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≋ 𝐁𝐑𝐀𝐗𝐓𝐎𝐍 𝐑𝐈𝐏𝐒𝐎𝐌 // CHAPTER ONE.

                       QUESTIONS,  SO  MANY  QUESTIONS     …     someone  was  always  in  his  face,  always  bothering  him  with  a  million  retorts.  with  tilted  heads  they  would  pretend  they  CARED,  but  he  could  see  the  truth  in  their  eyes.  they  didn’t  look  sad,  they  had  a  sparkle  in  their  eyes.  like  this  was  exciting,  like  this  was  a  thrill  for  them.  how  nice  for  them,  that  his  twin  sister’s  murder  was  so  much  fun.

                       not  that  anyone  else  knew  she  was  DEAD.

                       missing  was  still  the  word  being  thrown  around  but  braxton  knew  the  truth.  he  had  felt  it  the  moment  that  she  died,  he  had  felt  the  PAIN  in  his  gut  and  then  nothing.  his  parents  didn’t  believe  him,  in  fact  he  was  pretty  sure  they  were  going  crazy.

                          HE  HATED  SCHOOL  NOW     …     he  used  to  loved  it.  he  loved  learning,  he  loved  friends,  he  loved  everything.  but  without  betty,  it  seemed  pointless.  he  didn’t  bother  talking  to  people,  not  that  many  wanted  to  be  friends  with  him.  they  wanted  answers,  then  they  wanted  nothing.  he  was  just  the  boy  who  lost  his  TWIN  and  mother  stands  outside  the  school  crying.  so  when  he  closed  his  locker  and  saw  the  other  standing  before  him.  he  turned  away,  “  just  leave  me  alone  okay?  i  don’t  have  any  answers.  ”  he  assumed  that’s  all  they  really  wanted  from  him  anyway.

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𝐑𝐄𝐁𝐄𝐂𝐂𝐀 𝐖𝐀𝐒𝐍’𝐓 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐍 𝐒𝐔𝐑𝐄 𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐒𝐀𝐘 𝐓𝐎 𝐇𝐈𝐌. it’s not like she could just walk up to him and be like yo my brother died wanna go halfies on an ice cream? it doesn’t work like that. hell, she’s still trying to process and mourn her own loss -- a loss that she’s been trying so hard to avoid these days. it’s hard to be grieving child in a town that continuously ignores the pain. still, she gets it, and some part of her wanted to tell him that.

she just... didn’t know how.

❝ i wasn’t -- i wasn’t going to ask you anything, ❞ she finally manages to say. she feels awkward now, her hands hidden in the pockets of her dungarees as she rocks from foot to foot. ❝ i was just -- i mean -- ❞ her mouth slowly closes and her lips press together in a thin line. god, this is hard.

❝ i was gonna go get ice cream -- wanna, uh... wanna join? ❞

okay, so maybe there is a question.

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@abcvewater sent: ‘KISS FOR BECCA’ ||  First 3 2 get a kiss - accepting.

Joe found himself drifting again but not because he was bored of listening to her talk but because there was figure waving at him from the end of the bridge. He already knew it wasn’t real. He’d seen it before– a woman with death tearing at her skin and a grin that was begging him to give up. She’d been on the ship with him– they all had at some point or another. She’d shown up when he started thinking about Cassandra as if a way to taunt him just as the vision of his son did. He hadn’t seen her since the ship though until recently when he started spending more time with Becca. Her smile and kind words triggering something inside his head where toxins seeped and poured to ruin everything he found good. 

That’s what it did almost daily for his son so why wouldn’t it towards the woman he started to fancy. He would’ve been surprised if some horrible vision didn’t start showing its mug around once Becca returned interest in spending time with him. Still, it didn’t make it easier to see or to ignore. In fact it felt like it was just getting worse as the days went on, but he wasn’t ready to step away from what he thought could be blooming between them. No twisted vision was going to ruin that for him. It was the first time in a long time he actually felt something for someone.

He didn’t think it was going to happen after Cassandra and even more so after the Medan, but then she wandered into his view and well– well fuck, he wasn’t listening to her. The figure had since faded from view and he was turning his attention back to where she was beside him, looking at the carvings of different names on the fence. She’d said something but he hadn’t caught it which twisted his gut a bit but instead of pointing that out he just waited to see what she was going to do next. When she didn’t move from her crouched position he took the moment to admire her face and the way the sun seemed to kiss against her skin. He knew it was cheesy to have a thought like that, but it felt true to the moment. She really was something to look at and she made him feel…safe and not the town crazy who randomly saw things. 

She hadn’t ran away when he explained that he did see things, admitting that he was crazy despite having to keep the part about it not being his fault a secret. Instead she’d been understanding and…Fuck, Roberts. He needed to tough out his thoughts, needed to get to whatever point he was trying to find before the feeling in the moment passed. So he crouched down beside her to lean closer, brushing his nose against her hair and his lips to her ear,  ❝ You do know this is the Kissing Bridge, right? ❞

They’d kissed before– he made it seem like they hadn’t but they had and he was growing addicted to it. Everything about this moment wasn’t a reflection of wanting to take action for the first time but accepting that this was truly real to him. That what he was feeling was more than just some admiration for her. He didn’t know how to express that in words just yet but he knew he could in some form of touch. So rather than saying anything else he placed a kiss just below her ear then gently trailed a line across her jaw as he raised a hand to place against her cheek. He used the careful hold to turn her head until he was able to press a kiss to her lips, soft and warm– not rushed or filled with a want of anything, but just filled with a fire that said he didn’t want to let go of the moment.

He wasn’t sure how long they stayed like that– mouths connected and gently moving against one another, but when they did separate from it he smiled lightly at her,  ❝ Sometimes it feels like you’re just another one of the things I shouldn’t be seeing, Becs, but then I kiss you and– fuck, this sounded better in my head. Just. I care about you and for the first time in awhile something feels real. ❞

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[abcvewater]

becca is bleeding unfollows while stan is gaining them faster than i can cope with, do i switch them around and have him as the main or leave it as it is ??

[abcvewater]

≋ 𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄 𝐓𝐎 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐃 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐃𝐔𝐌𝐏𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐄 ;;

here.

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@intelligenceunit ( cpd-esque multi ).

@wcightofthcworld ( alex danvers ).

in bed ignoring responsibilities.

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[abcvewater]

so the hanlons owned a winchester rifle... looks like they contributed to the ghosts of the winchester house 😂😂

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i think i found my kris dsojfodsfj

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i finished the finances that i needed to do so i’m going to hop onto @derryweak and finish the last of the starters i owe so if anyone wants to plot that’s where i’ll be focusing on !!

[scotchymemes]

IT Chapter One (2017) Sentence Starters

You didn’t see the vomit coming out of my nose this morning? I’m not supposed to take stuff from strangers. Try tickling your pickle for the first time. A boy should be spending his summer outside with his friends. That’s poison ivy… That’s poison ivy – and that’s poison ivy. It’s probably just your breath wafting back into your face. What if I don’t want to find them? I don’t want to go missing either. It’s summer, we’re supposed to be having fun! Holy shit, what happened to you?! I’m glad I got to meet you before you died. There’s a kid outside who looks like someone killed him. From what I heard the list is longer than my wang. You went to the library? On purpose? If you’re crazy, then we’re all crazy. It’s not true, you know, what they say about me. I’ve only ever been kissed by one guy. Wait… Can only virgins see this stuff? Is this why I can’t see this shit? Go blow your dad, you mullet-wearing asshole! My grandfather thinks this town is cursed. They’re all like bad dreams. We’re all afraid of something. If you say it’s summer one more fucking time… You can’t go in there! Are you just going to pretend nothing’s happening just like everyone else in this town? I can’t believe I pulled the short straw. You guys are lucky we aren’t measuring dicks. It says I’m missing! We’re not playing hide and seek, dipshit! Stupid clowns… Where the fuck were her legs?! Tasty, tasty, beautiful flesh! I’m going to snap your arm back in place. Don’t fucking touch me, (…)! You couldn’t save him, but you can still save yourself. Placebo means bullshit. Where are you sneaking off to? People around town have been saying stuff about you, to me. You see that guy I’m hitting? I’m pretending it’s you. And just where do you think you’re going? If we stick together, all of us, we’ll win. I’m not afraid of you. I was looking for you this whole time. I couldn’t find my way out of here. I want more than anything for you to be home. I’ll feast on your flesh as I feed on your fear! Now you’re the one who’s afraid.

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funniest thing i’ve read all night fdjofsd