our other friends. and it lowkey hurts. i feel like that’s why i grew so independent. which is a super good thing, but when you dig deeper, the hidden stuff behind it, is i got tired and my ability to trust has been injured by people systemically letting me down and failing me. and everything i have, ive had to work harder to get to. it lowkey irks me when some get princess treatments and still feel unloved or have no friends.

[abbvee]

im tired of being misunderstood with anything and everything. by friends and family.

[redrola]

[anxietyproblem]

[abbvee]

i dont like my peace being disturbed

[fleurjardin]

[abbvee]

still hurting when i think about it. i deserve at least the bare minimum. need to continue this cold cut off for my own sake and stay strong bc fuck that.

[abbvee]

disappointed but not surprised.

[abbvee]

so sick of everything and my mom doesn’t make it any better. i’m a freaking adult. i don’t understand why i have to go through this bs. everything just seemed to get better and then it just has to become complicated.